"Hold on…" Asher took Shea's arm and helped her reach the room. She didn't make a fuss since she was also feeling quite dizzy.
"Mistress… Take care of yourself and the baby too… and I promise you that… if Edgar ever attacks your tribe… I will never be part of the war, nor the soldiers under me will!"
"Aren't you worried about your tribe then…? Even if my tribe is not as powerful as the Valemoor Tribe, it will be more powerful without your soldiers…" he shook his head.
"Mistress, I vowed after thinking over. I have my trust in Edger. He will never attack the Soul Land Tribe…"
Shea was astonished by his confidence and trust in Edger, she never thought anyone could have this much of trust in someone.
"And if I am wrong, I will be the one to pay for it…" he said confidently and saluted, which was only done to someone they respect a lot. This is the first time Shea has been saluted. People bowed before her but she never got this much respect. Shea looked towards him till there was nothing.
She went inside, and she was shocked to see Alan and Allen were standing beside the door.
"You both…" she was left speechless.
"Did you listen to our talk?" Shea asked them, hoping they did not but it was not like she expected. They turned their gazes from her and kept fidgeting.
"We are sorry but we listened to everything…" they bowed their heads down in embarrassment and knelt, She was confused why they knelt abruptly.
"However, we follow you! You can have trust in us! Please return our trust towards you too!" Shea forgot that she can not owe everyone. Trust is not a thing that can be achieved easily. Since they trusted her, She ought to return it back.
Shea sat down on the ground, just in front of them, "I am sorry… I am really sorry… I am not like myself today or rather I am too honest about myself today!" Their eyes glittered with guilt.
"We are sorry… we got too heated up… I don't know what to do anymore and what not to do…" Allen continued, "but you must be feeling it more…" Shea was silent for a moment. Their eyes were warm and affectionate like the gazes she received from her family members. She sighed and sniffed, they consoled her as if she was some child, not the Luna, their Mistress. Soon, she won't be Luna anymore. She is just going to be herself! However, her feelings craved to be hidden, the familial feeling she got, made her truthful about herself.
"It's swallowing me… The pain is swallowing me deep inside… It's hurting a lot. I want to scream it all out but I need to be strong! I need to!" Shea poured out all her true feelings, that she wished to be hidden from all. All of it, which she never regretted storing inside her forever. They were no longer a secret.
"It's okay… it's okay… Everything will be okay… We are with you!" As he consoled Shea, she felt herself feeling drowsy. And before she knew it, she was already sleeping on their lap, like a child.
Her eyes flickered as she woke up. The cool breeze sobered her up. Both of them were already sleeping with her on their lap. She stood up and placed them in a comfortable position on the ground. She moved towards the balcony, she realized that she had to check up on Reid instantly.
"Where are you going?" She looked behind her. Alan was there, holding her hand gently. Shea was afraid, she didn't understand what to tell them. She was afraid that they would think of her as a bad person who is cheating on her husband. Shea kept silent and kept gasping. Allen came over. "What's going on? Where are you going? You can be truthful to us! We would help you, We are your family! Didn't you put the band on us?" He reassured Shea. Now that she zooms in on her memories, she put the band on them which is only given to brothers and sisters. They both have already become someone close to her, it is more the reason for her not to disappoint them. She surely would not like to disappoint her family. "We are your family, that's more the reason you should be truthful to us!" Shea was speechless by their reason but they were right. But how could she bring herself to tell them that she was going to meet a man, who is her ex-boyfriend! At this time she wasn't sure if she told them what their reaction would be, would they be disgusted by her or understand and believe in her? She wanted to test it out. "I am going to meet someone very important to me. I need to meet him!" Her heart clenched with fear. It kept making drum noises. Her face was pale.
"Was that person your reason for leaving yesterday?" Shea nodded. "Is that person trustable? Who is that person?" questions flooded over and over!
"Calm down! How can I answer all of these altogether? ask me one by one!" I replied to them, frustrated. They met each other's eyes and said together, "Is that person safe to be with?" Shea was happy that they are worried about her safety, and not judging her, they truly became her family. Shea didn't want to keep them out of this business since she also required their help. She was sure that they wouldn't be like everyone else but they would trust in her decisions.
"It's my ex-boyfriend" they were shocked. "Is something wrong?" they asked her worriedly. "Nothing happened…" she continued, "but a lot of confusing things happened"
Allen asked, confused and surprised, "I thought you were never with somebody…" Shea shook her head. "I was, I loved him… it was a memorable time, but something happened 5 years ago… he went missing, the year I married Edgar."
"Then why did you give up?" Shea shook her head. "I never gave up, I was even prepared to run away with him, but Destiny tore us apart, the Destiny of being Edgar's mate."
They mumbled, "We are sorry to know that…"
Shea disagreed, "It was nothing, it was just how things went and you don't need to pity me since I agreed to marry him by my own wish."
"Why? Just why? I can't find any reason for you to agree. You are a strong person, you would never agree to it until and unless you faced problems!"
"Wasn't my tribe in danger?" Shea asked them with a solemn face.