Here, Antonio actually feels that he will always be superior in every way compared to Immanuel. Even if he knew that Immanuel had always had far more potential than him. Antonio always tries to make it a reality, even though he knows that his life is not an easy life for him to live as a businessman like his father.
Antonio knows that he also understands that being a good child requires a lot of effort and also things that must be occupied by him. But indeed Antonio knew that he himself would not always feel like he was the son his father truly loved.
Somehow here he was actually trying his best to do his best. But it is true that Immanuel is always superior, especially when compared to him. Sometimes he himself understands, because he also knows if he is still like that, worrying about various things that he could never have guessed before.
