LISA POV
I make a deal with the devil, that I will not report him to the police in exchange for that he didn't spread that video. When I get out of that foul place, I was called by Owen, he want to meet tomorrow for our anniversary, I was happy, but in this kind of state….. I…. I can't…, panicked I actually tell a lie to him, I told him I was in the house. Aaah…. I lied to Owen….. please forgive me…..Owen….please…. save me…..
When I arrived home, I immediately fall to my bed and cried. I tore apart, what should I do? Should I ask my family and Owen for help? But…. I am afraid, that even if Owen knows the truth if he….. sees me in the video---
"ukh!!"
I ran to the toilet as I throw up. My body feels cold and I feel goosebumps all over my body. I feel….. dirty….filthy...to think I was in the embrace of-of that filth—
"ukh!!! Oooeeeeeeeeekh!!!"
I immediately feel nauseous again as I throw up everything in my stomach. after calming down, I enter the shower and scrubbed all over my body, hoping….. that I can clean the filth in my body as much as I can….. but it didn't work….. as I looked at the mirror, I….. only see a dirty woman that having a happy face in the embrace of a filth—
"….!!!"
I spontaneously scrubbed over my body again in vain until I feel pained all over my body, but it feel trivial compared to the pain in my heart and my head.
"uuuuukh!!! Owen....!!"
And then, I spend the day of our anniversary just staying in my room, as my mental state deteriorates about what happened. But as I think about Owen that gets up after his parent's death, it gives me power and courage
"yes….as long as Owen is with me... I… I still can…."
I decided, to face my problem. I know that if I tell Owen the truth, he will definitely help me, but in my unstable mental state, I actually took the wrong choice, and actually hide it, and want to solve it before telling Owen the truth out of my irrational fear. thinking back…. I should have more faith in Owen…. I should have met Owen on our anniversary and asked for his help then….. but just because of my hesitation... just because of that one day delay... the misunderstanding happened and become irreparable.
That day, Owen asked me to meet at our favorite restaurant, preparing myself to show him the usual me, I slap my own face and steel my heart. Yes, as long as Owen is with me, I could endure this, and after I finished my business with that damned scum, I will tell Owen everything and apologize, but….
"THEN WHY DID YOU DO THAT!?"
"….eh, O-Owen?"
"….lisa, I was there you know….. when you enter that hotel with that man."
"…..!!!!!!!"
What….. why….. how….. this…. This isn't happening---
"You said you will grant any wish for me today right!? Then, I just want one thing from you now, you bitch!! Break up with me, and get out of my sight!!, I don't want to see your face anymore!!!!"
as he said that Owen gets out of the restaurant
No….. wa-wait Owen—
this isn't happening, this--
"...!!!!! Wait!!!, Owen, please wait!!! That's not it!!! I----"
I scream as hard as I can, but Owen didn't look at me anymore. As I lost all my energy, I slumped to my chair
"no…. this isn't happening…. This isn't….."
Muttering words that were not heard by anyone, my mind filled with chaos and despair. This…. This is a dream right....juts a….. nightmare ….. right? Yeah…. If I wake up, I will see Owen smiling at me again… like always….. I will be with him forever and---
"ugh…. Uuuuu…."
As I cried in despair, I desperately plead to god that this isn't real, that this is just a bad dream.... Please…. Wake me up…. I ….. want to see Owen…. I…..have to wake up... i.....
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A/N: Guys There are actually two authors of this novel it all started by me and my friend Thanatosh I do the Planning and He's the one who writes the novel and I proofread it and here is his message to you guys.....
(I am just a casual novel reader that has a hobby to write a story in my free time.
and a note I will go on vacation for a week so it will not update for a while)
A/n: So if you guys want questions Then I could answer them all because I was the one who planned it both me and thanatosh