Aria opened her eyes once again from death.
'I have...to live from the age of seven again.'
Another new beginning after death.
I took a deep breath for the first time in this life.
"How long can I live this time? just how long?" i asked myself Stupidity
"I failed 7 times just to be loved and accepted to that stupid family...ha...ha"
I laughed like crazy knowing that How could I stupidly endure and hope that something would change for seven lifetimes?"
Trying to be loved?
Trying to be recognized?
Trying to be a part of a family...?
"...."
And then i stared to window "Just why did they manipulate me...how could i endure it my past self is...is full of drean wanting to have ordinary family
And just wished that someone would wish my genuine 'happy birthday' while I blew out the candles on the cake.
When it rained and stormed, I wanted to be able to hug a teddy bear gifted by my parents.
I wanted to be able to complain to my parents about not wanting to study or eat.
I wanted to get into trouble for eating sweets after dinner and getting cavities from it.
I wanted my parent will worried about me and will be taken care of me when I am sick
I Wanted my parent sleep with me and singing lullaby for me....
Yes in my past self I'm so greedy i expecting and hoping so much...
Yes, I could admit it now. The desperate fact that I cannot be loved...
I been admired as a prospective empress and had been viewed as the most beautiful flower in aristocratic society. The Agnes Family was able to strengthen their footing and remove all obstacles, thanks to the information I acquired after each rebirth but....
"Did you actually believe that you could become a real Agnes just because you did all of that for them?"
I devoted all my life and heart to the family, but I received nothing in return
No, it was more accurate to say that I was 'brainwashed' to think like that.
"I'm so tired.... i want to die should i die?..."
I lived too much and was sick of everything. and tired of the repeated life and torture.
I do everything to be loved and save our family reputation the only i receive is abusive, torture, neglected, and many horrific things, because of that stupid Brainwashed and manipulating
"Hah"
Aria laid on the bed weakly. And climbed off her bed with no expression on her face.
Rattle..Rattle
'Huh the door is Locked,'
*stare*
She stared emotionlessly at the door. By now, all her feelings had dried up. She didn't even need to try and guess the person who was trying to prank her. After all, she had experienced this prank numerous times in her past lives.
"Lorenzo..."
Lorenzo had often locked Aria in her room
"Hmn..."
Aria remembered both the beginning and the end of her lives.
It was her family who killed her in her first life
"Please unlock my room, brother! If I am late again this time, I have to starve for three days. Please….!"
"Only three days? I thought you'd starve for a week if you are late again! Geez, so annoying."
I remember that I had to starve for more than three days a week because of lorenzo It became a routine for me to soothe my hunger with water.
I didn't want to die of starvation, so I used to stand outside of my room and wait for the head maid to fetch her for her lessons. This way, I wouldn't be late or punished.
However, I contrary to what I expected, I was still punished for acting unladylike by standing outside my door...
'So after that I escaped through the balcony.'
In order to reach the first floor, I tore apart of my blankets and tied them together like a rope. That i would hand the rope on the balcony post and then climb down.
Unfortunately, the bedding I had was made from poor quality cloth. The fabric couldn't bear her weight and immediately ripped apart when I tried climbing down. I fell and almost died. But there's unexpectedly happend after that
I survive i didn't die...
WHOOSHHHH~~~~
Aria opened her eyes
"So comfortable...wait Huh.....
Blink... Blink... Blink
"Why Am I flaying with the dragon!?"
"A sprit dragon who help me to survive and become my first friend in first Lives"
Continue~