Rai's point of view
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AGAIN, I'VE BEEN FEELING ODD WHEN it came to matters related to Nsomi. I don't know what's happening to me, but I just felt like something had broken inside of me since I learned that she probably has just a few years or even months to live. And when I heard that asshole saying he threw her to a wall, I just got alarmed.
She may not know, but I've been around her during this entire month, coming and going just to see if she had gotten better. Although I made Doctor Hov promise he wouldn't tell her anything. But I just couldn't handle the anxiety I was feeling. After all, she could die today for all we know.
It's not like I don't hate her anymore, because I do. But every time someone brings up her possible death, I just feel sick. That may be why I impulsively rushed together with the nurse to where Doctor Hov was, to see if it was actually because of her or not.
They were in her chambers, which made me even more uneasy. The nurse entered first, but I froze at the door that was half opened, enough for me to see her sitting with her back turned to me. She was using a top, but was shirtless, while the Doctor seemed to be examining her.
What shocked me the most was the dark purple enormous bruise on her back and the swelling on her left ribcage. "I told you to be careful! You aren't 100% yet, Thya. How did you get hurt like this? You have two broken ribs, Thya. This isn't nothing!" I could see how worried he was with her.
"I'm okay, Hov. My death may be near, but it's not going to happen today," that made me freeze and hid on the side of the wall, so none of them would see me if they turned to the door. "Daisuke acted on impulse and threw me to that damned wall. He must hate me so much to delight himself in hurting me like this," she chuckled bitterly. "I'm tired, Hov," her voice tremble as if she was about to cry. "I miss Avy. If... If she was here none of this would happen. Maybe I wouldn't die so soon either, or maybe I would."
When I realized, my eyes felt burning and my vision blurry. I'm not going to cry, am I? Gods above, what is happening to me?
"Wouldn't it be better if you told them how long you still have, child?" Hov asked.
Does he know? I thought she hadn't told anyone but seems like he won her trust for that. "No, Hov. They would torture me while they can. I can't give them the pleasure. They all want to see me dead," her bitter laugh made my heart ache. "I bet they would be pissed if they knew that they will only be able to focus their anger and hatred towards me for a little less than 2 years," less than 2 years?
Less. The. Two. Years...
I felt sick. My cheeks were suddenly wet and my entire body was trembling, but I made no sound. But the biggest pain was the one I felt inside of my chest. 52 years my ass.
She only has less than two years. Gods above... that explain why the cried and got over her pride to ask the King and Queen for her not to be part of the Crowned Princess Trials. That would mean that she would indeed lose an entire year out of the two that she has left.
My body began to move alone again, and when I realized I was running to where the Crown Prince was, he wasn't there anymore. When I asked a guard his whereabouts, he told me he went to meet his parents in the garden of the Queen's castle. So, that's where I went.
When I arrived, I was breathless and they stared at me worried. I let my body fall to my knees. I have to do something about that, but I can't let them know how long she still has, because she would hate that. She would probably hate to know that I eavesdropped on that as well.
"Your Majesties, please, reconsider Nsomi's participation in the trials!" My voice was rough because I ran too much, and my breathing was inconsistent.
"Get up," it was Daisuke's voice, and I felt furious, but tried to hide. It's all this asshole's fault.
When I looked up, I avoided him. "Please, your majesties, I beg you to reconsider!"
"Did something happen to her?" The Queen's voice sounded wary. "Did anyone hurt her again?"
"Yes! And she'll keep getting hurt until she dies if she stays here!" Okay, I'm being a little dramatic, but it's necessary. But the part of keep getting hurt is obvious.
The King sighed. "Rai, you should be asking Dai for that. Not us."
I clenched my teeth. "Why? If he's the one who's going to be hurting her the most?" My tone was bitter. "I... I may have bitter feelings towards her, but Nsomi is the only sister I have left. I do not wish to see her dead, but he does! She carries the name of my House with her, hurting her is the same as hurting me," I turned my head to him, who seemed furious. "And the Prince's pride won't allow him to not hurt her!"
His mother got up. "What happened this time, son?"
"Nothing, mother," he turned to me. "Rai is just bitter for some reason!"
My laugh was bitter. "Nothing? Are an enormous dark purple bruise on her back, swollen ribcage, and two broken ribs, nothing to you, Prince? If that happened to you, would you say it was nothing?"
The King averted his gaze, and the Queen covered her face with her hands, tired. "How did that happen, Rai?"
"The Prince misunderstood a situation and acted impulsively by throwing her to a marble wall with more strength than normal. And she hasn't recovered yet. Her bones are still weak! If you..." my voice died for a second. "If you saw how she is... It's not good. If she stays here I fear that she won't wait for people to kill her, she'll end up taking her own life!"
"Stop being dramatic, Rai!" Daisuke spoke annoyed. "If she took her own life she would be doing us a favor."
I saw red. "What a future King you will make, Daisuke Maël Maximillian!"
"Izan Rai D'Arcy!" The Queen called me out. "Watch your mouth."
Daisuke chuckled bitterly. "I have the right to want her dead. She's at fault for my sister's death!"
"Ha... I didn't know Nsomi had the power to cause the Rosé disease!" He stared at me with two blades in his eyes. "Don't be unreasonable, your royal highness. My sister did not kill Princess Avyanna. She loved her more than she ever loved herself. What makes any of you sure that it wasn't Avyanna who asked her to see her death that night and made her pledge with her life that she would never tell anyone?"
I couldn't control my words anymore. And I only felt it when the Queen slapped my face back to my senses. "My daughter would never do that!"
"Avy loved her life, she would never do that!" The King exclaimed. "Never!"
"All of us know that the Rosé disease symptoms appear more than a year before the death of the person. My sister saw it a year prior to the Princess's death. At that point, do you really think she hadn't been having the symptoms already?" Gods above, what's gotten into me?
"Nsomi Eileithya D'Arcy will remain part of the trials until the end!" Her majesty informed, angry. "No one will take her away from this duty. Whatever happens, she will deal with it. If everybody hates her then the problem is on her and not on us! And you," she took a deep breath. "Get out of here and go to your chambers, before we lose out cool for real and ask for your head."
"Now I understand why she wanted to run from the Kingdom. If the rulers are so unreasonable like this, how would they be a good example for their people?" I wanted to stop talking, but I just couldn't control my mouth.
The King turned to me, "Kid, you should leave now. We'll only let this action pass because you've never acted like this. You must have been manipulated by your sister, or you must be too shocked because of something that happened. But be aware that this will be your chance to change the way you act!"
I decided that it would be better to leave because I wouldn't be able to do anything if I was dead, besides, Nsomi already told me I will die old, and her vision don't change. Maybe knowing I wouldn't die now is what made me gather the courage to speak that way with them. But I shouldn't do that again. They have the power to kill me if they want to, and I don't want to know how that feels.