In anger Haneul splashed water over his face, staring at his reflection. He couldn't control the urge to break the mirror into pieces leaving his fist bloody and his mind too chaotic to register the pain from the impact. Everything about this evening felt so wrong except Dana...she could never be wrong, her face couldn't her voice was too pure to but how she made him feel even after all this years that he thought he totally hated her was. He couldn't bare seeing how comfortable she felt around that arrogant brat Feng Lixin and how distant she seemed, it was as though the Cailong he knew was completely dead, she had said it herself the other night but just now he had seen and felt a different persona.
To worsen everything his frustration had led him to kiss that snake Seo-Jun. He had kissed her so hard he bit open her lips.
It wasn't until she flooded her way into his head once again...the memories from that night at the park the first time he had ever kissed a girl with the force she had pushed him away from her that night he exerted double as he pushed Seo-Jun from his body leaving her to glare at him.
"You are still thinking about her right??!!!!" Seo-Jun said breathing hard from the kisses or it was the anger that was building up in her chest .
Without a word Haneul grabbed his coat and tie as he stood to his feet and headed for the door whilst buckling his undone buttons and belt.
"Answer me!!!! Answer me!!! I asked you something you son of a bitch!!!" Seo-Jun screaming hauling blows at Haneul.
"You still love that witch? A murderer?!!! You love that sluuuuu..." Seo-Jun couldn't complete her words as Haneul grabbed her hands and pushed her to the bed.
"Look. I do not owe you an explanation. What's going on between us is just a business deal. Whatever happened here isn't different from what happens between me and girls that I pay. I'll send your pay to your account even though we only just made out which YOU initiated. I didn't invite you up to my lodge so I don't know why you left the goddamn party or what you were thinking!!!! " Haneul spoke calmly as he dressed up before slamming the door leaving a half dressed Seo-Jun on the bed in angry tears. Years after Cailong had finally left their lives and she still managed to cause so much problems for her. "I managed to get rid of your existence from planet Earth Cailong and I would still get rid of every bit of memory of you!" Seo-Jun swore as she drew in smoke from the cigarette in between her fingers now in a bathrobe standing over the terrace still in Haneul's room.
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The memories of everything that had happened made Haneul feel dizzy plus he had lost so much blood. Unwilling to go back to his room cause he knew all too well that head strong witch would still be up there he headed for the party and just like a fool he watched Dana and Linx from a distance downing shots of alcohol each time they got close. He watched her till she got into the driver's seat on the limo they had driven in with.
Wanting to make sure she got home safe he followed the limo not until he felt too angry and confused he reversed after following them for over eleven minutes, with great speed he headed for the beach.
"Urggghh!!! What have you done to me Cailong?! Why! Why! Why did you have to come back...why did you have to be so close to me yet I can't touch you because of how much I hate you!!" Haneul screamed into the stars as he sat alone on the beach drinking.
"Just leave ... just leave me be you hear??! I am so tired... Too tired to keep on loving you when I know you would never feel the same way.. " tears streamed down his eyes, tears he had held back in for years, tears he could no longer keep when he had touched her earlier at the party she felt so real then, like it was really his Cailong and not him having a long long night mare or series of illusions.
His men would not believe their eyes seeing their boss in this state someone who didn't as much as crack a smile since he returned from the states.
Sliding a cigarette in his mouth like he always did whenever he was upset without ever lighting it, the last time he had tried to he ended up coughing for more than an hour. He shut his eyes as he took a long deep breath of the cold ocean breeze shivering a little as he pressed the small locket he wore around his neck on his chest "at least I can have you next to my heart here Cailong ." He spoke looking over at the picture of a very fair curly haired girl doning a large smile on her face.
His heart beat fast as he remembered the promise he made to his dad to avenge his death but how was he supposed to do that when that murderer was the woman he loved from the first day he set eyes on her...one he couldn't live without.
What great sin had he committed in his past life to deserve such punishment from fate...he thought to himself.
The silence and stillness around him was disrupted his train of thought when his phone buzzed beside him.
When he glanced over his heavy eyes could make out only a few words "text from Seo-Jun~ Qin Haneul we need to discuss urgently."