I am lost.
I am in company of other people but I feel so alone in the world right now, and it's just my first day.
It's bad enough that they encourage that people try talk as they eat or something like we are in a home or whatever, but I am at the corner, just looking outside the window in the far distance, my mind really blank.
I have been thinking that's a good thing but I know that not being able to process my current situation isn't a good thing. Someone tried to talk to me earlier with the classic: I feel so alone too, I don't think I belong here, you want us to be friends instead? Vibe.
I get out, and decide to try see if I can walk, because not being able to just walk and be wherever, because I am in a wheelchair is not exactly thrilling. I haven't really appreciated my motor skills before but now, I really do.
When you lose something, you appreciate it more.
I am outside, on the high terrace overlooking the lake below in the distance.
