I am convinced that I am never getting my happy ever after.
Love has been painful for me for as long as I can remember. Grief has always been my best friend when I thought that I was in love. I have always lost in this game of love.
All I know is that I have come to peace with the fact that I will never have happily ever after, my story is going to always be dark and I am going to lose at the end.
I am so drunk, I am actually seeing double vision and I am driving. I see flashing lights and a car swerve speeding past me. I take one last gulp and throw the bottle out of the window, and I notice how fast I am driving. How many times do I have to be the strong one? How long do I have to wait to do what I want tot so bad?
I have spent all I have ever had in this and I am still not where I thought I would be. In his arms.
