If there's one thing I've learned throughout our time together is that there are nothing that cannot be solve if we just talk about it. I have been lucky enough to find someone who is so vocal and honest in expressing her feelings. Although, it is comfortable, I am skeptical, somehow, she makes it seem that everything is fine, but she might just be taking everything by herself.
Starting our security project is proving to be much work than usual. I have a lined-up meeting overseas for the next 3 months and I know that we are losing valuable time together. I know that she only has at least 3 months more to be in Seoul, yet we have not talked about our plans yet. I have been working hard to establish the project in order to remotely work for Namesis. I am looking into how I could manage work if I'm not staying at the office. I know that it's going to be hard, but I am willing to try.
It seems that we have an in-sync thoughts, she was waiting for me at my place when I got back from Hong Kong, he might have contacted Joon with my schedule. I was pleasantly surprised to come home to my apartment with the warmth of a home cook meal and someone waiting for me. This is a welcome sight, something that I am looking forward to in the future, something that I don't want to give-up.
"I thought I got in the wrong flat…" I greeted. She looks refreshing.
"Are you expecting someone else?" she teased.
"Never…"
"Get ready dinner will be serve shortly…" she informed.
I tried to steal a kiss, but she just run back to the kitchen. I went for a shower and got back to the kitchen. She already set the table. She looks like she really belonged to this place.
"That smells good…" I pulled her to an embrace and finally planted a kiss. I always miss her everytime we are not together. Our living arrangement just fall naturally without any discussion, I spend time in her place she'll spend time in my place, and it all seems perfectly natural.
"Coq au vin with mashed potatoes. I didn't make rice sorry…"
"I am used to no-rice diet when I'm with you…"
I am getting used to her lifestyle by now. I knew she's Asian and she should love rice, but her almost 2 decades of living in Europe made her adapt to European lifestyle now. She always makes sure to have time for fitness, either running early in the morning or at night or doing some yoga or on the treadmill if she wasn't able to run. She goes swimming, tennis, biking and attend kickboxing, judo or taekwondo classes every weekend. She loves making gifts rather than buying them, she will choose to cook at home rather than eat out, she likes dressing up and online shopping, like every other woman and girl I know.
She'd choose wine over soju or beer and she prefer to drink tequila, vodka or rum without any mix on them. She loves making cakes and cookies, but she rarely eats them. She loves snacking on fruits and olives. She gets excited when cooking, especially in experimenting new dishes. She doesn't think that a day should be measured by hours but by how much things you get done. If there's one thing she is not confident about, it's making Korean dishes. She'll always say, at least I'm in Korea…" The only time we'll go out for dinner is when she's craving for Korean food, and we always end up walking by the streets in Itaewon or Insadong.
"Let's go for brunch tomorrow…" she exclaimed.
"Brunch, should I reserve?" I thought she's talking about our go-to brunch place down at Hannam-dong.
"With your family…" she declared. I am stunned. Since, I haven't talked with her about it.
"I met with Jae-yin the other day…" she stated.
"Ok. Should I confirm to them, then?"
"I already told her I'm going…"
"So, these groceries on the table is for what?"
"Danish pastries…"
I knew there's an awful lot of grocery bags on the kitchen island.
"I thought you're not ready to go back to that house…" I teased.
"I will have to, if not tomorrow there are other days in the future, So, the earlier I could settle it with them, the better…" she stated like as if she knows exactly what I wanted to talk to her about.
"How's your thesis going?"
"It's shaping up. I just finished making the structure, I just needed to fill-up the concepts with more research…"
"That's good to know…"
"I'll probably be done with the paper earlier than the expected time. Professor Kim is already coordinating with the university to schedule the defense…"
"In 3 months', time, huh?"
"In 3 months, yeah."
"Should we get married then?"
I was surprise at myself of how those words just easily came out from my mouth. And I can see how surprise she was. But I was more shock and hurt thean surprise by her discomfort in hearing the word marriage. It felt like she doesn't have plans at all. It's not that I'm still having all the ideals of marriage, all I wanted is to give her the title as my my wife. But it seems that she really was traumatize by marriage. I admit, I felt so disappointed and hurt