"Lu Yang Yang!"
A little chubby boy appears running towards her at her loud yell, "Why? What happened, Hua?"
He asked, looking up at her with his puppy eyes. Yi Hua sighs, rubbing her forehead in annoyance as her left foot keeps tapping against the floor making the little boy take a step back, intimidated.
"How many times do I have to tell you to not create a mess?!" Yi Hua yells, finding herself having a hard time controlling her anger despite the cute little being pouting in front of her.
"I-I... don't want you to go there. " He says making circles on the floor with his left feet with his head hung low in guilt but with sadness and worry. Yi Hua sighs, feeling bad as she understands where he is coming from, she bends on her knees and eyes the little kid.
"You know this is crucial for me... I need to do it. " She says much in a pleading tone but the little boy shakes his head no with a pout still prominent on his lips.
Yi Hua sighs again before looking down at her feet, her eyes tearing up.
"Yang Yang, you know how I died... how can you stop me from getting what I want? " She says, looking at him with her teary eyes, at her words the little kid raises his head, and indeed he is already on the verge of tearing up.
"But..." He trails looking away, a teardrop rolls down his chubby cheeks even though he tried to force it down.
"If you go there... I won't be able to stay with you. You will be all alone..." The little kid speaks making her chuckle, she scoots closer to him and hugs him while the kid snuggles closer.
"Moreover, I don't know if everything would repeat itself...I don't want you to get hurt, Hua." He mumbles, wrapping his arms around her and hugging her tight.
"You are my guiding spirit... you will always be with me. " Yi Hua smiles hearing the kid sobbing quietly and she caresses his head feeling bad about the thought of leaving him behind. "Not unless you want me to go on my own." She adds, trying to lift the atmosphere but Lu Yang Yang scoffs at her words.
"Can you probably... ask if I can tag along?" He speaks, peeking his head out from her arms and staring at her.
"Aish, I always forget that you are older than me with those puppy eyes and a little figure of yours!" Yi Hua says pinching his cheeks while he groans trying to push her hands away, Yi Hua chuckles, loosening her grip against him and she smiles.
"I will, of course. " She says, patting his head.
"I am not a kid! Don't pat me! Humph!" He yells pushing her away with a glare but how can one not say that glare is cute when it's coming from him. Yi Hua chuckles, bopping his nose and standing on her feet.
"Yah!" Lu Yang Yang yells, caressing his cheeks which were still throbbing after her attack.
"Hua... best of luck!" He says smiling widely, all of a sudden the angry frown and pout are replaced by an excited grin, and with his cute chubby fist up in the air.
"Of course! I will be back!" Yi Hua says with determination while walking away.
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Walking down the street with spirits like her passing by, all were smiling and they were happy, unlike her. She didn't deny she felt happy here with Lu Yang Yang, the heaven which seemed such a lively and calming place to be... but here, she wasn't calm at all.
The feeling of betrayal from the loved one...was making it hard for her.
Yi Hua has been going through all these pains and emotions with the betrayal she has received. And that too is the reason for her death, did no good to her mind and peace.
But this is not where her protest stops, though she is a soul wandering around in heaven she still wants to justify her murder. She wants revenge for her death.
"Hello, Hua." A familiar spirit greets her, she smiles nodding her head, she doesn't speak much and everyone is aware of it. So, with her lack of response, the other spirit walks away with a smile.
Her eye stuck on the grand palace-like illusion from afar, yes illusion.
There was no palace there but just an empty hall, still, from far it would look like a palace. Yi Hua had been visiting it every day since she died and came to heaven.
She has always stood at the gate to the way to God. She needs answers and her words are not being listened to. Does God become a stranger to us... their child?
"I wonder, will he listen to me today?" Yi Hua questions herself, she was troubled with these very questions which were questioned with a lack of response from god. Not all could see god in there, he shows himself to the person who he thinks needs him the most.
But, why is he not listening to her? Why is she not getting to have her words? She has been coming here for a long time and she has already lost count.
But her will to avenge her death never died. The injustice she had gone through, she will take back all her insults one by one.
"I cannot just give up!" Yi Hua shouts, the spirits around look at her with a weird gaze, ignoring her they go back to their activity, she fists her palm and walks towards the palace.
She had heard that he showed himself, and she couldn't wait to run for him.
After lots of conflicts between thoughts of her own, finally, she was relieved that she can visit the almighty God. Yi Hua almost lost this opportunity because Yang Yang was messing around creating trouble for her so that she couldn't see God but she wasn't late to have her chance.
She wants to ask for justice which she would like to give to herself on her own.
She makes her way into the large space which seemingly was covered with clouds making it opaque and beautiful. She walked through the fog down the hall, she gasped seeing how magnificent it looked.
Far from her is a throne that is even more beautiful. And there is seated an elderly person with a powerful aura who happened to be God.
'Finally! He is here!' Yi Hua shouts inside her mind, her steps fasten as she tries to approach the almighty god but the more she runs the more she gets surprised. She has been running but she was still in the same spot and the distance was not decreasing.
"Welcome, Hua!" His voice addresses her and she feels a chill run down her spine at his loud voice echoing the whole space. She gulps at the greeting with God.
With her head down on the floor and hands beside her head with her body bent down over the spacious floor, she greets God with respect.
"I know what you want but...it is impossible to do now. " He replies and Yi Hua raises her head with teary eyes and a broken heart. This is not what she has expected to hear from the Almighty. He didn't even let her speak and she wasn't accepting it.
"Why...Why can't you do that? You are almighty...God...can't you just give me a chance? I want a chance for myself. " She whispered in between her sobs.
The elder sighs as he had expected this from the little girl in front of her. And he knew with that strong determination inside her...she wouldn't back away and it would be impossible to convince her.
"Just...please..." She begs and cries her heart out and the elder sighs as he makes his way toward Hua. He bends on his knees and grabs her shoulder with his hands. He pulls her body up to have her face him.
He sighs, "I cannot let you go now because your body is already destroyed. But I can have you reincarnated in the next life and give you full permission to give yourself your revenge. "
He speaks in a very dominating way which shakes the whole arena. Yi Hua stops crying when the man stays still scanning her teary eyes and her wet face. She was not satisfied.
She looks pale and he was indeed worried for a soul to be this drained. With his words, the girl frowns and confusion is plastered all over her face.
"No...no. I want to take revenge on my own.... in this life. Not after being reincarnated. Please..." She says, pointing out her opinion.
"I will give you the access and power to take yourself in the past. But You have to get reincarnated. Make a path for your future self. I will just be a medium. You will lead yourself!"
The earth and heaven shake because he just made an exception for a soul and for the girl who happens to be a pure being seeking peace and justice, they didn't object. He says and then stands up and walks back to his throne. Hua sniffs with a small smile forming on her lips.
"Yes, I will make my path. I will protect myself and take revenge. I will do it...I really will! " She stands on her feet and walks away greeting him goodbye and thanking him for his gratefulness.
"But...remember, the world you will live in your reincarnated life and your present life differs..." He says, brows creased as he watches her. He then continues, "If you go back to the past then... you will have to suffer even more, are you ready?"
Yi Hua widens her eyes, taken aback by the god's question, gulping down the lump she takes in a deep breath, "Yes. I am ready. I will do anything to protect myself from dangers."
God smiles slightly, he could see everything that would happen to her but he wanted her to go and learn herself, "Now that you have decided, I have no say. I hope you will know what to do and whom to love."
She was beyond happy and she couldn't help herself from grinning ear to ear. She was feeling in heaven though she was already in heaven, she was really happy. But the word love made her frown.
"Love? I am not gonna fall in love, not again. Love is doom, I don't want it." She says, her voice stern and looking determined. The god chuckles, her answer amusing him so much. This was also the reason, her naiveness, had him wrapped around her.
He couldn't go beyond nature but he also couldn't let her suffer.
"I see, you need to work hard for that, your fate will change once you go back." He says, flashing a smile, making Yi Hua surprised as he vanishes away.
"What?" She questions, puzzled.
But no one was around to answer her question, she was frowning but her eyes widened, "Oh god, I mean...God, I forgot to tell you something! I am taking Yang Yang with me!"
She stands up with a smile and walks away waiting for her to be born again and for herself to rise again.
"I will make sure...I will be much stronger and never fall in Love. It is just a waste of time!"
But when God hears this, a knowing smile breaks out. After all, nobody in this universe can predict what will happen except God because human behavior is unpredictable.
And repeating the same mistake is what a human always does.