I HAD A LIGHT-PINK BLINDFOLD ON, THIS TIME, AND MY DRESS MATCHED. Honestly, I don't like to wear dresses, probably because I'm used to spending time on the training grounds always dressed in sweat shirts, trousers, and boots. That's my style. But only my family and Avy knew that, and they never told any outsider saying that 'it can taint our image', and things like that.
But it's not like I hate dressing up like this. I don't hate it, and I understand why I have to do it. It's just that I would gladly choose not to, at least not every single time I go out of our territory.
It can be annoying.
When I was getting on the carriage, my brothers and Rai's best friend, Elodie Aoife Branwen {the wealthy and radiant white crow}, the daughter of Duchess Branwen, stopped me and got into it before. "How childish!" I mumbled annoyed and they stared at me, unbothered. "Why are you staring at me for?"
"How do you know we are staring at you?" The girl questioned, sitting on my right, in a condescending tone, although I could almost taste her fear.
I laughed acidly, "I'm not blind, dummy! And did you guys forget that all of my senses are extremely enhanced? I can't see how you look but I can see your energy. So yeah, stop staring at me. Or I'm going to go out without this damn thing covering my eyes!" The girl tried to sit a little away from me after that last part and I smiled at that.
It's quite funny that while everyone hates me, she rather feels fear than hatred.
Both my brothers made an annoying sound and I told the Knight who was driving the carriage to head to Soleil Keeper. "What are you planning to do there, Nsomi?" Aeneas questioned me, in a suspicious tone.
"That's none of your business!"
"She's probably going to try speaking with the Queen and the King, so she doesn't participate in the Crown Princess Trials," Rai exclaimed, like a knows-all.
I kept a stoic face, not showing my emotions to any of them. "I don't even know why they are letting her participate, after what she did to Avy," hearing Aeneas say that made me clench my teeth and close my hands in fists.
"Obviously, that's the Crown Prince's doing. He's not going to let her get away, especially when he's probably planning to torture her psychologically because of what she did to her sister!" Fuck it!
Letting an evil smirk take over my lips, I slowly undid the tie in the blindfold, blinking a little bit because of the light. "Gods above," the girl yelled and covered her eyes with her hands.
"What a scared Lady you are," I mocked and turned to my brothers.
"Put that thing back!" They spoke together and I arched my eyebrows at that.
"No! I told you I would do it if you didn't stop staring at me. But not only did you keep doing it, as well as you started talking about something you don't fucking know!" Clenching their jaws, they finally showed their annoyance.
I turned my attention to Rai's best friend and when she sensed my gaze on her she started crying. "Please, look away. Don't look at me. I don't want you to know anything," how delightful.
"Stop it, Nsomi!" Rai yelled and I ignored him. "Stop it, damn it! You are scaring her!"
The carriage was already stopping when he screamed that. "Scaring her?" I mocked. "Is she the one who's going to see how she's going to die, or is it me?" That made them all go silent, even the crying girl. "You are all full of bullshit, you know that? Full of fucking bullshit!" I took my blindfold and got out of the carriage.
I heard some small screams when they saw me. "If you don't want me to see your deaths, then don't look at me in my fucking eyes!" I yelled for everyone to hear. "Because I'm not using this damn thing again." Then I threw the blindfold on the ground and got into the Palace.
As expected, everyone avoided my gaze, and when the King's personal assistant, Dempsey, came to see me, he probably had heard about it, because he cleverly avoided my eyes. "The King and the Queen request your presence, Princess Nsomi D'Arcy!"
"Thank you, Sir Dempsey. I came here to talk with them." He didn't ask me to put a blindfold on, so he probably knows that I've already seen their deaths years ago.
They will both die together, fifty-nine years from now, and peaceful death at that. Right when I awoke this power they ordered me to tell them about their deaths but made me swear that I would never tell anyone about it. Even though I was 3, I wasn't stupid, and I knew that I could never disobey those two, so I did as they said.
You might have realized but every time I see one's death, my eyes cry blood tears. It always happened. So it's easy to tell if I saw someone's death or not, just by looking at my face. That's how Daisuke knew that I had done it, that night. And by how I reacted, he probably realized that I had seen Avy's death, and so he tried so hard to make me tell him about it.
What would he say if he knew I also saw his parents' deaths and didn't tell him about it? I laughed at that thought.
Sir Dempsey guided me to the salon of the thrones, telling everybody around us to not look me in the eye. They keep overreacting to me as if I would cause all those people's deaths with my eyes. It's ridiculous, seriously.
When I reached my place in front of the Kingdom's rulers, I bowed and looked them in eyes. And for a whole minute, they only stared at me, analyzing me from head to toes, especially my eyes. Probably because they haven't seen me in five years and almost no one saw my eyes for longer than that. "Your Majesties," I bowed again, uneasy with the uncomfortable silence.
They were my best friend's parents. I can't even imagine their pain. But I remember that their family didn't allow me to attend her funeral, it hurts until now to not have been able to attend that day.
Breathing heavily, I clenched my teeth and closed my hands in fists, trying to control those emotions. This anger that's been burning me from inside out. So I looked down, not wanting them to see the pain in my eyes. It hurts to look at them, especially the Queen, because Avyanna was identical to her.
"Look at us in the eye, Thya," that calm voice of the Queen caught me off guard. The last person who called me that was Avy, it made my heart skip a beat. I did as they said, biting the inner side of my cheeks, to hold everything inside me.
"It's been five years since we last saw you, child," the King spoke and I felt my hands trembling. "How old are you now, Thya? 19?"
I nod. "Yes, Your Majesty. I turned nineteen a month ago."
"Indeed. Your birthday is on the 7th day of the 6th month of the year, right?" I met the Queen's eyes and a nod to her question.
"That's correct, Your Majesty!"
"Why are you without your blindfold, Thya?" She asked, but her voice was frighteningly calm.
I gulped. "I got tired of using it, Your Majesty. I want to see the world with my eyes, while I still…" I need to be quiet. "I mean, I want to see everything that I couldn't all those years. I'm tired of being afraid of what I'm going to see, death comes to everybody and there's nothing we can do about it. It's not like I'll cause someone's death with my eyes, I'm just going to see it. Although most people don't seem to understand that, or rather, they don't want to. And that's okay, I don't mind people blaming me for it, not anymore. I just won't stand being accused of something I didn't do, like killing someone especially because I didn't want to see them dying either," I felt my eyes burning and closed them for an instant, trying to avoid myself from crying in front of them.
"Open your eyes, Thya," the King ordered in a calm voice, and biting my bottom lip, I did as he said. "What do you feel?"
"Anger, Your Majesty."
"What do you want to ask us, Thya?" Avy's mom asked. "Be straightforward as you've always been, child."
"I am here to ask you to take my title away from me and to make me a commoner instead of letting me stay as a Noble," by their faces, I could tell that they were expecting anything but that. "And to cancel my place on the Crown Princess Trials, because I don't want anything to do with that."
That way I can freely leave the Maximillian Kingdom and hide in one of the United Kingdoms. Probably on the Uzuri Kingdom, because it's the farthest away from this place as possible, as well as the biggest Kingdom in the UK, so it will be easier to hide from others there. At least, if I'm able to not go through these annoying Trials, I'll be able to enjoy one more year of my life.
I sensed his energy before I heard his voice. "Who would have thought that you would be so afraid of facing me, to the point of going through such lengths to avoid staying close to me during the Trials," he spoke behind me, and I held the urge to look at him in the eye.
If I did that, the Queen and the King would probably kill me. They might be acting cool, but I'm sure they hate me for not telling them about their daughter's condition.