Days passed but he was still waiting. His heart never gave up for her and during office hours, he would act normal but to those easy observants, they knew their boss was not alright, right from his eyes. He never greeted his employees nor make fun like he used to do, even those close to him, thought maybe, he was going under a certain pressure. He never mentioned what was wrong with him but deep down their hearts, his brothers new, he was alone. He was suffering from love betrayal all by himself. He was blaming himself for falling for someone who didn't cared about his feelings at all. They wanted to help, but where would they start from? Who'll start a conversation with him yet his attention is drifted far away from another world? They all sat down in one room, not giving each other a word apart from complaining to the ceiling down their solemnly hearts.
' Is either we should find Mrs Alin or find away to bring our Boss happy face back. Am scared even to stare at his face. He can take off your tongue for a second just for a stupid mistake.' Charles suggested with a complain breaking the hot silence between them.'
' How?' asked Anderson.' Do you think it is that easy? '
Bailey scoffed, then went silent again as if he hasn't heard anything.
' What's wrong with you? Do you think this is a joke? ' Bean fired him.'
' Did l do something wrong? What else do you expect me to do? Am as clueless as you all are. Don't give those looks as if am the cause of everything.'
' You know this things. How your first girlfriend Ashley broke up with you. You never slept for a whole year? '
' Year? Oow, stop your exaggerations Benny. It was only two to three months.'
' See! Thank goodness you've said it with your own mouth. No one would have believed us.'
' Yeah! Have been yearning to hear that from his mouth too, my heart is now safe. He won't dare to love again.'
' Bean! Shut up. You don't know how it feels to be rejected especially by those you love. You'll understand better when your first woman will leave you.'
' Huh! Isn't that the main reason why am not dating. I learned it from you, that's why am too careful to fall for someone. I don't want to end up just like you guys.'
' It is never easy dude. Finding a love partner, isn't that easy. You find the one you love, but she doesn't love you, you find the one you don't love, but she loves you. Love is like a moving craft, when it slips, you all fall down in water then you die, and when it moves, you all survive.' Charles explained, them giving him a curious expression that left a confusion sign on his face.'
' Woow! Is that how you explain how love works? That's so scandalous.'
' Nope. It isn't. Everyone has their own ways of explaining things. You might not get it, cause you've never gone through it, Bean. One day, you'll know what l am talking about.'
' Hey! Am just twenty one. I know everything that goes around the sun and comes back.'
' You know what goes around the sun but not in the darkness. Great things gets hidden in darkness and not in day lights.' Bailey corrected.'
' Woow! Better educate me then since am doing science.'
' Science doesn't need to be there for you to know everything. Is a matter of understanding what's going on everyday in your daily lives.'
' Anderson, l tell you you're doing a hard work to explain that to some foolish people like Bean. They'll never catch anything no matter how many years you say it. Their ears are always closed.'
' Benny, you've started right. I'll bombed you with one word and you'll surely zip it. How can You say that?'
' Tsc, am l not saying the truth? How many times have you consulted us to tutor you on love matters.'
' Eek! You're lying. I can't believe you are saying this?'
' It is true, Bean. You can beat me if you want, but the truth will remain as it is.'
' Hey! You filthy.....'Jeez! Wait! You'll see.'
' Am l not seeing? Was l blind before?'
' Hey you...'
' Stop quarreling you morons. I don't know what happened till it came to this point. We were discussing a serious matter. Get that.' Bailey retorted staring at both of them.'
' Sorry.... It is just that this kid won't listen. He's such a schmuck.'
' Am not a kid, idiot. Am Bean, Bean Terry.'
' Am Benny Terry too.'
' Guys, if you continue with this little fight of yours, it'll end as a disaster. Please, we are here to help our brother. Not to hear your quarrels. Brother is enduring his pain with stoicism. He isn't showing it but we can tell.' Bailey explained as the room they were all hiding in, the door gets opened revealing Benzyl, his red and gloomy eyes staring at them angrily.'
' Sorry to disturb you. Am leaving for a walk, l might get home late so don't wait for me. And again, am not suffering from any disease. Am okay, keep that in mind. No need to find a cure for me, l can help myself with that.' he announced silently closing the door behind him. Again, a feeling of fear and anxiety landed on them as they look at each other with a confuse looks.'
' Matter closed. No more discussion.'
' Why?' Andy asked Benny who was gathering himself up.'
' Because am not ready to die. Didn't you see they way he stared at us? He knew we were discussing about him. So, am off with this. I won't engage myself in such a matter, never.' And he stormed out without hearing another word from them.'
' Me too.' Bean retorted standing too, leaving the three of them both stranded on what to do. A violent shiver convulsed them after what they heard from Benny and Bean and unable to speak too, they stood up one by one walking outside.'
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Benzyl slowly drove down streets unable to understand himself. To the point of, not being able to find away to shutter his feelings forever. He had thought that it'll be easy to deal with it, but the pain was getting deeper and deeper and somehow he felt like he was the cause of all the things that had happened. He shouldn't have been egocentric towards her. By wanting to pleasure her but deep down he knew, she didn't like it.
' How selfish could l be? I shouldn't have rushed her on such things. It was her first time so l would have waited for the perfect time to reach.' he cursed himself down, his palms hitting on the beeping sound of the steering wheel.'
' Am so sorry. My greedyness is eating me now. I should have been more sure if you wanted me.' he cried now his head resting on the wheel.'
To his dismay, he forgot that he was in the middle of the road. A tractor carrying heavy loads came from nowhere and it crashed with his car which to his luck he manage to throw himself out his head hitting on a stone hardly as the car falls down the river breaking the bridges. He tried to gather himself up, but darkness filled his eyes as he unconsciously falls to sleep not knowing his brain was totally damaged. He shouldn't have been more careless while driving. His instincts was blaming him for no reasons yet he didn't had another choice than to go along with it by believing that he was the cause of her to walk away from his life.