(A/N): Hey guys author here, I just want to say thank you all for the support you all been giving me for my first work as an author, it's been really fun, I know the story is progressing slowly, but I don't know if you notice, everything I have written so far was to lead to the explanation behind Killta family and everything else, we will be getting the systems in the next chapter as well, I'm not talented with world-building and character development but I will try, although when the games start shits about to get weird and real.
Also, I made a mistake about one of Killta's stages, well the next stage we will get is not the "Hod" stage as that is the fourth stage and the eight branch under the tree of Sefirot, the other stage we are going to get is the "Netzah stage", then the "Hod stage", and the first two stages Killta pass was stage one the "Malkhut" stage and two the "Yesod stage", so the next stage is "Netzah" as you should know my motivation came from various anime, but the idea of the book came from the very concept of the tree of life that is Sefirot, so I will fix that mistake as soon as this chapter drops.
But apart from that, once again thank you for all the support, I would appreciate an honest review, and of course those power stones, but anyway I have spoken too much please enjoy the chapter of Killta badassery.
This will also be a long chapter, I know this author is generous.
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When I was a young boy I remember I was sitting at the edge of a cliff on my father's island, at the time it was called "suicide cliff", you see it was called so because at least over 2000 sect disciples would come here and kill themselves by jumping off the cliff.
This place was also nicknamed "off switch drop" or "lights out peek" you see this place exists for one reason and one reason only and that's to out yourself when you had enough of it all.
Basically, most new disciple kills themselves here reason be if you join our sect it's like signing a contract with death, so if you can't handle the intense training which is basically akin to death, you see you either have the option to either kill yourself, think about your life choices while looking down, or get killed by us in the most painful and gruesome way possible for wasting our time.
Every day in the training at least 30 people line up to jump this bitch, or to think about their life choices, and decide to not pussy out and train like a man, or better yet get off by us, normally those that try to escape are off by me.
Father and mother called it an interrogation training, many of days I put my fellow-clansman through unbelievable pain as I tortured them in unspeakable ways.
There was this one time my father told me to do it publicly, he said it could be served as either a motivation to continue living, a realization of how pointless death is, and the fear of it, or a warning to make sure our trainee don't choose such a horrible fate.
It was because of this one event, that I was given the moniker of the grim reaper of OverDeath island, I was brutal and cynical in everything I do.
From a very young age, I was brought up to be a monster no! a demon living among man, I was worshiped as a weapon of mass destruction, a prime example many want to reach, and an inspiration to all, a king born to rule kings, a conquer among all living beings, I was destined for greatness even before I was born, I was destined to be someone who belongs at the top of all clans.
No one was better than me, my very presence alone bring even the most season of elite warriors, and Important heads and figures to their knees, out of fear and respect for my most great self.
But even so, I found all this pointless, why do they bend and bow their heads to someone of a higher caliber, why do most weaker and inferior beings like themselves do this, they could acquire greatness if they work for it.
But just to submit themselves simply because that is their nature they wish to feed off the greatness of others, it's was because of this that I thought of them as fragile.
There are too dependent on those around them, and those that do have greatness are always crowded around, some of them are even your enemies, so see these leeches simply want to be beside you because they want to achieve what you have by using your resources and knowledge.
Because of this, I develop a habit of believing that humans are just fragile creatures and they must be protected, but at the same time they need to understand the value of work and get, from a very young age I had a fatherly nature, I enjoy watching these hatchling work for there spot in the nest.
And those who laze around simply get disregarded because they are worth nothing and if one thing my father thought me, was that life is short, who wants to die, so I lived never giving up, I went through hell multiple times, and I almost die multiple time during my training.
But I never give up, because of my effort I was admired by all, I don't waste my time on trivial things like playing, or slacking, I study and I trained.
Now humans have made philosophy about life, in general, it was treated as a spiritual belief, they were many theories and quotes but it all comes down to one thing, you can die at any time so make the most of your life, it's because of this belief we can get married early.
Now lamenting on the past, and the place where I spent my earlier years, around that time I was seven years old, you can even say that this age was legal enough to get married back in my day.
You see this fragile thing called humanity was continuously making philosophical theories and ideas about this thing called life and death, human was originally only made to live for about eighty years give or take, but despite this our nature inspired us to, hehehe well defy the natural flow of things, and go against God and created many methods to become everlasting, our immortal.
Some succeed, some fail, but both cross a line they should never cross, humans and animals alike such as birds, tigers, dragons, turtles, fish, dogs, and elephants it doesn't matter it's all the same, everyone is trying to survive, and no one wants to truly die.
So I live on and mature quickly to make my parent's proud, and to encourage those to love and live their life, I don't believe Others should just throw away their life so easily, sounds ironic coming from me because ever since I acquired immortality I want nothing more than to die.
I realize that immortality was more of a curse than a gift, time and time again I look at those who I hold most there, I lost those important to me, and everything I love always escape from my grips, all those that I love never seem to be immortal instead they were just... temporary.
This was a reality that I would have come to face with, time and time again, I grow stronger, more durable, faster, smarter, and far superior than I could ever imagine as the fleeting year goes by.
Meanwhile, all the friends, all the family, and all the enemies just.... just get less and less till eventually there is no one, people die that's a fact, people leave you behind to suffer in this harsh truth called life, eventually, your enemies as well tap out early and just pass the torch down to the next generation, you can call this a symbolic form of immortality, a passing down of wills and belief.
But honestly, speaking I always suppress my emotions, why!? well people say everyone is fated to die one day, well guess fucking what, fuck fate, fuck God, fuck the devil, fuck everyone and fuck everything, there is no such thing as fate, it's just an excuse to leave me behind.
This right here was me at my lowest, I couldn't accept the fact that I'm continuously am been left behind, time and time again, every day I grow stronger while everyone grows weaker.
I was so tired of being left behind by everyone that I just wanted to end it all, but no matter what I do I couldn't die, I jump from 10,000 meters in the sky and splattered all over the ground but I live, I destroy my heart and behead myself but miraculously my immortality reach a foolish level that beheading and destroying my heart doesn't work on me.
"I was unkillable, renewable, and everlasting, what I have many people desire but I didn't want, but what I want is what many people have but can't appreciate, which is a short life."
You can even call this my enlightenment.
People die if they are killed, people die when they grow old, and people die when they are sick or injured, in the end, it doesn't matter because death comes in all forms, but the concept remains the same.
Those who see the other side after a well deserve life are the true winners, that way when they die, they know their life has purpose and meaning, unlike mine, I still don't know my purpose, all I want is happiness in the ethereal slumber that is death, but I can't die, so, for now, I shall invoke death upon Mongols, I won't rest till every one of them is dead, that's my purpose, it's all I have left.
It's because of this, that I try to find my way to escape the loneliness, so I travel the world spreading my seed to every corner of the world, in different periods, in multiple different locations.
I fostered and gave life to many legends, so that way when they die, a piece of me can feel like I die along with my children and students, for one the Shuten Douji, or as I call her Alena my greatest student, beheaded right in front of me I didn't take vengeance because the battle was honorable one and I respect honor if it's reasonable.
But even she didn't accept death, even after she was beheaded by my other student no my first adopted son Minamoto Raikō who killed her, well he thought he killed her even when Alena was beheaded she fought to the very end, she was what many would call a Yandere, a pity I wanted to see that child grow, even more, you could even say I saw as a light in her, that maybe she can produce or give me a child that could kill me, we even exchange wedding vows if she comes back alive I would marry her, but she must prove to me she is strong.
Hehehe my greatest student vs humanity's greatest swordman that I foster as well, the two never get along, in the end, they had a battle to the death, to decide who was superior, chaotic evil vs lawful good and like some cliche manga or anime, the bad guy lose in the end.
Either way though, if Raiko die I lost, if Alena died I still lost, I see both of them as a family but a tragedy Is all I get, in the end, Raiko succumbs to his injury and died as well leaving me behind once more.
Do you see where I am coming from, Immortality is a punishment, humans were never designed to live forever, and yet I continue living, now that I think about it I am kind of the embodiment of history and the tragedy that comes with it.
It comes and it goes, well thinking back as well when did I realize that I am destined to be forever alone, was it watching my students die, was it watching or even killing my flesh and blood, or was it when I kill my mother.
No, it was the first time when I fall in love, ironically I didn't fall in love with the person for say, I fall in love with a purpose or an idea.
Yes, that's it, that is where it all started...on that very peek, on that very day, it wasn't fate no it was the first time I truly felt sympathy for something.
The days were clouded, to be honest, no one ever saw the sun on that island since it was covered by thick clouds most of the time.
But as I sat there looking at the red sea beneath me, that was stein with the blood of those who jump this peek.
I began to hear footsteps, I instantly know someone was about to jump, someone was about to end their life, someone was tired of it all.
The smell of sweet lilies and purple lavender entered my nose, I didn't know why but the scent attracted me for some reason, so I look towards the person, and at that moment something in me clicked.
A woman who seems to be in her mid-twenties was before me, she wore our traditional sect uniform, she was brittle in wounds, from toe to neck, and her neck had rope marks on it which made me realize she tried to end herself earlier but failed by some miracle.
But her wounds were not what made me stop breathing for a second, no it was her face, it was so beautiful, by far the most beautiful woman I had ever met in my life, in all heaven and earth she and she alone was the ethereal one.
Skin so white and soft it resembles that of snow, eyes so beautiful it looks like you're staring at a prize amethyst, her hair was so long it was reaching the back of her ankles, her hair alone was the exact color of purple lavender.
Her face was so beautiful it made my heart stop, and if I look at her for too long I lost my ability to breathe, I wasn't joking I literally couldn't breathe in her presence, but I didn't want to breathe I just want all my attention and time to look at her.
But her face also had an expression I had seen time and time again when I sat on this cliff, it didn't have life in it, her eyes were dead, her will seemed to have been destroyed, and her reason for continuing has long been concluded.
She did the normal sect greeting when she was before me.
"Greeting young master Kiza, sorry if I'm bothering you, but can you excuse me for a moment I want to jump, sorry if my presence is displeasing."
My body moved on its own one sentence was all it took for her to take over my very being, anything she said I would have done, that's just how overwhelming her beauty is.
Then it click to me, of the rumor that was going around inside the sect, as the voice of others enter my ears.
"Hey did you hear the rumor of a nameless girl who was the daughter of the witch of the night, but was born disfigured and ugly?"
"Yeah yeah I heard she killed her mother out of envy for her beauty, and as a way to teach her, that beauty was nothing but pain and suffering she curse her with everlasting beauty as well."
"Nations fall under her presence."
"People give her whatever she wants."
"But that's also made her prone to kidnapping."
"I heard she was raped multiple times."
"I heard she was sold off to the OverDeath island as a slave for the cruel young master."
"I heard something different, they say she had nowhere to go and nations began to fear her, the church put a bounty on her head as the new witch of the night in fear and by some miracle, she heard about this place and came here because she had nowhere else to go."
"Yah the clan head always made her wear a mask, but they all crack when she puts it on as if the mask itself was rejecting its purpose."
The rumors were endless about this woman, but one thing was for sure she was cursed by her mother, her face was literally indestructible and it can't be covered even in the thickest of darkness.
Sound like something straight out of a fairy tale, but magic exists in this world and it was used a lot in this era and the many other eras to come.
But as I remember this, and watch her walk toward the cliff, as if finally putting an end to it all, I finally adapted to her beauty as I broke out of it.
"I wanted to save this woman."
"I didn't care if she was pretty, or ugly it was like a pet cat that you want to save, not out of cuteness or morals, but out of pity and sympathy."
"Humans are capable of feeling emotions, too bad I was trained to get rid of them, but this woman awaken something in me that day, and that was love."
For the first time, I love something like I love my parents but love wasn't allowed only business and order, if anything marriage for us assassins is just political business.
But one thing was for sure, I honestly wanted to help someone to show them life is precious, it is worth living no matter how hard it gets, so with that in mind, I stop her before she jumps, and I grab her in a hug.
"Let me go."
She said as if expecting me to follow her orders, I simply replied with.
"You're not the boss of me, I will let you go when I damn, please, for now, shut up you idiot."
"Why!?"
"Just let me die already or do you want to torture me as well?"
"Yes, you're not allowed to die, you are my hostage from this moment on, death is too good for, someone like you, that's why I shall be your warden, and you are my prisoner, no I shall take you as my wife"
"Are sure you are seven years old, you don't talk like one at all, Aww just let me go, I don't want to continue living, I don't have a reason to, you only like me because of my beauty if you saw the real me you would puke at the very sight."
"Then I will be your reason, I don't care what you did, I don't care how you look, I don't care if your the ugliest thing in this world no this universe, just don't jump, you don't deserve death your sin has not been paid yet if you die I will kill you with happiness, that's the only way you are going and that is the finale."
"Haaaa.... with that said let's go to bed."
"Wait what... what...what are you doing!?"
Yes, I took that twenty-seven-year-old woman, who was thick in the right places and was beautiful, but even so, even if she wasn't I just want her to live, so I took her in a princess carry and did the same thing I did with Shaltear as I bedded her for three days and four nights.
She was my first sexual encounter and also my first wife, but her status in the clan was the young master pet, our love was forbidden simply because she was a witch and also a commoner, and I was the son of two of the most important people in the world who own two of the most powerful clan to exist.
She never told me her name as she didn't want it, so I named her after her mother Luna just Luna, it's better than being called witch all the time.
Even after my mother died at my hands, I still had Luna by my side, she was all that I ever needed we even had three kids together, Alpha, Beta, And Epsilon.
They grow to be fine killers and assassins killing Mongols left to right they died in battle as well only Epsilon was left alive although crippled, he eventually became a nobleman's son-in-law and married the daughter of King Henry the first her name was Matilda.
But this happiness soon came to an end, reason is one day, the curse on Luna was lifted because after Luna was happy with her current life and has lived one worth dying for and learned that beauty isn't everything then she revert to her old self.
Her face was plastered with warts, and her eyes were gone and replaced with a burn like a scar but it was a deformity, her hair dropped out leaving her ball.
She was blind, once more, and her body started to age relatively quickly, but thankfully she accepted herself but I still accepted her despite her current form, right after she died with both me and Epsilon by her side.
She died happily, I didn't shed a tear, I know quite monstrous of me, reason be for once I happy but yet bittersweet, I did it, this person died happily and it was at that moment I truly fell in love, it was the idea that I save one person despite killing many.
This person finally cherishes her life and found value in it, that's why the sixty-eight years we spent together were the best.
How I envy her was what I thought, her grave was under a Sakura tree that was in King Henry's castle yard in England, it was the very place I ask her to officially be my wife in front of all the royals.
From that day on I would have many other wives, but I guess my first wife left an impression on me that a person should only be allowed to live for so long because when she died she found meaning and died with no regrets at all.
That was my definition of an ideal life, and I was happy that I became that ideal person for her, but it was also the day that I realized that I would have to accept the fact that I should start getting used to always being alone, as nothing lasts forever.
I know you must be wondering why I mention this well it's simply because I am in a void, a place where nothing exists.
I feel warm but I am aware that I am alive and dead at the same time within the same place, but overall, I felt an immense sense of loneliness overtake me.
The why my entire life felt like it was, in a temporary pause but at the same time I felt happy, I felt satisfied with the way I live it so far, I can't change the past nor do I wish to change it.
Because the very past itself is what makes me.... well me.
I might be immortal but as long as I am remembered by my loved ones I am fine with it, I was never alone I was just blinded and think I was, I had many friends, many families, and good brothers I could lean on, in every era in every age I played a big role, that why I won't despair anymore I will cherish my life because I am the only one that can do it.
But as I began to think about this, I began to hear the voice of everyone I love, It was a combination of both my Mother, Father, luna, Snake, Shaltear, Hitler, Jean, Alpha, Beta, Epsilon, Raiko, and Alena.
Everyone's voice began saying the same thing.
. The authority of "Pure elemental control" has been unlocked
. The authority of "Nature restoration" has been unlocked
. The authority of "Subliminal thoughts" has been unlocked
.The authority of "The voice of the universe" has been unlocked
. The authority of "Historical connection" has been unlocked
.The authority of "I am more than just a memory" has been unlocked
.The authority of "Emotional damage" has been unlocked
. The authority of "Bound Manipulation" has been unlocked
.The authority of "Happiness embodiment" has been unlocked
.The authority of "Change is inevitable" has been unlocked
With those words said the dark world around me felt like it was cracking and the light started to enter my eyes, this place felt like I was in my mother's womb again, but I was about to see the light it was if I was been reborn into something else, something, even more, superior than my former self.
The light got brighter and the voice of Enuma entered my ears.
With that said all I could hear was a giant explosion, and the light got even brighter, I didn't waste any time as I stretch my hand towards the light and when I reach it, silence filled the air.
Because the next thing I saw in my half-awake state was the Nimbus and around me were the powerful waves and storms that plagued this place, but that's not what shocked me because before me the storms were slowly vanishing, the waves were humbling themself.
The winds began to calm down, and the tornadoes vanish as if they were never there, the entire Bermuda triangle complete loss its right as the most dangerous place in the world and received the title of the most peaceful place in the world.
The night sky shines golden, the reason being I was been engulfed by a giant pillar of Golden light, meanwhile, Snake had a what the fuck expression plastered on his face, at the moment he gazed at me with pure shock and disbelief.
But that wasn't the most shocking thing no beneath the seas that were been blessed by the beauty of moonlight, all of a sudden the whales, the fish, the sea monsters of all kinds, all of them started to emerge to the surface looking up and howling as if they were excited about something.
And that's when I notice myself, as information and memories that weren't mine suddenly began flooding my head.
It was at that moment that I realized what I was and what I have become these were Raphael's memories, it was this very moment that I announce my return to this world.
And if you were to look at me then you would see, a boy at least 5'4 sadly I didn't grow I remain smol and adorable, although this current form can be considered my transcendent form.
I had skin that was pure white, maybe even whiter than snow, and my hair became raven black it was so long that it pass my legs, it was also soft and straight, my eyes were changing colors every second, and above my head were two giant haloes, the lower one was white and the one above it was black.
Around each of my four limbs were two rings a white and black, the black being the inner one and the white being the outer one, my fingernails were black as well, while above my head was a pair of white horns that Stick upwards, they had black ring patterns around them.
While Behind my back, were a single pair of giant angel wings, the left wing was four meters long, and it was black, while the right was white, and behind this pair of wings were two giant rings the inner one white and the outer one black.
At that moment I announce my name, title, and position pointing upwards to the heavens.
"I am Killta Kiza, the incantation of Sefirot and the one who will stand above even the heavens."