This was exactly what I talked about when I said the thought of school makes my tummy grumble. I sat at my desk looking at my script. I just finished taking a test and was going through my work. I stared at the paper and twitched my lips. I kind of wish I prepared for the test and not sit here looking unsure of what I had answered.
To think that I didn't read till fifteen minutes before the test just showed how unprepared I was. I stood up after thinking if I should submit it yet. I finally decided to submit so I walked to the professor's mahogany table and dropped my script with him. I left the class and walked to the hallway. I first headed to the restroom to take a piss and check my reflection.
I knew the test already made me look sort of homeless so I walked to the washing sink and washed my hands. I raised my head to see my reflection and heaved a sigh. I wasn't looking as bad as I imagined in my head. I rinsed my face and then used my hands to brush my hair backward. When I was done, I walked out and thought of seeing Devin. I felt the need to see him, he had this aura that relieved me of stress and tension. It was crazy but I wanted to hug him to feel okay.
The first thought that clouded my head was him saying he did shit with old women. I tried my best to get over those words but I couldn't. I convinced myself he only said that to get Xavier angry because he succeeded in making Xavier pissed that day.
There was no way an eighteen-year-old would be having sex with old women, it was beyond comprehension.
On second thought I hated to think that he was avoiding me 'cause I barely saw him around. I wasn't at fault for wanting to know if what he felt was lust right? I didn't see him at the library yesterday and he didn't show up at our usual spot.
I was on the basketball court hoping he would come around but he didn't and It just left me wondering. Was he sick? Was he avoiding me? Did he get into another fight with Xavier?
I scoffed at how hard Devin made it for me to move along. I didn't want to think of the test I just wrote but thinking of Devin and how distant he has been wasn't any better. I turned my head to the lobby and sighted Devin.
He was lazily dressed in chinos and sleeves.
"Damn," I scoffed under my breath.
He was taking quick strides and didn't notice I saw him. He had to tell me what was wrong and why he was acting up. I followed him from a distance till I lost him and just assumed he walked into the classroom. I stood in front of the door, taking a deep breath when I felt someone's hand on me.
The next thing I figured was that it was a push and it lowered me to the floor. I turned my head to the girl who pushed me and she was grinning. "Ain't you Devin's new girl?"
She was a senior and I had no idea why she was picking on me. Why was she asking if I was Devin's girl? Was she one of the girls he has fucked too? I furrowed my brows and stood to my feet.
The pressure with the push was much and caused me to hit my hands on the wall.
"You haven't answered me," She continued. "Are you one of his girls?"
I felt the urge to yell that I wasn't just one of his girls. Maybe I was but I definitely didn't like the sound of it. It made me feel they were other options and I was just one of the numerous. I felt possessive at that point and understood what it feels like to want someone to belong to only you. It is a crazy feeling and it made my stomach growl.
I swallowed the lump in my throat and squeezed my jaw. She seemed unimpressed by my silence and took a step to close the gap between us. She was taller, kept wavy blonde hair, and had beautiful blue eyes. She was ivory-skinned and applied a lot of makeup. Her waist was slimmer than the rest of her body so it earned her a sexy body shape. I thought of how I wouldn't stand a chance if she was also interested in Devin.
"I don't know," I managed to say and she smirked in disapproval.
"So what the hell are you doing here?"
Why did she think I was here because of Devin? I have a brother in the senior class and he could be the one I came looking for.
I took a step back wondering where Xavier and Devin went all of a sudden. I took another step back but I was already leaning on the wall. She was making me uncomfortable and I just wanted her to let go of me.
"Answer me."
Before I could say anything, she was ordered to leave me alone. "LET GO OF HER."
Her hands released my cloth and I turned in the direction of the voice. It was Xavier and he was wearing a stern expression. I was so grateful he showed up because I had no idea what to do.
She rolled her eyes but obeyed Xavier. It was surprising to see Xavier having a such influence on her. He turned to me and figured she bullied me. For the first time since we got to school, he said a word to me.
"Let's go. Are you okay?"
I gave a nod and mouthed, "Yeah."
I was okay, just tired of getting bullied by Gabby and her friends, and now a senior. It sucks to be Emily sometimes.
He wrapped his hands on my shoulder and walked beside me. We walked out of the class and I could feel his nerves relax from being close to me. I wish I could feel the same way but I needed to know what was happening to Devin. I would get relaxed if I found out so I thought of asking Xavier.
That was a bad idea, a really bad one. I brushed the thought off and quickly thought of something else. Xavier would be wondering what I came for in his class and there was no way I could say anything. Before he asked anything, I found my voice and asked him, "Where's Devin?"