In the kitchen, after pouring water into the pot. Hanin sat limply, weeping and letting go of all the burdens in her heart. Really her chest feels tight with Hasta's condition and Hasta's love for her.
"Oh my God, what should I do now? I don't even know what I'm feeling anymore. To whom do I really feel, Oh God, please guide me so that I don't regret it in the future?" Hanin said in her heart while crying sadly.
After removing all the burdens of her heart by crying, Hanin took the boiling water and mixed it with cold water into a basin.
Carrying warm water ready, Hanin returned to Hasta's room. And he saw Hasta was arranging his clothes into the suitcase.
"Mr Hasta? what are you doing?" asked Hanin putting the basin on the table, and approached Hasta.
"I'll go Nin, and don't hold me back anymore. You are an adult now and you can take care of yourself. I will immediately send proof of our divorce so that you are free to do anything." Hasta said while putting his clothes into the suitcase without looking at Hanin's face.
"Mr. Hasta is not going anywhere." Hanin said in a trembling voice holding back her sobs.
"Hanin, what do you mean I'm not going anywhere?" Hasta asked with a complicated look.
"I will not let you leave this house." Hanin said approaching Hasta while taking out the clothes that were in the suitcase and rearranging them into the cupboard.
"Hanin, don't do this to me." Hasta said sitting limply on the edge of the bed facing Hanin's attitude which made him even more tormented.
After he finished rearranging Hasta's clothes into the cupboard, Hanin sat on a chair facing Hasta.
Hanin took a basin filled with warm water and placed it on the table close to her.
"I'm sorry sir, I have to take care of your body so it's fresh again." Hanin said while taking off Hasta's shirt.
"Hanin, don't do this to me." Hasta said in a choked voice.
"Let me do my duty, sir." Hanin said that just came out of her mouth.
"This is not your obligation Hanin." said Hasta holding Hanin's hand who was unbuttoning Hasta's shirt.
"Mr. Hasta." Hanin called with a voice that complained looking at Hasta's shady eyes. Hasta returned Hanin's gaze with his pounding heart.
Unbeknownst to them, their faces were getting closer and closer.
I don't know who started it first, their lips are already intertwined and kissing each other with all the feeling of longing.
"Hanin." Hasta called, removing Hanin's face with their foreheads intertwined.
"Mr. Hasta, don't go...don't leave me alone." said Hanin in a low voice, touching Hasta's moist lips again, which made her heart pounding non-stop.
"I'm not leaving Hanin... I can't leave you." Hasta said pulling Hanin's back and hugging her very tightly.
"Promise me sir, you won't leave again no matter what happens," said Hanin, returning Hasta's hug.
"I promise you Hanin, I won't go." Hasta said happily.
Although there were no words of love from Hanin, feeling Hanin's hugs and kisses was enough for him if Hanin had the same feelings as him.
"Now I take care, sir? after that you can rest so you can get well soon." Hanin said as she released her arm.
Without replying to Hanin's words, Hasta let Hanin take care of him. His chest was shaking violently, as Hanin's soft hands wiped his chest with a small towel.
"Hanin, thank you for being there for me." Hasta said looking into Hanin's face.
"I should be the one thanking you, because you have always been there for me, since I was a teenager until now." Hanin said with a downcast face after cleaning Hasta's body.
"Hanin, I want to ask you something, I hope you don't mind answering it." Hasta said with his hands slightly shaking.
"What do you want to ask, sir?" asked Hanin with a sudden pounding heart.
"With what we just did, does that make you happy, Nin?" asked Hasta, looking at Hanin's face full.
"Are you happy yourself?" Hanin asked back with a serious face.
Hasta was silent with a face that suddenly turned red, then averted his gaze.
"Mr. Hasta, answer my question sir." said Hanin cupping Hasta's face with both hands.
"I'm happy Nin." Hasta answered with a little embarrassment.
"Do you love me?" Hanin asked in a low voice.
Hasta raised his face to look at Hanin with a complicated look.
"Am I wrong if I have feelings for you Nin? I won't force you to love me Nin? I realize that I don't deserve the dream of living with you, even though I may not live long." Hasta said in a low voice, then stood up from his seat intending to leave Hanin for a while because Hasta knew Hanin would be disappointed to hear the honesty of his heart.
"Don't go, sir, stay here.. sit with me." Hanin said holding Hasta's wrist then pulled him slowly to sit beside her.
"Hanin, I'm sorry..I know my love fell in the wrong place, with my old age I have dared to love you who should be my daughter." said Hasta with a face that looks desperate.
"Mr. Hasta, I want to be honest with you and I don't want any lies between us. I'm honestly glad you've been candid about your feelings for me. And really, I didn't mean to hurt you. With what we have done earlier I also don't know whether it represents my feelings for you or not, for sure I am happy with all of it. Mr. Hasta... can you give me a little time to convince my feelings?" asked Hanin looking at Hasta's face with a pleading look.
"Hanin, I will never force you to love me. I know your love is only for Rafka, you don't need to convince yourself anymore Hanin." Hasta said with despair again.
"Mr. Hasta, really don't give up on me sir, I really ask for a moment to convince my feelings for you, I beg you." said Hanin holding both of Hasta's hands and kissing him many times.