6:00 p.m.
It's a Saturday.
The weather's clear and it's seems like quite a nice day.
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Yeah... not really, though.
My parents are still upset with Roxane and her annoying attitude. She doesn't seem to care at all. How can she be so stupid? Does she think that her shockingly good-looking face can get her away with anything? Why won't she just listen to our parents advice?
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I have always wondered how other people live. Do you guys just live in peace or is it similar to mine?
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Do you guys ever wonder what it may feel like letting go?
Well, I have. Plenty of times to be honest. But, every single time I do I always feel so regretful.
My younger siblings are like my own children. Although, they actually aren't.They need me. Also, my parents need me. I feel like if I just cut them off, they'd be so miserable that they won't have the courage to try any more. I don't want them to end up sick or depressed.
But, what can I do?
I just want someone who can understand me. I want someone to tell me that I'm doing alright. That I don't have to try so hard to please everyone. That I can relax and be myself. I want someone who I can lean on and let me cry on their shoulder. I want to cry so bad.
Is it a luxury to even ask...?
But, I can't. I know I can't. I can't cry. If I cry, everything goes down. I don't think I'll have the will to pick myself up. Everything that I had worked on to be here would fall apart. I don't want my parents to have to worry more than they had already been. I don't want my siblings to remember me as a selfish person. I don't want that for them.
I want to be free for once. I just beg for one chance. That is all I ask...
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Anyways, our situation isn't so well.
Roxane bosses me around as usual. And the pushover that I am, always does whatever she says so that I won't have to deal with her attitude.
My younger siblings are currently at church, doing some recreational activities.
And I'm trying to study for my exams.
Life doesn't seem to be so exciting. It passes by as though everything seems to be alright. Haha.... as if it's alright.
So, this is where we end today. Until next time. From, Alex.