TW: implications of CSA, PUKING, SLIGHT SEXUAL CONTENT, CHILD ABUSE.
I awake in a cold sweat feeling the black fog once again, but the feeling went faster than it came. I look down at my hands and notice my hair is longer than usual. 'Why the hell is my hair straight? Don't tell me they made me-' I then jolted up from bed and looked at my surroundings. I then remember what Phoenix said to us, that this supposed story takes place in a noble era. I hear a knock at my door and I speak up and say "Come in-" as I walk towards the large mirror, I take a good long look at myself. Do I look the same? I have toffee colored skin, my eyes are greyish still.
The only difference is that now my hair is down to my waist, it's white and my hair is straight. I had locs in, white ones before me and Zan were transported, I don't look bad with this hair, not at all. I turned around as soon as I saw an unfamiliar person behind me, it was a maid. Anxiety rushed over my body as I remembered thousands of unfamiliar memories, names, places and so much more. The black fog consumed me entirely and I collapsed. Before I did, the maid called out for me "Your Highness!"
Zan's POV.
There was heat all across my body. I yanked the heavy blanket off of me, and looked over to my left. A woman? I jumped out of bed and blurted "Alright, what the fuck-" the woman lifted the blanket and looked at me, she was in her nightgown. She was a short woman, blonde with blue eyes, and had a soft look to her. The softness on her face then turned to annoyance, "If you're gonna ask, no we did not do anything." For some reason a sense of relief washed over me, I stared at her. "I seriously don't understand why you don't wanna make love with me?" She looked at me as if something was wrong with me. "I-I" I said, stuttering a little before being interrupted, seriously what's with people interrupting me today? She pressed her breasts together and looked down and stared at me, pulling down her nightgown a little to show her cleavage.
"Is that what all men want? You react but you never want to go further. I wonder why that is." I start blushing and look away, she goes on and frowns "It's that other woman isn't it? I see." I felt a rush to say something, and I looked up and saw the progress bars Phoenix was talking about. I see it over the strange woman's head, our relationship is in pink. "Listen it's not like that-" My mind is still blank and I still can't come up with a reason as to why this man has acted this way. I don't remember anything from this person, she interrupts me and sucks her teeth and leaves the room. I sigh and lay back down on the bed and rub my eyes taking a deep breath.
I then sit up then actually take a good look around, exactly as they described. I look over on the dresser and see a handheld mirror. The handle was made out of steel, I look at myself and I don't see a difference whatsoever. Then heat runs throughout my body again and the pain is excruciating, the memories are too much for my body. I relive everything he experienced again, I can't take it.
I start screaming incomprehensible words as I start puking on the floor, hyperventilating afterwards. I can't stop shaking. I see myself as a child at night, that fucking maid. Oh god, the more I remember the heavier my heart and body feels. I remember being strapped down on wood and then a knife plunges through my hands. I looked down at my hands and saw the scars, I nearly puked again from the intense abuse I'm reliving. It isn't like Phoenix described at all, they said that we were gonna experience emotional pain, they didn't include psychical pain. I got up and ran out of the bedroom and screamed "HELP ME." A maid and a butler ran to my aid, and I told them I threw up before I passed out.
VALENTINAS POV
I woke up, with a damp cloth on my forehead and a woman praying next to me, with her head down. It was the maid from earlier, I tap on her head and she jolts up and says "She's awake!" A man who I assume is the doctor then nods and says "It's nothing serious, just a fever that's all. Stop overworking yourself, it's most likely the cause of this." I nodded and looked down as the maid handed me a cup of water, I sat up and drank the cup of water.
"Your highness, are you going to church in this condition?"
"Yes, I'm pretty sure I am."
I need to act as normal as possible, I have remembered everything. This character usually goes to church every Sunday and meets up with this noble boy from a neighboring country. The face was a blur though, if I see him I'm pretty sure I'll recognize him. I think it may be Zan, I'm like 80% sure it is. The maid looks worryingly at me then nods. I believe her name is Isa, the maid wore the usual black and white maid uniform. She had long brown hair that reached over her chest, she was about the same height as me, she had freckles on her face and green eyes. She had tan skin but she was much lighter than me and a soft deposition, from what I remember she is hardworking and my closest maid.
She is also like a friend to me, we grew up together since her mother also works in the palace and my parents the king and queen would allow us to play together up until she turned 18 and was qualified to be a maid. I never had any time for friends, my parents had burned into my mind that I was gonna be an empress, who was the best with her people, the best at being a war strategist, the best at pretty much everything. I gave her a reassuring smile and she hugged me, I took a bath that evening and started to plan out everything, but I still don't remember the way the female lead died. That's the final piece that's missing, I'll see tomorrow if I see Zan at the church.