I think I slept enough to look like 6 hours. and 2 more hours for the departure. I washed my face and get back to my seat. "mam!" it was Lisa. I raised my eyebrows and signaled to continue. "ma'am, I went through the data, the dresses are not that exposing, and about heels, they are really suited to dress, but I felt the same as yours, about the makeup and hairstyle. Which color and style do you prefer, ma'am?" "Lisa, I don't like to wear skinny dresses. I am more comfortable with loose dresses. And mostly prefer black and dark colors. Natural face and pony or free hair are my styles. I can compromise a little with a dress but big no for makeup and hairstyle," and I folded my hands against my chest. But she chuckles. What's with her? I looked into her eyes, she stopped and said sorry. "but I need an explanation!!" "that ma'am..." I kept silent, then she said I look very adorable while doing that, like a small girl pouting for getting her ice cream. I smiled at her. She is really comforting me. I liked her. We get there at almost 3 o'clock. I got a huge welcome from the team. So many flowers and guards, they took us to the hotel. Lisa's room is just in front of mine and Ron's a little apart from us. When I checked in, at first called Arine to ask about them. They've not contacted her yet. But Seong texted me he is busy and can't attend the call till the concert ends and will contact me after that. But why he is not asking about me? The idiot at least should tell me his schedule to me. Then I can be more at ease. Now we are both in the same place. Wish to see him and confront everything, but how? Can I sneak out? No way guards are out there so., I sighed. I dialed again with my luck. He took the phone. "babe," I can hear the cheering noises and fans' sounds louder than his. "Paapa, I told you I'm busy can't you understand? That I'm hella tired. Why are you disturbing me like this? I texted you will reach you later, can't you get that?" I didn't expect such words from him. In the beginning, I was worried about him and his health, then next to say my situation. But didn't think that he spoke out like this. "sorry. Are you okay? I was worried and wanted to tell you something" he didn't let me complete it. "I'm not in the mood to hear your pity things. Like you, I am not free. I'm an idol and have a lot of things to do. Hang the phone yourself or do I have to block you?" what the heck? "No need will catch you later." "no need," and he hang up the call. Why did he talk like that, I told him nothing but it hurts. Maybe he is exhausted from his work. I went to bed but it was hard to control my sobbing, at least he should have said in a calm voice but this.. no I have to be strong, now it's easier for me to understand his pressure. And slowly drifted to sleep. In the morning my eyes are swollen felt little throat pain too. While taking a bath I heard a doorbell. I quickened my shower and went to the door. "Good morning ma'am," it's Lisa, I greeted her back and let her inside. "ma'am today's schedule, please go through this" "could you read it? Then I can change my dress." "Sure mam." Guys if you're there instead of me, definitely gonna run away. There is no time for rest or to have food. Begin with meeting with sponsors and CEO, and end with classes on how to walk, stand, and talk. I hate this. How am I going to survive???
This is going to be a new world, and that's sure. We are not stopping learning. Life always teaches us one after the other. Every person in our life is teaching us new lessons. When they leave, it becomes a reminder to upgrade and realize our own mistakes. If they stay also to upgrade but to realize the strength and weaknesses, we have. Now the realization is hitting me hard. New places, people, and cultures teach us new lessons and we have to change accordingly. Now I'm gonna change my routine and like a little to improve myself but also to make sure the next level of life is not gonna make me fail...