The laughter stopped but wasn't enough to make Neil remove his bloody hand from the side of his head until he heard a whisper from the monster. "There's no need for a reason to make you suffer."
Everything is dark and light.
***
When his eyelids opened and caught the light of the room that made his eyes unaccustomed. Neil felt his cheeks wet with tears that involuntarily came out which he didn't know why.
His eyes rolled to the clock. Five minutes. He had only been asleep for five minutes. With nightmares, which are long and painful. He couldn't believe this. Again he asked, what happened?
"Insolent Sain, what did you do to Neil?" A muffled whisper sounded from outside and caught Neil's attention. The voice that Neil believed was Michelia's. However, why is Michelia here? In his home? Also science? What are they doing? Even though Michelia herself canceled her promise.
He slowly got off and decided to stand behind the door listening to Michelia whispering about him behind Neil's back.
"If you care, just keep your mouth shut." Sain didn't even hold back his voice as he started to speak.
"What are you doing?" asked Michelia sharply ignoring Neil's words.
"You came here to mess things up. Look what happened to Neil? Do you want to be responsible, if something happens to him? If you want to mess up people's lives, find someone else. Not Neil," Sain replied with emphasis.
"On what basis are you speaking like that? You're just a newbie." Neil shook his head slightly disapproving of Michelia's words, his feet slowly stepped against the wall next to the door and slumped against it. He pulled his legs against his chest, ready to hear more of what Michelia and Sain out there had to say about him.
Sain snorted across the door, "Talking to you is just a waste."
The door swung open and closed next to Neil. Neil just sat quietly hugging his legs tightly with his eyes blank.
What happened?
That question always echoed in Neil's head. Asking on the basis he felt some puzzle pieces disappear in Neil's head. Then her body was gently pulled into a warm embrace. Neil was immersed in it, he took a deep breath that he was unconsciously holding.
Neil bit his lip reluctantly to let out a choked sound, as he held back the tears he wanted to let out. Neil didn't know what was happening to his body, he just wanted to cry. Just that.
"I'm here," Sain whispered against the side of his head.
"Riksa, what happened?" mumbled Neil.
Sain broke their embrace and cupped Neil's cheeks which were wet with traces. Sain left a soothing kiss on Neil's lips.
"There's something you're better off not knowing," replied Sain.
Neil nodded, he understood. Neil didn't want to know things that would only make him feel even more pain.
Like when he found out who Skylar was.
"I feel like I missed some things and I forgot. This feels weird, Riksa," complained Neil.
"You just need to ignore it or I can help by making you happy," Sain said in his heavy voice. Their noses pressed against each other and there wasn't enough room for Neil to back away.
Neil bit his lower lip to suppress the sound that was about to slip out of his lip as Sain pushed himself against the wall even more. "Riksa, there is Lia outside."
"We can do it quietly," muttered Sain bringing Neil into his lap closer.
"You feel it?" Sain asked with a smirk stuck to his mouth.
A rosy hue crawled up from Neil's neck to Neil's head, he would never get used to this no matter how many times they did it. "I'm so embarrassed, Riksa."
"Why?" Sain looked at him confused with his eyebrows raised. "I've seen all your pieces, Neil."
Neil's body shook when Sain said his name and said it innocently as if it wasn't a mistake. Neil squeaked and started to say "Still, I'm embarrassed. Especially with Lia outside."
Neil felt something that had hardened even more pressing against him even more until Neil choked and couldn't think a second time.
"Don't expect you to want to bring that girl in here and watch us," growled Sain staring fixedly at Neil who looked at Sain with his sad eyes.
Neil brought his finger to Sain's clothes and pinched his stomach. "You're crazy, I still have a lot of nerves of shame. It's not like you are shameless."
Neil closed his eyes, as Sain dragged himself into a gushing pleasure and burst into flames of illusory color filling Neil's vision.
"I have," Sain said happily Neil knew where Sain's next words would lead. "In you."
Neil instantly stuck his fingernails against the skin covered by his clothes on Sain, for saying so rudely to him. Neil knew Sain was a few months younger than him and at least there was something Neil could be proud of when he was with Sain. Neil closed his eyes tightly as he felt heat run up to his thighs.
"You can chat with Michelia right now and keep this in mind," Sain said, burying their lips back in with Neil's drooping head and pinching Neil's hips lightly.
"You're crazy."
"You like it, right?"
Neil didn't like Sain's thoughts, but he nodded. Base!
***
"Lia?" called Neil after he cleaned up the mess that Sain had created for him.
"Neil? Are you okay?" Michelia immediately got up from her seat when she saw Neil standing at the bottom of the stairs and darting towards her.
"I'm fine, Lia. I was just sleeping and why are you here?"
Michelia frowned and blinked a few times looking at Neil in surprise. His eyes moved upwards and immediately sharpened when Neil knew who Michelia was looking at. science.
"You made an appointment for us to go to Skylar's house," Michelia said almost instantly and looked back at Neil with an expression that only Neil could guess there was only confusion and other mixed emotions.
Neil quickly rebutted. "You canceled it three hours ago, Lia. So Sain and I went home and I fell asleep for a few minutes."
"You don't, it's Neil's fault. What happened to you?" asked Michelia quickly grabbing Neil's wrist and shaking it.
"What do you mean, Lia? You canceled it yourself for a business that you didn't talk about and why did you yesterday, you said that the event was important, right?" Neil lighted earnestly under Michelia's demanding gaze.
Michelia let go of her grip and darted towards Sain who had been standing behind her. "What did you do to him?"
***
Neil also turned to look at Sain who stood too relaxed, he in his pocket and the other held on to the stairs. Neil could see that Sain was gripping the banister tightly, holding back his emotions for Michelia.
Neil didn't take long he came to Sain's side to restrain Michelia from doing anything to Sain which would only make Sain angry later. "What's wrong with you, Lia? Why are you angry at Riksa?"
"If you knew what he did to you, I'm sure you would hate him very much," Michelia said with her anger overflowing. Neil had never seen Michelia this angry before among all his friends at school. Michelia had always been a gentle girl and wouldn't let her out like this or maybe when Michelia was mad at Sain's actions Neil didn't know why.
However, Neil doubts that Sain did anything bad to Neil. Sain always does well and the reason is clear, and again Sain loves him very much and he can't possibly do that.
Even thinking of hating Sain, seemed impossible in Neil's own heart and mind. Neil doesn't feel like he was born to hate Sain. He enjoyed every moment that happened to the two of them before Neil was really about to let Sain go back to normal. Neil's stomach suddenly seemed to twist, he gripped his stomach tightly to stop the pain. But instead of stopping, the pain just got worse. He forgot that he had not 'had breakfast' yet, this morning he had already eaten but at that time his father gave a lot of vegetables to his bread.
Neil of course can't refuse he has to eat vegetables even though he doesn't like and can't eat vegetables, he has to resist the urge to vomit in front of his father. So when his father left for work Neil vomited all his stomach contents, even the remnants of last night's food came out of his stomach. From the beginning, Neil didn't like eating vegetables, even though he could throw up the tip of his fingernail. His father never knew or didn't want to know.
Therefore he is now in the canteen with a bowl of meatballs in front of him. Even if Neil's mouth was bubbling, he told the meatballs not to add vegetables to it, so all Neil could do was remove the vegetables one by one from the bowl.
"Come here."
"Huh, what?" Neil just realized he was here alone, why would someone ask him. And so, Neil lifted his head to see someone bothering him when it was quiet.
Neil's eyes saw Skylar sitting across from him blocked by the table, his mouth that had been talking was chewing so Neil didn't know whose voice it was. Every time Skylar's presence in front of Neil can always pull him out of silence, but this time Neil just wants to be alone. The memory of the wound on him appeared when he saw Skylar, he couldn't look weak in front of Skylar. Neil has to run away for a while from the Skylar world.