I choose ruined.
My hiding place for the past two weeks has been the kink place as Utom referred to it.
It wasn't the same anymore. I'd always gotten an undercurrent of dark excitement whenever I'm here. There was that consciousness that my desires were possible at Underflex – that's the real name, by the way. But after Utom, there rose another consciousness that I didn't need an underground dark place like a vampire for my desires to be fulfilled. He'd been ready to do everything with me.
I missed him.
I wanted to go to him. I wanted to be cuddled. I wanted to hear his voice in my ear and his warm breaths brush my neck just before he kissed me there. I want the excitement of calling him to hear his cherry conversations and happy plans he always had for us. I'm tempted to call, but I've gone as far as pulling out the battery from my phone and leaving it at the Underflex admin office.
