What am I doing?
I need to be standing on my own and not show him that I need him every step of the way. I need him to know that I know what I am doing, and by calling every time, is going to make things murky.
Do I know what I am doing? No.
Up there today, all those journalists asking me about Trevor made me realise how exactly I haven't gotten over him. I have done everything to make sure I am not thinking about him whenever, and I have so far managed to do that. I have also distracted myself by sleeping with Cory, which is not a food thing from my end. I know what this is, I am only being with him because he is there.
