Today It is all about me.I decided to take a break from all this emily's scandal. Besides I have life as well , I got my friends who have been complaining about me mizing them. I got dad as well who have been asking me why I was skipping breakfast I wasn't eating dinner, supper, lunch with him. I had no time for my family no time for my friends and no time for my self as well. It was too much already. I wasn't normally, All I wanted this past few days was Truth but then , The road to closure Is so damn long , it stressing the hell out of my system. I couldn't take it anymore, I need a me time, a me moment , a me Happiness last but not least I need a me space. Emily has been confusing me .some days I couldn't eat nor sleep as well .I was dying for truth, but that truth is hard to find...There is too much stress, Anxiety,pain , numbness, emptiness, in this path of finding truth behind emily's death. Its slowly destroying me in the inside ,I am not okay at all. I am emotionally drained, spirituality empty, psychological disturb but then Physical I am fine .This is all the main reasons why I chose taking a break , I mean If I forced things and carry on, I would have gone mad or ended up committing a suicide like my lovely cousin Emily Martin.
Enough about all this mystery.I did this for my health as well that's why I Decided to spend Quality time with my friends, Mason, Kelly , kimmy and Annabelle.They are my life as well we have been friends since childhood. There's absolutely nothing that will come between Us and that's a fact.
We took an oath when we were little that there's nothing and no one that will separate us, We will always there for each other till death. I can proudly say that I had find a family in them ,They all play a huge role in my life.
This few days They have been calling me non-stop asking me if there's something wrong? If They did something to upset me. I told the them that they did nothing I just needed time and space.If I told them the truth ,They would say "Let bygones be bygones".
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couldn't easily let go of the truth I am doing all this for dad. He deserve the truth, I hate seeing him like this. He is never sober he's either drunk or tipsy. Some days I find him crying or talking alone like a madperson .When emily die. She took something she didn't die alone she passed away with his joy and left him miserable. She was his all . There relationship was untouchable, unconditional, real she was daddy's Angel after all.
I Love how dad take care of me . Yes my relationship with daddy is so fucken tight, there's absolutely nothing that will come between Us. It will always be Me and Him. I will never hurt him like emily . I will bring peace, Happiness, closure and that piece that emily passed away with .I will give him his world again.I will bring back all the happy memories They shared with emily. I will give him all the things that died when emily dies. HE deserve all the things that I've mentioned. I am confident that I will give him all he has been lacking.I will bring back his old self before emily's death .I hate seeing him doubting himself , Question if he is a good dad to me .I hate all this that's why I am doing this for him.