It was already 8:00 pm when I arrived home. I texted Xander that I already arrived. He didn't reply I guess he's already sleeping. He looks so tired after the game. Maybe because he is driving back and forth from their main house to school. Maybe he hasn't eaten yet. I'll go visit him. I changed my clothes and pick up my car key. And I decided to buy some food along the way for him to eat. Minutes later I arrived at his place. While I was parking in the parking lot I notice familiar cars. Those are his friend's cars. I ignore other thoughts and walk towards the building. I smiled and greeted the guard and he greeted me back. I entered the elevator and pressed the button to his unit. A few seconds later I arrived at the floor I went out of the elevator and walk into his unit. I notice that the door is open so I don't need to press the code to enter. I enter the door and I was welcome with the noise inside. I guess they decided to hold the party here. But why he didn't inform me?
"Hey, Xander! Let's talk about your current girlfriend. What's her name? Akeisha?" I stopped from my track when I heard someone mention my name. He almost got my name right. I know it's bad to eavesdrop but it is about me. I'm curious about what will they talk about me.
"It's Akleigsha, so what about her?" Xander replied
"Well you know it's more than a year I guess that the two of you started together" The other person replied. His voice is familiar he is Xander's closest friend James Castillo.
"Yes. Why do you ask?"
"Well of course because of the bet!!" the other guy exclaimed. What bet are they talking about?. I'm not familiar with his voice. I guess Xander didn't introduce me to him. But I guess he is also one of Xander's closest friends "Don't tell me you already forget it?" He added
"Of course not, I still remember it. Let Akleigsha fall for me then broke up with her in just a year and you will give me 100,000 if it happens" I feel like my feet are glued to the floor after I heard Xander say this. I can't absorb what's happening. Is my worth only 100,000 bucks?.
"I thought you already forget it. Because it seems that you are too immersed in your role as her boyfriend. Hahaha, I think she fell in love with you really hard I saw it earlier while we are playing. She cheered for us. Her energy in cheering is on another level. Hahaha, I guess I need to get ready for my 100,000 bucks". It's the voice of Louis. So he's one of them too. Now I get it. He is the one who asked Xander earlier. It is not because he's tired but because they already have a plan. Great. I fell right into their trapped. What a piece of sh*t.
"Well, What can I say? I'm handsome. Well, that girl is really boring. Do you expect that our real kiss was just this month?. The whole year I can only hold her hand or kiss her forehead. Unlike Charlotte, I can go all the way" Xander blurted out. I taught nothing would shock me more after I learned that they played my feelings but he really cheated on me. Hah! I'm such a fool to believe his lies.
"You mean Charlotte Madel? The most popular girl in our school? Woah dude you are so lucky.." It's the voice of Louis
"She came to me first. I just welcomed her with my open arms. Hahaha. I'm always with her these past few nights because she loves having sex with me" the plastic almost fell out of my hand after I heard what he said. My heart is hurting so much. I feel so suffocated because of these scumbags. I thought he was going home to his parents these past few days. So their interaction in the cafeteria before was already a clue. I feel so pathetic.
"That's Alexander for you. Cheers!"
*boys laughing*
I'm trying to contain my anger, disappointment, and grief. Even though I want to storm out and blurted all my frustrations and pain to these guys. I decided to shut myself up because I know even though I say something. It would mean nothing to them. It is much better to confront Xander alone than to do it in front of them and embarrass myself. I feel that it isn't the right thing to do. Being alone with him is better because it is about our relationship, not the others.
I waited for a few minutes to calm myself up. I need to act like I heard nothing. I don't want those guys to see me in pain. I won't give them a sense of satisfaction. When I feel that I already calmed down. I decided to walk again. While I was walking toward the living room. I'm trying to calm myself, biting myself to refrain from crying. My knees are getting weaker with every step I take. When I saw those 4 scum I smiled and greeted them.
"Hello, guys!!! I didn't know you are here, Xander isn't answering his phone that's why I got worried. So I decided to come here. You guys seem to enjoy" I said to them while trying to conceal my true emotion. The boys looked like they saw some ghost. I mentally rolled my eyes. Didn't expect to see me here huh?.
"I'm sorry babe, My phone is in my room. Hope you'll forgive me this time" Xander explained. Heh! In your room but I saw it on the table. Yeah right. Why should I believe him again?. I'll make myself a fool if I tried to believe him again.
"It's alright. I believe you. Oh I guess you've already eaten your dinner, Just heat this tomorrow for your breakfast". I showed him the food I bought. I could hardly contain my smile. I guess It is really hard to pretend you are okay when you are not okay.
I noticed those three are exchanging glances and then they stand up in unison. "Ah- dude I guess we should go now. You're not alone anymore since your girlfriend is here. We will not waste your time anymore. Hahahha. Enjoy your night. We'll see you next time." Louis awkwardly said. I guess they're guilty. I'll be happy if they really are. I won't forgive these fools. Then those three went out of the house. I looked at the mess they leave. I looked at Xander and then sighed.
"I thought you'll be resting, you told me that you'll be sleeping" I nagged while cleaning up their mess.
"I'm sorry babe but I will indeed be resting tonight but I didn't expect that those guys will come here. Trust me" He said while sitting on the chair. He didn't even help me clean their mess. Tsk. I mentally rolled my eyes.
"Okay" I didn't say anymore.
After I cleaned up their mess I seated on the chair in front of him. He gave me a questioning look. Well, I don't want to sit beside him. I'm afraid that I can't control myself and I'll give in.
I guess it's time. I can do this. It's simple. I'll just talk to him calmly. No need to cry. Just calm down. I assured myself.
I look at him seriously " I never really existed in your life didn't I?" I opened up to him. He looked at me confusedly
"What do you mean by that?" He asked.
"I heard you guys earlier. I didn't say anything because it is between us. I don't want to embarrass myself in front of you and your friends" I said honestly.
"Well you see it-" Before he finished his sentence I interrupted him
(AN: insert Traitor- Olivia Rodrigo XD)
"Xander, I'm not a game but you played me well," I said sarcastically. My voice is trembling. I look at him. I'm trying to stop myself from crying but I feel that my eyes start to tear up. "Xander! It hurts so bad! I already had a doubt when I smell female perfume on you but I decided to let it go. But I didn't expect that there's more to it. What kind of person are you?!" I exclaimed. I covered my face and cried. "You know what? Nothing hurts more than trying your absolute best and still not good enough. It's so much pain for someone like me"
"How does it feel to hurt someone who has pure love and intention?" I added. He remained silent.
"Xander!!" I looked at him "Do you think you broke me?" he remained silent I look into his eyes but he looked away "Guess what? You actually did" I said then laugh sarcastically. I feel so pathetic. My face is a lot of mess. I tried to compose myself.
"Let's break up Xander" Finally. I said the word
"What! No! What you heard isn't true! Let me explain. I'm sorry okay. Please forgive me. I love you so much. Please don't break up with me." He held my hand and looked at me. His gaze became wary and he spoke softly. What isn't true Xander? I heard you say proudly why do you still insist to fool me? I want to say it to him but I decided not to.
"Well, I don't care if it's true or not but right now I just want to save myself from drowning. Xander, I want to tell you my feelings. After I heard it, I accepted it already but it still makes me sad" I said honestly as I pushed his hand away and I stand off the chair. I need to go home. I can't break down in here.
"Wait-"
I didn't give him a chance to talk. I look at him sadly. "Xander, I don't know if you'll be sad if I left but just let me tell you this LIFE IS FULL OF SUDDEN GOODBYES," with that I turn around and walk away.