Why am I younger and why is another version of me in front of me ? How does that make any sense ? Is it time for me to slowly recover my memory ? To keep me safe from external danger ?
"You hear me ? You hear me ? If you do, repeat after me... I am you and you are me."
"I am you and you are me." I can't control anything I do, I'm stuck to what I'm remembering as correct.
She claps with her hands, roll her eyes and then take me to the bed where we both lie on.
The me I'm in is speaking, smiling widely like the bright sun and being as carefree as when I was 8, actually her body is accurately the 8 years old me.
"Do you know the meaning of stars where you come from ? I want to be as shiny as them."
"I came hear to find shelter for a year. I don't want to go back to where I belong." she said a little depressed look stuck on her face.
"Do you know the stars from where you come from ?" I asked innocently.
"Stop it, you're being annoying with that."
"But but I want to know about the stars ! I want to know why they shine so brightly !" my past me insisted.
"I shouldn't be here, I should have been sacrificed for the greater good. All the stars are gone in my world, I have been cursed by everyone from my world, I shouldn't be talking to you."
"It's okay... You can talk to me. My mother always says that the world doesn't run around us but that we run around the world. It must be sad without stars..."
"I know you are only 8 but... why are you being nice to me ? I can't return home because my world is gone and I can't change it." the other me cries putting her face next to my legs.
"Because I love you. You are my sister."
"Why don't you hate me ?"
"Because hate is not healthy, because in order to love you I need to love myself. Then hating you would be hating myself ?" she wondered while unaware of being right.
"Then how do we tell your parents that I am you from another..."
"Another world ? Dimension ? Alternative reality ? Universe ? Does it matter ? You are here and can't leave, so stay with me forever eweweh !" I can't believe I was so cute back then.
I've convinced myself to stay with me just by being cute, how insanely cool of me, but why can't I still remember how she came to hate me and how I came to hate her ?
"You see, I need to get a name for convenience or your parents will confuse me with you and..."
"And we need to give you another hairstyle or an accessory ! Can you transform ?"
"Yes, absolutely. Still, I will not do it. Give me a name, something that you will remember forever and ever."
"I had one but I forgot."
"Just give me one."
"Then huh what about Sulfur !? Because huh... since you are me you know what it means for me." my past me said, hiding herself in the thing called a drap.
Both of me were going to the kitchen and we played with food because we both liked the same things, then she was my big sister from somewhere, then who was this Sulfur to me ? I quite don't understand anything else, It was just a fun day in my life I guess whenever we played, we slept well and the next day happened. My parents came home and noticed that there were two of me, impossible to distinct unless you are using magic or have a deep relationship.
"So which one of you wants to hug me ?" smiles my mom at us.
"Me, me, me ! I love you mommy !" I was very much in want of affection everyday so... pretty much normal to me.
"Ahem, you see mom I'm in a... little need of a hug."
"So the one on the left is my child and the one on the right is someone else ?" Asks my dad, he was confused and I can't blame him, especially since he guessed correctly.
"Hehe. We should keep her too, what is your cute little name ?" demands my kind mother to my friend.
"Su... Sulfur !"
"You are my daughter now." smiles my mom.
"And my daughter too." continues my dad.
"I'm sorry love, it's just making me so happy to have more than one child to take care of since I can't be pregnant anymore." she laughs.
My father wasn't saying anything at this remark and rolled his eyes, he took it as a joke but... maybe it makes sense that I actually have no brother, but why would mom be saying that ?
I was running and I've hugged her once close enough, same for Sulfur, then we did the same with dad to not let him being sad.
Even that day, nothing my family did would make Sulfur smile, not even just a little, everyday she would open up to me just before bed time to tell me about her past, something I can relate to as of now but not for the past me.
"It's been a month. Do you wish to know the hidden truth about my past ? It's too soon for me."
"Why is it too soon ? I like you so tell me please please please ! I promise I won't tell anyone." I was too curious there.
"Swear it on your life." I got goosebumps out of the way she said it, as if she would push me into a wall.
"I can't..."
"See, I can't trust you... yet. I will tell you on your birthday as a parting gift."
The young me didn't talk back, we spent lot of adventures together in the village, we were trying to be nice like my parents. When I think about it, I often forget to talk of my father to give him credit since he has given me motivation and that made me even more obsessed with the stars, even to this day I want to reach the stars, to become impotent and make my childhood dream a reality.
The days continued without interruption, there were a lot of informations to take into account and she made everything go faster until my birthday came, Sulfur and my parents were all present on this special day. They surprised me in my room with a cake with snow and chocolate on it, I've been so happy that day that I finished my cut in a single strike.
They had made two since it was also Sulfur's birthday, we wished an happy birthday to each other and she finally revealed me her secret once we were out of our parents hearing zone behind our house.
"Sanaë, Cupidon changed me. I hope to never see you again." she pushes me.
And as she was about to left, I jumped on her, she fell and I started crying from the bottom of my heart to stop her from leaving, I even slapped her face many times without her stopping me even once, she didn't defend herself, I started screaming.
"What do you mean Cupidon changed you !?"
"I was never meant to be happy. He made me realize, love is terrible."
"I don't understand !"
"I am in love with Cupidon and I don't want to be. Don't try anything that could make a god angry." she remains calm.
"Shut up ! Love is awesome ! It's because of love from mom and dad that I'm happy ! Why are you never happy !?" I can feel my past rage.
"God made me that way. They can change anything they want to us as long as it in their power. They can turn me into a rabbit if they want. Love is horrible, no one ever loved anyone. It's just what the Gods wants us to believe, that we are not under their control !"
"Shut up, shut up, shut up ! You are cursed that's why you think that ! Love is the best feeling in the world, to love and to be loved ! No one forced me to like you, no one forced my parents to feed me everyday. They don't love themselves because a god said so, It's their true feelings !"
"You are such a retarded kid, I'm already 10 years older than you. The curse might have made me look like you or maybe it was a God and Gods can remove curses just like Cupidon. I've met him and he knows perfectly that I will become his... that I'm willing to kill you if it means to get his love. Get out of my way !" it felt to me like she was crying in her inner self.
She sent a firebeam next to me, missing on purpose and running away, I couldn't catch up to her and she disappeared from my sight while I was too tired to continue chasing her because of the cake I had eaten.
A year passed without any news of her and by going into my grandfather's secret place I found a way to find where was Sulfur. I didn't know how the mechanism worked so I failed many times until I was able to make the good call and opened the door to what seemed like a new world, something in the sky and Sulfur was there with a young blond teenager with masculine traits, he instantly charged the arrow that appeared in his hand and shot me with his arrow and I had no time to dodge it, Sulfur noticed me on the ground I fell on after receiving the arrow in my heart.
"What are you doing here Sanaë ! Go away now !"
"No, I'm fine with her staying. Have you ever been jealous Sulfur, maybe it is time to be. I think I love little Sanaë even more than you."
It seems that Sulfur tried to stop herself, she punched herself but Cupidon was manipulating her by saying words I could not hear. Somehow I could guess that her face was too red, by the time I stand up she had time to run at me and catch me.
"I want you to live... Just accept it."
"I don't know... much... about gods but I want you to be happy ! I can't leave without you ! The Love you want isn't from a blonde clown like him ! I-I..."
"Shut up ! I shouldn't regret killing you, but I will until he does make me forget about you."
I didn't have much going for me at that time, she had the upperhand and a magic powerful enough to kill me. At that instant when I grabbed the arrow out of my body, I closed my eyes and saw the future that awaited me back then.
Cupidon made us both into his lovers, I didn't acknowledged this reality and managed to find a way to beat him directly at the past present. I fought a one sided battle with Sulfur, she completely burned me with her pink fire magic but nothing happened to me, once she noticed, my sister understood that her magic wouldn't work on me and so she punched and slapped me constantly, each one was stronger than the previous one, she was so made that it made me laugh and by doing that I provoked her, she looked at the blond whenever she could and at the end of the day she made me feel like I was about to die with her last punch on my stomach, I faked being unconscious my eyes closed and listened to them while also letting the arrow fall from my hand.
"I love you Cupidon." she said happily.
"I know I know, you are worthy of my love so give me a favor and bring me my arrow. I'll kiss you as a reward." he certainly smiled, argh so arrogant.
"I'm happy to be of use to you." she said that while taking the arrow and gave it to him.
"I love you too." he says, making her smile, It's the first time I've seen it. "Now then..."
He remained silent for a while, sitting on his cloud-like chair, his arrow on his knees and he kissed her passionately as she closed her eyes to kiss him in return filled with even more love.
In that short span of time, I opened my eyes, caught the arrow and stabbed his heart with it, he realized and stopped what he was doing with Sulfur, he stared at me and has actually fallen for me, with that I learned that Cupidon's magic wasn't his own and I could order him.
"Free Sulfur from that fake love !"
"Even if you order me, I am not able to cancel it."
"Just... Disappear, cease to exist ! I hate you ! It would make me so happy if you died !" I... I really said that...
Even while that young I understood what this god meant, since the power didn't came from him, it meant that the source of his power was his bow and arrows, which means that Cupidon is the bow. The fake one was that teenager and he died right in front of Sulfur and she screamed in terror when she saw her lover die pierced by dark bindings, she stared at me full of madness and before I could grab the bow that happened to fly, it went blinked into Sulfur's soft hands and it transformed the pink bow into a purple one and the arrows disappeared from my sight.
"I'll never forgive you ! Because of you I can't return home ! I was finally happy and you took that away from me !" she screamed so hard that anyone could have heard it if it was a normal place.
"I-I had to ! Your feelings were, they were not yours !" I cried, why did she sudden... the bow is responsible but at that time I couldn't make it clear.
"I will not let you go unpunished. I'll curse you with Love ! You will love many living forms, you will be obsessed with the people you really love, you will love to hate me, you will be the monster that ruins your own life."
My heart right now is in pain, the memory fades away as she is hissing, I'm finally out of this place and I've appeared in my master's ship in my bedroom lying on my own bed, I don't understand why there but now I need to know how to lift a curse.
"Shadow, Shadow are you there ?"
No answer, I guess it leaves me with no choice, this would explain why I'm so obsessed with Olivia, but if it was a lie that means I'm normally like this, she became a replacement to hold Cupidon and cursed me because of the pain of that guy dying, but in that case why was I able to not fall in love ?
"Welcome home Ellen, will you pardon me for being late to your call ?" he says behind my door.
"Yes. I think you know secrets that my master is not willing to tell me."
"Allow me to enligthen you. But first, let me enter your room."
And so this will be the first time me and Shadow would be on our own, it's strange that this is actually happening. Out of everyone I know, he is the most suspicious person, I had my doubts for a while but he is definitely a god and I will make him confess !