Still the same as last night, a woman who always stares at the night sky from the balcony of her room, then closes her eyes for a moment to feel the wind on her beautiful face.
It's been about three months since they got married, but her husband is still the same, never looking at her or even ignoring her.
Arzhie and Arsean always meet only at the office, because Arsean never lives here, if he comes there must be something.
Just as Zhie usually came to the office to work and always met with her husband, it was still the same cold attitude she always got, just like people who didn't know even though they were actually husband and wife.
Even this often Zhie always meets Bianca, her husband's girlfriend, at first everything feels heavy, every time jealousy always hits her.
But what is Zhie's power, she can only succumb to everything her husband does.
And so it was, Zhie got used to the pain, she was quite aware that this marriage was not based on love and was not even wanted.
"You know, I was able to be patient until now, but this patience must have a saturation point if I am constantly disrespected and not considered forever." Zhie said, still closing her eyes.
"Sean ... is it possible that you can't look at me with love and affection? Yes, just like you look at your lover ... sorry, I want to be like Bianca, who you always look at full of love and not hate like me," Zhie opened her eyes with a wry smile and then went into her room, not forgetting to close the balcony door.
This woman finally decided to sleep, the night air began to feel very cold, Zhie then entered the room to rest.
When her eyes were closed for a few minutes, she felt a soft rubbery object nibbling at her lips until it became rough, until Zhie finally opened her eyes immediately.
"Sea-?" Zhie's voice was cut off as her husband's lips kissed her.
Like the previous nights, the smell of alcohol wafted over again, even to the point of sinking into the woman's tongue.
Yes, it was always like this, Arsean always came home drunk and ended up fucking her.
"Hi ma'am? Do you long for a man's caress? This body of yours is indeed very slutty every time I touch it, oh yeah, it's not like my family bought it. So how can I not use it," this man said casually, not caring about his wife's feelings.
Of course, this woman's chest hurts a lot when she hears her husband's insults, but whatever Zhie's love is greater, she thinks Arsean's words are the effect of drinking alcohol.
Honestly, there's a feeling of happiness in Zhie when her husband comes home and even touches her, even if he's forced to or even drunk.
"But you enjoyed it too, Sean," Zhie said quietly.
"Tsk, disgusting! A slut is the same everywhere, the taste won't be different, what woman's body doesn't give pleasure? Don't feel special, Zhie! You're really overconfident! The most special woman is not you!" Sean immediately tore off Zhie's shirt and roughly turned his wife's body around.
"Aarhh! But I'm your wife Sean!" Zhie said in pain, but there was nothing she could do but surrender and follow her husband.
"An unwanted wife! Even the ladies in the office are better than you! You shouldn't dream so much about getting my impossible love, because I don't love you at all."
Zhie immediately shook her head disapprovingly at Arsean's words.
"Please don't talk like that, I believe you will change one day. A feeling of comfort and familiarity will make that love come." Zhie replied, holding back the pain as Sean became even more rude to her.
Arsean was even more annoyed that Zhie continued to believe that he would change, making him play even more blindly.
After he felt that he was done with this activity, this man immediately put his clothes back on, yes, Arsean was always like this, going and coming as he pleased without thinking about his wife's feelings.
Walking away without even looking back, let alone making a sound, just to say thank you. Of course, it's impossible for Zhie to hear this.
But it wouldn't be Zhie if she didn't beg, even if it didn't work. Zhie stood up immediately and tried to hold her husband back by grabbing his hand so that Arsean would accompany her here for the night.
"Sean, can't you just stay here for the night?" said Zhie with pain all over her body, every time she wanted to have sex her husband would come home drunk and abuse her and then leave without a word.
"Mrs. Zhie, aren't you ashamed to be a woman who always begs and is cheap with a man like this? I've already satisfied you, so how dare you beg me again? Disgusting!" Zhie slapped her hand roughly and left, slamming the door behind him.
After Arsean left, Zhie's tears immediately ran down her smooth cheeks.
She immediately wiped away the tears rolling down her cheeks and smiled wryly. "No problem Zhie, it hasn't been a year yet, later Sean will definitely change."
She walked back to the bed to lie down on her aching body.
Then there was a knock at the door. "Madam, this is a delivery from the master, as usual for you."
Zhie laughed bitterly, it was the morning-after pill she always took after intercourse. She wasn't fit to bear his child, Zhie heard her husband say.
"Just go inside!" Zhie said. And soon the maid came and handed her a glass of water and a medicine bottle.
It didn't take long for Zhie to take the pills and drink the water, the maid looked convinced and then quickly excused herself.
Zhie hurried to the bathroom and immediately took the pills out.
Zhie is not a heartless woman, she certainly doesn't want to kill her future children.
She wants to get pregnant and have children, so far Zhie has always obeyed her husband's orders.
But not this time, after how many months of marriage, Zhie always feels lonely, maybe with the presence of children, Zhie is sure to be able to comfort herself when the sadness comes back.
***
If one were to say how nice and happy it is to work in a family business, let alone to be the legal wife of the country's largest shareholder and owner of Adinata Company.
Of course, other women would be proud to have all these things, but none of this applies to Zhie. She doesn't have a special position here, Zhie is just an ordinary employee, even just a marketing employee.
Let alone boasting about her status as the wife of the owner of this company, she has never been recognized as a wife by her own husband.
People only know that the President Director has a mistress, although they don't know if the old news is true or not, because Arzhie and Arsean's marriage is very private, with only the closest family and people coming to the wedding.
"Zhie! What's wrong with you, my friend? Let's hurry up and stop daydreaming." The voice of Anatasia, Zhie's colleague and best friend here. A friend who has been with Zhie for a long time.
"Eh? Who's daydreaming, I was just waiting for you. You're the one who's so slow," Zhie mocked to change the mood.
"Yeah-yeah whatever... uh wait, your face looks so pale, is that weird husband of yours bullying you again, Zhie?" Anatasia asked.
"Oh my, I'm just a little dizzy, I didn't get enough sleep last night. I'll be fine after taking some medicine, so don't exaggerate!"
Zhie lied, but not completely.
Then the two women finally went inside and prepared for the client meeting. This job wasn't really Zhie's field, as she had chosen fashion in college.
But for the sake of her beloved husband Arsean, Zhie of course left everything behind, because this woman thought her love was too blind.
In fact, the work here was initiated by Arsean's family with the goal of bringing Arzhie closer to her husband.
In fact, it's been five months since Zhie's struggle was fruitless, and her career has come to a standstill. There is no chance of her being promoted, because Zhie knows that the president of the company hates her.
When they got engaged, the family decided to let Zhie work at Arsean's company so that they could get along better before the wedding, but in fact, it's been three months since the wedding, and even five months since the engagement, there's no closeness at all.
It's not that they're shy, but Arsean doesn't want to be close and doesn't even consider Zhie to exist, in stark contrast to Zhie who considers Arsean to be a husband.
Zhie and Anatasia have arrived at the site to meet with the client, so far they have always been successful in negotiations and have benefited the company a lot.
And as usual, the bonus will only go to Ana's account and other employees, while Zhie's salary? Not only did he not get a bonus, but his salary was also cut because of a small mistake.
This month, the salaries and bonuses have been deposited into the employees' accounts, of course, when it comes to salaries, everyone will smile happily, but unlike Zhie, the woman only smiled wryly when she saw the incoming funds. But Zhie was happy to see all of her coworkers get all of the bonuses, even though deep down she was very disappointed because it was very unfair.