Megha had left yesterday night to spend her alone time and digest everything which has happened.
I cried the whole last night and have no idea when did I fall asleep. I woke early, the first morning without her by my side. My hand roamed around the other side of the bed in the habit of pulling her in my embrace as a good morning greeting. The warmness was missing it took time for my stupid brain to remember that she isn't here. My heart was suddenly heavy and I was again feeling very bad about myself for all the lies I have told and for the role-playing.
I tried my level best to push away the feeling of regret and loneliness for a while but all goes in vain. Every single thing in this house reminded me of her presence, her smile, her anger, and her everything. This place was completely filled with her and only her.
I couldn't handle this anymore so I went to Rachael's house probably being with the couple may make me feel better. I practically walked into their house without taking any permission.
"I will be staying here today", I declared to them and walked to the guest room.
I spent the whole day thinking about the past, maybe if I get a chance to rewind the time I would surely rectify this mistake of mine. Maybe by doing that I wouldn't have hurt her, hurt myself, and troubled everyone around me. I call her, text her, and mail her but no reply from her side. I never knew someone's ignorance can make me sad to this level.
I always loved staying in my place but today I don't even want to go near that house because before whenever I return, my sweet wife will be waiting for me and welcome me home every day with a beautiful smile plastered on her face and I used to have her in my arms.
I never knew that her absence could have such an effect on me. It is not even been 24 hours since she left me and I am already in the depths of depression, I know I have gone on trips without her but the situations are different that time we were on good terms but now we aren't.
After some time my mobile went on I excitedly took it hoping that it would be a message from Megha but it was just an advertising message from some clothing company. I threw the mobile on the bed frustrated and irritated. I pull my knees closer to my chest, bury my face in between the knees and start crying. I was becoming mentally and emotionally weaker with each passing second.
It is already dark outside, and I pack my things to take a leave.
"Krish stop right now", Riya ordered me and halted my moments
"Tell me Riya", I said to her and Rachael was standing next to her. He wanted to console me but he didn't know how to do that.
"You haven't had a bite since morning. Would you care to explain why?"
"I am not hungry that's all"
"Not hungry seriously Krish I have known for years together. You are just hurting yourself"
"I deserve this Riya, I deserve this for hurting Megha for betraying her. I lost her trust and love. I am nothing but just a loser", I was breaking down in front of them. I fell to my knees and Riya sat next to me and my head on her lap.
"Calm down Krish you are not a loser", Riya said trying to console me. She kept patting my head to make me feel better. She was a very good sister to me, she listened to all my ramblings and tried to console me.
After a crying session, I convinced the couple after great difficulty to let me go back to my house and that I can take care of myself.
I walk towards my house but halted on my way. I sat on a bench in a nearby park in my neighborhood.
I was sitting for a long time devasted, exhausted, guilty, and with my eyes clouded with tears that were threatening to keep rolling down my eyes forever. I jolted with the feel of a patting on my shoulder blades. I turn around and find the one and only Jones Mathew standing there.
"Krish", he called my name after settling down next to me.
"How do you know?" I questioned him. Then I mentally face-palmed myself for asking such a stupid question obviously Megha would have told him everything already after all he is her brother.
"Your wife told me whatever happened"
"Then why are you here Mathew you must feel great seeing me here all broken. Why don't laugh at me? I am at last a loser Mathew"
"Shh Krish I am not here for that"
"Then"
"Let's have a small talk."
"Hmm"
"Remember you are not a loser"
"But she left me", I don't know why but I wanted to share whatever I feel with him.
"She will come back to you soon Krish, give her some time she loves you more than anyone in this world", his words were soothing my pain
"How are you sure?"
"She is my sister, and I have been with her for a long time and I know what will my sister do."
"I made an unforgivable mistake"
"No Krish you didn't, you just love her so much that's why you did all this thinking to make her happy. Your intentions weren't wrong."
"I hope so. You are changed"
"I know that once upon a time I was rogue but I am not like that anymore. I have grown up as a better person after realizing my mistakes"
"You are much more mature and responsible now"
"After getting expelled I met Catherine she made me understand my mistakes. Then I came back rushing to India to apologize to you and Megha. You know what happened after that. Maybe being a brother to Megha and a father to Sahana made me much more mature and responsible."
"I am sorry, I was just jealous that you were speaking to Megha and I had a very bad opinion about you back then"
"Back then does that mean you have a different impression on me now"
"After hearing about how you stood by my wife and took care of her for the past few years, I guess we need to start bonding. Can we be friends?"
"For sure, brother-in-law", he said cheerfully. Did he just call me brother-in-law, but I am happy instead of getting irritated with him addressing me like that? Maybe Jones Mathew is returning to my life again but this time as a good family member who might become an important person to me in the future.
I believe in what Mathew said, she will return to me. His words have bought a new ray of hope to me. Now all I need to do is stay patient.
Krish, you need to work hard now, prove to her your love and yourself, and make her yours as soon as possible.