"Give me time, okay, Lad. I have to ponder everything," said Broto again after taking a gulp of his own saliva.
They continued to schmooze. Of course, once in a while, Lady includes a discussion about children and the relationship they will have. Over time, their attitudes are like lovers. Intimacy grows slowly and naturally. Lady is trying to direct her own feelings towards Broto's partner. She didn't want the man to hesitate to help. It was also impossible for the woman to continue pretending to like him. Rather, she actually dropped herself, trying to fall in love with Broto.
I have to try to love and accept Broto as my man. Thus, all will not feel heavy to live. It's also impossible for me to play a role forever. It must be very painful. Head wet, just throw it all together, said Lady in her heart.
Lady can accept Kala easily with no love. Of course, it's easy to like this man in front of her. After all, Broto is also not an ugly man, even though he may not be as handsome as Kala. He is gentle, his smile is also attractive.
"It's getting late. Take a rest. Come back, let's go," said Broto.
Lady nodded and rose to her feet. They walked side by side towards the parking lot.
"See you, Broto" said Lady while kissing Broto's left cheek gently.
"Thanks, Lad. See you soon," answered Broto then smiled.
Lady waved before getting into her own car. Finally, they separated and headed for their respective homes.
If this is what I have to do, no problem. For the sake of the child, for the company, for the sake of Kala, for the sake of the family, for the sake of everything, Lady said to herself.
While Broto himself is still very indecisive to choose. He didn't know which to follow, following his heart or common sense that forbade him to accept Lady's offer. However, he had fallen too deep. Is it possible to crawl up and out of this hole? The hole they dug themselves.
He touched his left cheek with a smile. The kiss still leaves a feeling of happiness in Broto. While near to that place, Embun and Alaska still spent the night together.
"Al, you don't have any plans to have a serious relationship with a girl like that?" Embun was surprised by the behavior of this one friend. Changing girlfriends, as easy as changing socks. Don't like it anymore, just throw it away and take a new one.
"Meanwhile, I'm still tasting it first, until I really find the one that fits my taste," the man replied casually.
"What's your taste like?" Embun asked again.
"Like you. Connected, fun, calm, but not spoiled." Alaska looked deeply into Embun's face. Embun immediately grabbed a drinking glass to clear her throat, which suddenly seemed to choke.
"Your bullshit doesn't work for me, Al," said Embun, a little unsure. She felt the strange behavior of the man in front of her. She also remembered how Alaska had suddenly poked her forehead.
"I'm not teasing you. I'm serious. If you want to be my girl, I promise to be loyal and not to look at anyone," Alaska said confidently. He raised his index and middle fingers, forming a V.
"Oh, Al. I already know what your track record is like. So, should I believe that? Tto all the girls, you also say like that," replied Embun.
"Who says? I never said I love them. Those who like me and want to be my girl. Not me. I only accept their declaration of love. I just said yes." Alaska's words sounded casual, but firm. Embun knows this man is not the type of liar, let alone a braggart. He was always blunt, but that's the way it is.
"So, if I were your girl, you would change. Are you promising me?" asked Embun again, to make sure.
"Yeah, I promise. How? Want to be my girl?" Alaska is a little pushy.
"I'll think about it, Al. With my situation like this ...."
"Hish, I already know all your life. The point is, do you want to be my girl or not? Well, that's all, really. You don't need to be complicated," Alaska cut.
"Oh, come on. I'll think about it, Al," said Embun.
"Think about everything. It's like people want to get married. Too long! It is just dating, right? It's not so hard," said Alaska.
This was the first time Alaska spoke quickly, and it flashed like lightning. Normally, he was very relaxed and gentle when dealing with Embun.
"Yes, if you want to wait for an answer, go ahead. If you don't want to wait, that's okay, too. Don't force it, really," replied Embun casually.
"Yeah, okay, I'm waiting. But as long as I wait for your answer, I still can go with another girl." Alaska smirked.
"Gosh. Sex criminals."
"Not sex criminals. Success begins with a dream. If you want to dream, sleep first. Well, I invited the girls to sleep together to string our dreams so that we can become successful people," Alaska reasoned. "Isn't dreaming together much better than being alone?"
"That's just your alibi," said Embun laughing at Al's trick.
"But I don't want us to sleep together if I become your girl. If...," continued Embun.
"Why?" Alaska looked at Embun in surprise. For him, the life are very modern. It's no longer important that the name of virginity. Sex is a necessity of life for both men and women. It's a strange thing if anyone refuses to do it in this era.
"I am not a follower of the free life you are living now. You can only touch me after marriage. Not now." Embun explained her principles as an eastern civilized woman.
"Oh, my God. There are still humans like you." Alaska laughed amusedly. However, he respects Embun's principles and applauds that the girl is still sticking with the ancient customs. "In fact, sleeping together is not wrong. Being literate and having fun together is what cannot be said by custom and religion."
Embun laughed at Alaska's grumbling.
"So, how is it? Can you date me without sex? And that means you won't touch sex again until we're married." Embun looked at Alaska. Now it was the man's turn to look confused.
"Then, I have to fast for sex, that's what you mean? Fasting holding hunger and thirst, I'm strong, Mbun. But if you hold on to that one, oh my," said Al, a little gloomy. He scratched his own hair roughly.
"Instead, okay. Now, I have to think again," continued the young man.
Embun smiled, seeing the man upset. At least, that would be a test run for Alaska. If he is serious and serious, yes, of course he will with those conditions. A person can be considered a real man if he can maintain the honor of his woman. Is not it? So, if there is a man who actually tarnishes or even damages the honor of the woman he loves, then his adulthood deserves to be questioned.
What a man needs to do by nature is to protect and look after women. While a woman is tasked with caring for and soothing the heart of the man she loves. It may sound cliché, but yes, that's how Embun sees it.
Until this age, Embun had never thought about having sex with a man. In fact, even just kissing she had never done. Alaska was the only man who had ever been this close to her, even though there was no love.
Embun only feels comfortable with this man. She also seems to have a family again, a place to lean on and express her tiredness. So far, Alaska has played that role. However, can she love Al as a woman to a man?
Embun is afraid that this feeling is only limited to admiration, closeness, and comfort as a friend or relative, nothing more. But if she didn't try, how would she know?
This girl is trying to love Al as a lover and hopefully also be able to continue until the marriage. If not with Alaska, with what man? She is very difficult to make friends, especially with a man.
Embun is a very secretive person, rarely has friends. She realized that her life differed from ordinary people. Feelings of sadness and inferiority, lack of confidence, prevent her from getting along with other people. She prefers to be alone or with Alaska.
There is a fear in Embun of opening up to other people, especially men. Therefore, she thought Alaska's offer to become a lover, or maybe even a wife in the future, was an attractive offer for her.