As Cillian's thoughts wavered toward Gege he became more stressed and his heartbeat quickened. When Cillian made a mistake, he stopped playing.
He swallowed and looked down. He feels nervous about the future, more like he's and Gege's. He doesn't know who he is, what if he is a bad guy? What if he works for the Celestials?
What if there's no happily ever after for them? What if he can't be with him for eternity? What if Gege doesn't care about him and he's just using him to be free? He fell in love with a stranger. He could be the devil for all he knows.
Cillian let out a breath, okay, he needs to calm down. He's spiraling because he's getting closer. The only way to get the answers to his questions is if he gains the power of this world, and for that, he needs to focus.
He took a breath to calm down his erratic heartbeat. Cillian closed his eyes a second, then opened them. He said, his head still down:
"Let's go again."
