Sain stood towering in front of him with a straight face that only Neil knew only anger flashed and stuck there permanently. Hand of Science arms at Neil with black eyes glistening in the street lamp light which Neil was sure they were staring at him more intensely than Neil could bear.
"Neil, want to stay away from me again?"
Neil's brows furrowed in disbelief at what Sain had said to him. Neil's pupils dilated and terror and fear flashed across his colorless face.
"You left me, Riksa. I thought you cared about me." Neil said with his body shaking, he bit his lip reluctantly as a sob escaped his lips.
Sain didn't say anything in front of him. So, Neil continued, "Are you just using me, Riksa? Am I just your toy? Are you going to torture me again, Riksa?"
Neil said breathlessly and his throat was choking, he didn't want to say that, but he couldn't hold his tongue to ask Sain the question that had been stuck in Neil's mind for a long time.
He watched every expression that crossed Sain's face, but Neil couldn't read anything with Sain's emotions completely covered.
Neil suddenly made his assumption through Sain's silence. Is it true that Sain did what Neil said? Is it true he's just a toy he can play with and just leave? And will he punish with every mistake or whatever Neil does that doesn't suit him? If Sain wanted to punish him, why didn't he do it right now?
If Sain cared, he shouldn't have left Neil kneeling in pain under his feet and instead left with the women while Neil lay in the hospital.
Indeed Neil wanted Sain to be normal again, but not like this. At least he could treat Neil like a normal human, not like a sex slave who he came to drain all his fluids on Neil and then left when he was satisfied.
Neil rubbed his eyes with the back of his strong hand. He still faithfully observed Sain's expression in front of him. When will Sain go to punish him? Why is he silent?
Neil grimaced, maybe he was enjoying every suffering that happened to Neil now. He opened his voice and was instantly embarrassed to hear his trembling voice. "What are you waiting for, Riksa? You dumped me now and found a new one. So go on, you can come to me if you need me to take it out, but not now Riksa. I'm so tired."
A bad thought flashed through Neil's head, maybe his Father in this dimension was right. That he should just sell himself. After all, he's already dirty. What is his body for now, if it is not used in that regard.
True, Neil was very tired and cold. He wanted to curl up into a ball, protecting himself from every bad thing that could happen. The world is cruel, but humans are crueler.
Sain again didn't say anything he just sat a good distance next to Neil, seeing that Neil buried his head and cried silently. It made his chest feel like he was being pressed hard and his throat hurt and suffocated. Neil bit his lip between his tongue, holding back the sobs that escaped his tightly closed slits.
Neil rubbed his face roughly, it's useless to cover this up because Sain already knows this weakness. Maybe not just this but other things too. A lot, Neil has shown it all.
Neil slowly returned to speaking calmly making him proud of himself again in the midst of the unfavorable atmosphere. "Riksa, how do we end this bullshit. You live your life, I live my own. I want you to be normal and get out of this dimension as soon as possible."
Sain suddenly growled at him he gripped Neil's shoulder tightly, Neil was used to Sain's treatment like this. So he chose silence and followed where Sain took him.
"You're the one who talks about bullshit. Even if you asked yourself for me to return to normal, it won't be possible because I don't want to and don't even think you'll sell yourself," said Sain with his passionate anger.
Neil just snorted "It's up to you whether you want to be normal or not Riksa, you can always take it all out on me. Go now, you can come and call me after I get a proper place and clothes."
Sain ruffled his hair and looked at Neil with pure disbelief flashing there. "What's on your mind, now Neil? Until you say something like this?"
"I'm very disappointed in you, Riksa. Where did you go after I fell in pain right under your feet? Now I also hurt, right in the chest because of your behavior, Riksa. I don't understand at all and always ask what exactly makes you say you love me, while you know what I'm like."
Neil sobbed with tears running down his cheeks. Then he continued to subconsciously shout, "I wonder why I'm always sad and suffer the most. And I know who it is because of you. Of course you. Always you. Every time. You always hurt me, whether you know it or not. . You'll never know. Just check I'm tired."
Neil rubbed his face again and looked at Sain who looked dumbfounded by his lengthy sentence. "I'm tired of loving you, I want to stop here, but I can't. There are always many reasons to love you back."
"I'm tired." Neil sobbed behind his knees which were pulled tight against his chest.
True, he never knew when love was so tormenting him like this.
Maybe because Sain was just pretending?
The thought of it made Neil's heart squeeze, painful.
Maybe, Sain never had the same feelings for Neil. Maybe he was just toying with Neil's feelings.
Suddenly Neil's eyes went heavy, his nails digging into his arms until his fingers turned white. Neil pressed his teeth hard against each other, then Neil's consciousness was pulled away from him.
Everything went dark.
****
Neil is focused on building a sand tower in his yard, Skylar is out on a bike ride with the others, and Neil isn't happy to be out of his house for a long time.
"Neil?"
Neil jerked his head to look at Sain who came with a small bucket and a plastic shovel in his hand. He looked radiant with his cheeks flushed red in the morning sun, and her messy hair swept by the wind.
"Riksa, you brought it? Come here! I'm alone, Skylar went," said little Neil pouting but his hands never stopped forming another building from the little red plastic shovel in his hand.
"Where's Skylar?" Sain asked innocently as he crouched close to Neil's side.
"He rides a bike," Neil replied simply. He pounded the sand in front of him so hard that the other grains flew in all directions.
Sain swiftly grabbed Neil's wrist to hold it. Neil turned to look at Sain with his big and watery eyes ready for him to cry at any moment. "Why are you angry Neil?"
Neil stuck the shovel into the sand, he shifted slightly to face Sain who was crouching beside him. "I was alone, Skylar was playing with other people."
Sain smiled widely and also shifted to face Neil, he placed the bucket he was holding in front of them. Then Sain said, "Now I'm here, Neil. Don't cry, I don't want to leave you alone."
Neil subconsciously wiped his face with his dirty hands but was immediately restrained by Sain.
"Dirty Neil," Sain said as he lifted his clean hand and brought it to the surface of Neil's cheeks which were blooming with a soft pink color.
Neil then smiled widely and said, "You are my best friend, Riksa. Can we continue to be friends like this?"
Neil frowns as Sain just stares at him. Sain finally answered with a sentence that Neil didn't like, "We can't continue to be friends, Neil."
"Why?" Neil asked hastily because they had been friends before they could even talk, but Sain said that made Neil less excited.
"I don't know Neil, I just feel like we can't continue to be friends."
****
Neil opened his eyes and adjusted the light entering his vision. He blinked slowly a few times, again normalizing his eyes to look around. Neil tried to focus even though the part of the head at the end of his brow was throbbing causing Neil to wince.
Neil squirmed and instantly his eyes widened in shock. He immediately sat up with the sound of water splashing from his raised hand. Neil also felt a pair of arms wrapped around his waist tightly and realized what he was sitting on right now.
"Already up?" A deep voice that Neil knew very well came from Sain behind him while sniffing the back of Neil's neck creating a tingling sensation that radiated straight to Neil's bottom.
"Riksa, why am I here?" Neil asked with his face feeling warm as he was tightly gripped by Sain's big hand.
"You passed out from exhaustion, remember?"
Neil's eyes twitched uncomfortably but he gripped them, he just remembered that and didn't expect it to end up like this. Neil gripped tightly from side to side of the bathtub.
"Riksa, where am I?" asked Neil again.
"At my house, you don't need to panic. Now, this is your home too," Sain replied gently tilting Neil's head and placing a brief peck on Neil's cheek.
"Mmm," Sain said, body pressing closer, intent on crushing Neil. And then, without warning, he struck Neil's neck with his lips and teeth, and Neil realized that Sain was, in fact, a vampire and definitely after Neil's blood. He of course sucked on Neil's skin pretty hard.