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Chapter 5 - bitter memories

I learned others skill such as stitching, cooking ,computer, jewelry making etc. all considered me perfect girl when my 3rd brother marriage going to held once more I thought that everything is going to perfect because my nephew in 9th class. but happened sad incident.

I decided to commit suicide after that I began to seem innocent because to get good fame have to die in this society and people make die through taunts and mock. But I did not commit suicide because in childhood I had watched a motivational program regarding problem solution in which he thought that whenever you get worry nobody to share and listen the problem then you began to write on page after some time you will relies and laugh on your past incident that was cause of your sadness, weeping and crying. I was conducting that from childhood really it's worked. I wrote everything and consider others mistake mine and I calculated that its worth make 3lacks pkr (0.3 millon) I thought inside in my heart that I can gathered it in one year. It's a pity amountWhy should I commit suicide for such petty amount? Because "Many a little makes a mickle"(bond bond kr k ghara bhar jata hy) Why hurt old parents no never. Later everything be good and better.

Now Began Ramadan fasting month I utter, that I shall start job after 'Eid. I was satisfied as per my plan. Life become easier. Because "Time is the universal healer"

suddenly my father that went to village to drop my sister in law( younger brother wife) while coming back to attend wedding ceremony he got heart attack and water filled into his lungs he rashly brought to Karachi and shifted to NICVD hospital .where doctor diagnosed his illness they diagnosed water filled into his lungs in past he was smoker due to his lungs got damged.my father 12 days remain hospitalized in ICU where doctor shifted him on ventilator for 3 days due to week lungs and breathing later he shifted to ICU where he survived . In 12 days neither nobody asked about financial help nor offer condolences. "Friends fall off in adversity"

They had utters when will die your father for funeral and last ritual rites must bring him in village. I got so hurt about my relatives blood relation that my father whole life has spent to make happy them now this condition they brought reward of callousness no body offer pray of health. Non relatives offer wish prays encouragement regarding my father get well soon. Later let it be done my father get recover soon .and come into home to recover from illness to walking on his own foot. And all relatives' mouth shut up. "False friends are worse than bitter enemies"

Now neither have any hope nor necessity of good thing except god. Despite of that aforementioned incident. What I think of the past today is nothing special except bitter memories

I am still alive and life running in the hope and wait of joy of moment. Because "No joy without alloy"

Thank you.