Ryan’s POV
Lying down on my bed, I asked myself.
“Am I selfish and unfair?”
Terban was my first love. I studied in this school and accepted living in a boarding house with men because I wanted to see him. And yet, I didn’t expect to fall in love with another guy.
I caressed my forehead which Terban kissed last night.
“My heart hurt so much when he did that.”
Why? I was so sure that my heart belonged to Slyvester. Why am I feeling this way?
“Should I burn myself and die?”
No. Burning until death might be so painful.
“Then, drown myself?”
That is too… barbaric.
“Dying with gunshot might be the easiest way. But where will I buy a gun? If I look for an illegal seller, I’ll end up in jail. If I go to jail, I cannot eat fried chicken and coke anymore. Beer too.”
I shook my head to get rid of my silly thoughts.
“Damn imagination. I’m hungry.”
