Mino's P.O.V
Every man has their limitation, a point where they will call it a time out.
Even the geniuses have to call for a break, a freedom and serenity away from the harsh call of chaos and confusion, leading to a blurry path of thinking.
My mind will have the answer for all of this question but I have to take it slow and wait for the right moment, a reassuring and crystal clear explanation for all the shitty things happening in my life.
I grew old, thinking I am as normal as I can get. I had it all do I? A wealthy life field with embrace and kisses from the two person I trusted the most... my parents.
But a bitter smile crossed my lips, even the two of them had filled me roses to burry my mind about the realities that I shouldn't have been unfolding in the first place.
Who am I right now?
A broken and lost soul.
A deceived and used fella.
A person with little to no fragments of memory about what the hell is happening in my life.
I feel like a time bomb that will explode without any buttons to push to start or end it.
Gumawa ng tunog ang botelya ng wine nang isalin ko ito sa isang baso upang uminom ulit ng panibago. Hindi ko na pinansin ang ingay ng mga taong nagsasayawan sa loob ng club.
My pupils were thinned out for ten minutes now habang pinipilit kong lunurin sa alak ang aking sarili dahil sa utos ng lalaking kanina pa nakikipag-fling sa mga babaeng lumalapit sa kaniya.
Sometimes, I regret that I saved him and we both flee away from my parents na nararamdaman kong may mga tauhan sa paligid na kanina pa kami sinusubaybayan ni Calix.
We're hiding for a couple of months now, after my parents refused to explain to me everything kapag hindi ko sila hinayaan na mapatay ang prinsipe while Olaf is giving me a condition that he will spill everything when I complete this so called training.
I don't care anymore! I just want to be as strong as I can get. Parang napapagod na din akong may malaman pa na makakadagdag lang ng sama ng loob ko.
"Damn it!" naiinis kong pahayag dahil hindi na ako makapag-focus dahil tinatamaan na ako ng alak, maingay at magulo din ang paligid at iniisip ko pa ang mga nakasubaybay sa amin sa iba't ibang bahagi ng club.
"Focus Thor!" mayabang na usal sa akin ni Calix, I growled and looked at him ngunit parang pinalo ng baseball bat ang ulo ko while I am concentrating my mind to maintain my thin pupil.
He has been calling me Thor the moment he watched "The Avengers" on my private condo na panandalian naming pinagtataguan na alam kung malalaman din ng aking mga magulang kung nasaan.
I bought that condo without their knowledge before.
He picked this place para siguraduhin na mahihirapan ako na mag-isip nang maayos upang sanayin ang sarili na tumagal kapag nasa ganito akong estado. A state that is giving me hard time to think and move freely.
He want me to be able to prepare my body to prolong this state of mine. My longest record is 30 minutes last time but he want me to be in this state for hours but I knew better.
I knew that aside from that, we're here because of that woman serving beers and alcohols to the costumers. I knew he's been staring at her for long now.
I felt my knees trembling habang nanlalabo na ang aking paningin dahil sa epekto ng alak. I am no weakling when it comes to liquors but this thinning of pupils thingy is making me weak as if I am taking a strong dose of drugs.
"Fuck it! My head is going to burst!" nahihirapan kong saad habang pinapasubaybayan niya pa sa akin sa pamamagitan ng pakiramdam kung ilan ang nakapaligid sa akin. And this loud and wild music is making me want to rip my ears off.
There's so much pressure in my mind right now na halos hindi na kaya pagsabayin ng utak ko.
"Na ah! No excuses, you need to do that," tinatamad niyang pahayag sabay lagok ng alak niya mula sa shot glass.
"Give me ten "Aunt Roberta" please," prenteng pahayag ni Calix sa bartender na nasa aming harapan. I growled then looked at him furiously. Am I not suffering enough for him?
That's a hell of a strong drink! It is considered as the strongest cocktail in the world. It contains 100% alcohol!
He's really enjoying making me suffer like this! I felt my eyes squeezed a bit while he just shrugged and smiled as if enjoying his favorite show!
Aunt Roberta has no mixers at all, 40 percent of gin, vodka, brandy, blackberry and 45 percent of absinthe liquor are mixed together in equal parts to create this lethal mix. And it is also a hundred percent that I am going to smash his head.
"Afraid of water?" mayabang niyang saad habang inilalapag na ng bartender ang order niya sa bar counter.
"I will make you regret this!" I growled but he just patted my shoulder as if taking a joke.
"Weak," he mumbled then he drank one straightly na tila hindi alak ang kaniyang iniinom.
My pupils ignited with his comment, I really hate that word.
Marahas kong ininom nang sunod-sunod lahat at narinig ko ang malakas na singhap ng bartender sa aking harapan dahil sa aking ginawa.
Tila mas lalo din siyang natigilan habang nakatingin sa aking mga mata. "Yow! That's a nice pair of contact lenses and you drink like a freaking beast," namamangha niyang saad habang tila tatlo na ang paningin ko sa kaniya.
"Believe me... he is," walang ganang saad lamang ni Calix at tila agad na nanlamig ang bartender na nakatingin na sa akin na tila takot.
"Bathroom break," kinakabahan niyang saad ng may biglang lumapit sa kaniya para sana omorder ng panibagong alak. Tila yata hindi niya matagalan na tignan ang aking mga mata.
I growled when the alcohol hit me, tila binibiyak na nang tuluyan ang aking utak habang tila mababaliw na ako sa lahat ng aking naririnig na ingay sa loob ng club.
It feels like my brain is being subjected into a "head crusher" which is a torture device used to well, the name state its purpose.
"Damn it! I can't do it anymore!" I hissed in pain habang tila nag-eecho na ang lahat sa utak ko even the mocking laugh of this irritating prince.
"How many are there?" prente niya lamang na saad habang hirap na hirap na ako na kotrolin ang aking katinuan. "I said I quit!" I hissed and looked at him habang parang tumitibok na lahat ng ugat ko sa utak.
"Count them and I will give you a break!" he casually said then took a glimpse towards the server lady he was so fond of.
"Damn you!" I said as my eyes flickered as I felt the throbbing of my veins. I tried to focus again to the presence I am feeling everywhere, lurking behind the busy and drunk crowds, partying like wild animals.
I stared to count as many as I can but this freaking alcohol, noise and this power that I am not used to is torturing my mind.
"Faster!" agad niyang utos at agad kong nasuntok nang marahas ang bar counter na nagsanhi para may mabasag na mga bagay-bagay. Agad kong naramdaman ang paninitig ng mga nakapansin ngunit wala akong pakialam.
"There's eight of them!" I hissed with agony as my body and mind can't take it anymore.
"Ow? Minamaliit ba nila tayo o sadyang nagtitipid sila ngayon ng tauhan?" mayabang niyang saad.
"Eight won't even scratch me," he added.
"Location?" tinatamad niyang tanong sabay inom sa isang bote ng beer sa kaniyang tabi na parang hindi niya ako nakikitang nahihirapan na nang husto.
I am gonna break his neck... I swear! Just a quick snap!
"Curse you!" I irritatingly stated and I looked at him as if I am about to murder this goddamn prince.
"Do it!" he ordered firmly.
I tried to concentrate again while I am at this state of internal agony and pain. Damn it! I need to be stronger, I need to do this! I need all of this suffering and anguish to be the person I want.
"There is one next to the door, sipping a martini while staring at you, there is two on the third table on the left, there is the other three near the exit door just incase we walk there for escape, they have been peaking on us as they pretend to look on their phone and chatting. There is another one standing at the corner of the dance floor and the other one is close," I stated and we both looked at the new bartender in front of us.
He's the other one.
I knew pretty well that he's one of them dahil hindi man lang siya natinag nang bahagya niyang mapasadahan ang aking mga mata bago siya tumalikod at may kinuhang botelya sa lalagyan.
He's wearing a bartender's uniform to blend in ngunit halata sa kaniyang galaw na hindi niya alam ang kaniyang ginagawa but damn it! Nagdadalawa na ang paningin ko.
"Good," Calix whispered then with that I slowly turned my pupils to normal but heck- parang may gumuhit na kung ano sa utak ko.
I just felt lightheaded as my surroundings started to swirl around.
"You failed!" Calix coldly stated then in my blurry vision I saw him walking away from me. Damn it? Is he gonna leave me while I was this wasted?
"Deal with them," he said as I saw him walking to the woman's direction.
Damn you!
I was about to walk out pero agad akong nawalan ng balanse dahil sa halo-halo kong nararamdaman, my body felt weak and my mind is still throbbing in pain and I need to defend myself against this morons.
After a couple of screams, commotion, firing of guns and breaking of things, I managed to defend myself.
Kasalukuyan akong nahihirapan na pumapasok sa loob ng aking kwarto habang umiikot nang husto ang aking paligid. I don't know how I manage to go home but I immediately lay on my bed na para akong isang lupaypay na papel.
Nahihirapan kong iniayos ang aking sarili at tumingala sa magarang kisame ng aking silid. "Shit!" I hissed dahil parang sumasayaw sa lahat sa paningin ko.
It feels like something is cracking my skull, I moved my body to lay on my side ngunit parang naiwan ang kaluluwa ko dahil sa aking ginawa.
I was in the middle of sleeping when I felt a light touch on my cheek, a soothing touch to be exact.
I slowly opened my tired eyes but everything was blurted out, I gradually saw a beautiful figure in front of me.
"I am sorry," a dream-like voice stated then everything became clear. I saw her, laying beside me in this huge and cold bed.
My body seemed light and weightless as I looked at her without my mind processing anything. My forehead twitched as she moved her body closer.
My heart throb the moment I felt her body being close to me again.
Her breast brushed on my chest as she tried to get even closer, as if savoring this moment that he can feel my warmth.
Her eyes screamed longing and pain. God those eyes! Kailan ba sila nabigo na bigyan ako ng rason upang mahulog akong muli para sa kaniya?
"Vreih-"
I am unable to speak her beautiful name completely as I felt her cold lips against me. My chest made the loud and wild rhythm once again as I felt her lips against mine.
She touched my nape as if asking for me to deepen it more. I was stunned and in haze and after a moment I just found myself grabbing her tiny waist and I rolled, causing me to be on top of her while I was the one making the movements.
Despite the pain and betrayal that burdens me, I want my lips to make her fell how I longed for her, how she was still in my mind, how she's the still the sole owner of this broken yet beating heart.
I hissed a little bit when a sharp pain struck my mind again. I bit her lower lip causing it to open a bit, I inserted my tongue, hoping that she would play with it even for a little while.
God! I miss her!
I miss her so much!
Ngunit marahas akong napamulat ng aking mga mata dahil sa ingay na aking narinig.
Agad na sumalubong sa akin ang marahas na sikat ng araw sa aking silid.
"Peace!" Olaf stated as I saw him holding the remote and the television in my room was playing a video.
I growled at him na siyang sumabay pa sa pagsigaw ni hulk bago siya tuluyang magwala. Avengers again Calix? For pete's sake!
I grabbed the lampshade next to me and tossed it at him, and it smacked into the wall as he avoided it.
"Hindi ko naman alam na malakas ang volume pagbukas ko! Galit ka kaagad?" he complained.
That's it! I'm going to kill him!