Three years ago, at this exact moment I was so scared to stay and confront him for what happened the night before. I decided to leave him. Looking at him beside me now, peacefully sleeping on my bed, it's a different story. I recalled the events from last night. We finished our dinner in a hurry as our hormones can no longer be contained between us.
"Do you want me to drop you off, or should I call Joon to pick you up?" I remembered uttering another nonsense.
"Do you want to drop me off?" He tried to probe me further.
"You needed to rest and to change out of your clothes. You looked so haggard."
"Do I look that repulsive now?"
"It's not that. Or you can just take a shower here, while you wait for your ride home..." I have always been called a tease for the past years when my friends tried to pair me up with other men. It's because I am too dense for any flirting or intimacy.
"But that's not what you really mean , do you?"
And while I'm struggling to contain any further reservation. He started to get closer to me until I was push further into a corner without any place to further escape. Or was I expecting it to happen like that?
It felt like ever since we met, this is how everything is solved. The teasing, the flirting and the eventual making out that ends in bed somehow. I mean how can someone still say anything when you're already being pushed into a corner and your lips being invaded with those luscious lips and those sweet tongue that had pried open not only my lips but also explored my deepest core?
It has been 3 years since I last experience this kind of hotness. And while I still thought of stopping my body has a mind of its own. And we started the round on the sofa and ended up in bed eventually.
Looking at him, while remembering what happened last night made my heart flutter. I have agreed to try. If what I'm feeling is just the curiosity to act out on my longing, I also want to see it through, because right now, my heart is so full and happy that I don't want to think of anything else. He opened his eyes and pulled me back to him.
"I just want to confirm that you're still here, that this is not just a dream…" he murmured. I looked up at him.
"Good morning, you…" I reached out for a soft kiss, but he planted his lips on mine. And he started to part my lips with his tongue, going deeper and hungrier. And he started to guide me back to what happened last night. Three years of longing might end up with us staying in bed the whole day. I burrowed my head on his chest. I can get use to this. We stayed in that embrace for half an hour. I still can't get over the fact that he just confessed his love to me last night, and I can't stop smiling with that thought. This is what it feels like to stay. I supposed to stand up to make breakfast, but he pulled me back again.
"We need to get out of bed somehow…" I asserted.
"Not today…" he taunted. If his phone didn't ring, we'll probably still be in bed. When he got up to get the call. I went down to make breakfast. It is already 9 in the morning; I'm supposed to go for a run. But I don't think I still have the energy for that, I made coffee and squeezed some oranges. I took out some croissant from the freezer and bake them to make sandwiches, with ham and cheese.
"Is your breakfast always this busy?" he greeted. He's wearing the robe I set up for him. He comes towards me and give me a back hug. I faced him to give a kiss.
"Not really, I'm supposed to be out for my run right now, so I just grab juice and some fruits sometimes" I informed him.
"So, you have a busy morning…" it's as if he's getting to know my routine already.
"I just wanted to start the day with lots of energy." I admitted.
"You had a lot energy without breakfast…" he teased, and I blushed.
"Have some breakfast before you go…" I offered coffee and croissant with ham and cheese.
"Are you trying to get rid of me now?" he acted surprise.
"I just figured that maybe something came up and you needed to go…" I asserted; he knew I'm talking about the phone call.
"Joon was just wondering where I am since I wasn't home, and we needed to prepare for the meeting tomorrow…"
"Oh, wow, I didn't know that CEOs work even on the weekends…" I teased.
"We work especially in the weekends…" he acknowledged.
"Weekends where we have to take investors for golf or lunch or whatever the excuse is to talk about business," he continued.
"So, I need to be an investor to have lunch with you today, Mr. CEO?"
"It depends if your investment is attractive enough for my company…" I looked at him with his smug face, he is now sitting across the island table eating the sandwich.
"Hmmm…interesting… I will think about it…" I rode along with his humor. Then he chuckled, and he started to laugh.
"Let's have lunch today too, I'm leaving for Shanghai tonight…" he just casually exclaimed.
"Whoa, you're going to China for golfing?" I act surprise.
"We have to install the company's server tomorrow for a trial before we can present it on Monday to their board of directors…" he explained.
"Didn't you just come from there?"
"Are you sad to let me leave?"
"It's a logical question...."
"We are not done apparently..."
"You don't need to explain, I understand."
He looked at me and held my hand. "Do we need to spell out what this is?"
"I don't understand what you mean?"
"I told you, I like you and since we spend the night together, I could only understand that you like me too. In conclusion, wouldn't this mean that we are already in a relationship?"
"Ok."
"OK? Do you still have a problem expressing your feelings, after last night?" he teased.
It's probably a good idea to just ghost him out after last night. But why did I let him stay in my place? I know he will unnecessarily tease me about last night. It was awkward.
"I'm just having a hard time believing this. I'm ecstatic and I know that I might become unnecessarily overthinking about a lot of stuff again. And I might miss you more now that I know you're just here…"
"Look at you, all too expressive all of a sudden…" he teased, and he wrapped me in a sweet embrace.