Emerald's POV-
When we finished our coffee and muffins I decided I'd take August to go see our training grounds. I didn't have to teach a class today, but I figure it would still be fun and give us something to do. Plus I wanted to show off of course.
I have been in constant battle with myself ever since last night. When I woke up this morning I wasn't as mad as I had been when going to bed. Then after his words while he was standing there with an oven mitt on and burning food on the stove.. it was hard not to forgive him so quickly.
But after that fight with Keith I wanted to rethink about it again. I was very much convinced that Keith had real feelings for me.
In fact he scared me half to death with all of his feelings he claimed to have for me. It was all bullshit though. The whole thing.. the whole time. It was just fake and I just completely fell for it. He was a master of disguise and I didn't have any inclination about his true intentions.
I could've done it. I could've easily ignored Alana and slept with him. What would've happened if I finally did? Would that had been it? Would he had been satisfied with that and be content or would the mystery be the only fun in it and then move on?
That was so close. I could've made such a huge mistake that would've changed my life. How could I have been so blind? What if I'm still blind? What if August is a master of disguise as well and has his own intentions with wanting to get to know me?
I didn't want to think of him in a negative light. His large arms were wrapped tightly around my waist and he held me against his body as close as possible. I could feel his hard chest on my back and his large legs that were hugged up against mine. I couldn't tell if it was just the vibrations of the engine, but sometimes I swear I could feel his chest vibrate against my back as if his growls were being drowned out by the loud bike.
It was hard not to want to lean back more into him. He just made me feel impossibly too small. He is hard to keep a calm exterior around. I've been around plenty of handsome young men before and honestly not even Keith made me feel like a bundle of fiery nerves.
August though is different. He has this aura of authority around him and I know a part of it is because he's an Alpha, but Alpha Paul doesn't make my hands want to burn and he doesn't make my wolf practically drool like August does either.
In fact Anala has never shown so much interest in another wolf before like she does Zeb. It worries me. I'm trying hard to play it cool and not show how nervous he makes me, but I can't help thinking something else is going on between us besides catching up.
It's easy to hold back from someone when there is this side of you literally listing off all the reasons why we should not be interested. It's completely different when she's pushing me to come on to him so much.
Even though August isn't mated I'm sure he has plenty of woman to choose from back home. I don't care what he says, no man looks like that and stays a virgin all their life. His stupid nickname is starting to get to me. Little girl. That's how he makes me feel. Like a little girl in way over her head. When really I am just all talk when it comes to that stuff. I would never actually go through with doing anything physical with August.
It would be wrong. He's Helen's nephew and like way older then me. He is probably only humoring my flirtations to be nice. I've got to stop making a fool out of myself over this guy.
'Shut up you stupid girl and roll your hips back already.' Anala said while pacing back and forth.
'Stop it I'm not doing that.'
'Not like you haven't done it before.' She said back in a snarky tone.
I rolled my eyes and turned down another road that led to the gymnasium. I pulled up and I recognized some of the vehicles that were here. One being Keith's. Maybe coming here was a bad idea I thought to myself.
When I came to a stop August got off the bike from behind me and I cut the engine off and pulled my helmet from my head. I'm sure my hair was like a damn birds nest at this point, but oh well. I got off the bike and sat my helmet down before taking another glance at Keith's car.
"Is that his car?" August asked and I just nodded my head without looking at him.
"We don't have to go in if you don't want to." He said and I snorted before shaking my head.
I wasn't going to be scared or act worried about seeing him again. I was a bit concerned about him seeing my flames and I needed to remind myself to say something to Alpha Paul about it later.
"No its fine. I'm fine." I said and forced a smile when looking up at him.
"You're lying again."
"I'm not." I said back in a dramatic deep voice that made August laugh.
It was deep and sultry and couldn't stop biting my lip when hearing it. Everything about him is just so alluring I can't explain what it is about him that I find so appealing. Besides his striking features, just the way he smiles or looks up at me makes me loose all feeling in my legs.
I reached out and grabbed his hand before pulling him along to the front doors of the large gym. We also had an indoor pool here, a rec center for people to hangout at, and a giant running track outside near the back of the building.
August showed no hesitation when holding my hand and his grip on me made it hard to smolder the heat that wanted to ignite from his touch. I don't know why it always wants to do that. I usually have no problem with controlling it, but I guess my emotions and anxiety are affecting it.
We came into the large basketball court that was empty and when I could hear a loud voice practically screaming numbers I knew Lucas was here. He was one of Alpha Paul's head soldiers, he trains all the males who are old enough to start serious training and he does not take it easy on them in the slightest.
He's a bit older then me, but still younger then August. I used to find him very attractive, but he is a complete psycho when he's in training mode and it's a total turn off.
We go through some double doors and down a wide hallway and I drop his hand when we come to another pair of double doors. The screaming voice of Lucas could be heard louder and I snuck a glance at August who was already staring down at me.
He's always looking at me.
I pushed the doors open and the shouting didn't stop just because of our entry.
"FIFTY-TWO!...FIFTY-THREE!...FIFTY-FOUR!"
Lucas was standing at the front of the large room in front of the long mirror wall. There were six black mats spaced out on the floor and standing on each mat was a young shirtless boy all ranging in different hair colors and built.
Each of them had a thick black rope that I'm sure weighed a tone. They were all jumping rope and I could see how tensed their backs were and the smell of sweat was heavy in the air.
"FIFTY-SEVEN!...FIFTY-EIGHT!...FIFTY-NINE!"
My eyes immediately went to the mirror and landed on a pair of golden brown eyes. His eyes. The eyes I've adored so many times were looking right back at me. He was standing near the front of the group and each time he jumped his fluffy brown hair would bounce.
"SIXTY!..alright ladies go hydrate and then we can actually start!" Lucas said through a crooked smile.
Some of the guys muttered a few things under their breath and then they started to go to their bags that were piled up near the back of the room.
I started walking near the front of the room, not really knowing if August was following or not, to go and meet Lucas. I ignored Keith's gaze and pretended not to notice him.
"What brings you here today Em? You don't teach a class until Thursday." Lucas said with a smile.
He was taller then me like most men and his skin was fairly tan and his dark black hair was pulled back into a short ponytail. He had dark eyebrows and greenish hazel eyes.
"I'm showing Helen's nephew around while he's here." I said and his eyes moved from me to August who was standing very close to my side now.
He put his hand out for Lucas and Lucas grabbed it and shook it without hesitation.
"Alpha August, nice to meet you." He said and Lucas nodded his head.
"Lucas and it's nice to meet you too. Helen has spoken about you before I think."
"Good things I hope." August replied with a genuine smile and took his hand back.
"Oh of course, so tell me Alpha what do you think of my warm up routine?" He asked crossing his arms over his chest.
I rolled my eyes realizing this was headed for macho guy talk.
"I like it I'll have to steal your idea for sure. I usually make them chuck tractor tires until their arms can't move."
Lucas let out a laugh and dropped his arms from his chest.
"Really? Well I know you're here to just visit, but do you think you could help me out some with today's training? It's their first week so I'm still breaking them in." Lucas said and I looked up to see August give him a mischievous looking smile.
He looked over his shoulder at Keith who had a towel draped over his head and holding a cold water bottle to his neck. He looked back at Lucas and nodded.
"Sounds like fun." He said and then he looked down at me.
"What about you little girl? Or are you afraid this old man might wear you out?"
He knew me well enough to know that I would most definitely not going to just sit back and watch.
"This little girl has plenty of energy from all that caffeine thank you. Besides.."
I moved my head closer to him since one he was literally right there by me and two I didn't want Lucas to hear what I had to say.
"It's hard to get me to break a sweat." I said lowly to him and I watched his blue eye darken a little while he kept that same mischievous grin on his lips.
"I'll keep that in mind." He said huskily to me and I could feel the heat rush all the way down my arms and until my fingertips felt hot.
I took a step back and let out a small breath before looking away from August and back at Lucas who was watching us.
"Well I can't work out in this now can I?' I said gesturing to my halter top and shorts.
"Should be some spare clothes in the girls locker room." He said to me and I nodded to him.
"I'll be back."
August smiled at me and I turned away from the two males to go change into some workout clothes.
I started walking down the wide hallway again towards the girls locker room when something grabbed my shoulder and slammed me up against the wall. A sharp pain shot down my back and I was met by two golden brown eyes.
"Ow Keith! What the hell?"
"I just want to talk okay?"
He reached out to grab my arms and hold them back and I suddenly felt very closed in.
"Get off of me now!" I said and Anala was digging hard to take over.
I could feel it. It's faint, but I feel that flicker in my eye and that blazing heat in my chest and I know if I don't calm down what will happen.
Keith let go of my shoulder and took a step back from me. I clenched my fists up and held them behind my back while looking at him.
"I'm sorry for yelling at you this morning Em. It's not just about sex for me. I care about you I really do it's just when I seen you with him I got angry and said stuff I didn't mean."
I wanted to believe him. I wanted to be forgiving and understanding because we've all been there when we've said hateful heated words. But the fact is, most of the time in those heated fits of rage you say exactly how you're feeling. You tell the ugly truth because it's hurtful and you know it. A truth you've kept to yourself out of kindness or to use as a weapon later on.
"Okay, thank you for the apology can I go now?"
"What is wrong with you? You act like you're not even the slightest bit upset about us breaking up. Did I just mean nothing to you or are you just quick to jump into the next guys lap?" He asked and then the burning feelings of my fingers were felt instead of sharp nails.
"I'm angry okay? Trust me I'm very upset about what happened this morning. I don't understand what it is you want from me. I get it you want to go all the way, but what else can I tell you other then it's not going to happen? I had fun being with you and I do care about you a lot, but I can't do that when Anala doesn't want to."
He rolled his eyes and took a step back closer to me.
"How does she know she won't like it if she doesn't try it?" He asked when he pushed himself up against me.
I put my hands on his chest to try and push him back, but he leaned his full weight against me.
'Torch this fucker!' Anala said through gritted teeth.
I stomped my sneaker down hard on his toe since he didn't have shoes or socks on. He immediately jumped back from me and grabbed his foot and hissed in pain.
"I'm sorry, but It's over Keith so please just stay away from me." I said to him before walking away and locking myself inside the girl's locker room.