Cold.
I'm so cold.
Yet my inside is burning.
I can't see anything.
It's so dark.
I can't breath.
The water is choking me.
I can't believe I really did it.
I can't believe I really jumped.
I'm sinking in.
I can't move.
Do I even want to ?
The lake seemed so peaceful minutes ago.
Beautiful on the outside, dreadful inside.
The silence is so frightening.
No sound.
Not even of me drowning.
Or perhaps it's just me that can't hear.
I don't know.
I will never know.
My brain is slowly failing me. I know it. I feel it.
I can't think straight.
My heartbeats are slowing down.
It's funny because I thought that my heart was going to race. I was wrong.
Is it like this that I'm going to die ?
Really ?
No, I'm not going to die. I'm already dying. Slowly but surely.
My eyelids are getting heavy.
Will anyone find my letter ?
I hope so.
Goodbye.
•••
I feel heavy.
Really heavy.
"iss...ella..."
What is it ?
Who is it ?
"Miss..."
Am I hearing voices ? Am I a ghost now ? I don't want to. I want to sleep more. I'm tired.
"Miss Stella ! "
What ? Is it really not my imagination ?
I suddenly open my eyes and am breathing heavily.
In front of me are... maids ? Who are these people ? Wait...Why do they have ears ? Like animal ears !? What kind of hobby do these people have ? Most importantly, why am I here ? This doesn't look like a hospital at all, more like a bedroom. I'm alive ?
"Who-" I didn't even have the time to asked my question that I was harshly grabbed by one of the maids.
"Miss, your father asked for your presence in the living room. Hurry up ! He seems really mad at you ! " She says as she is dragging me somewhere...to the living I guess.
Did she say father ? Am I really alive ? Oh no...That doesn't make sense because my dear father want my death. So what's going on ?
For now let's just follow this crazy and rude maid.
We arrived quickly at destination.
Before me were standing five people. A middle-aged couple, two young man and one young woman.
They are all looking at me. These eyes, I know them. They are really familiar. These judgemental gazes. The same as "they" used to give me.
And if the maids are already strange enough with their animalistic ears, these people literally have scales on their skin ! What is going on !?
Then the middle-aged woman rushed to me and slapped me.I fall and hurt my knees. "What-" I don't have the time to finish what I want to say that she cut me off and yell.
"You useless being ! How could you refuse to apologize to your older sister ! I want you to apologize right now ! You did such awful things to her and yet she was still willing to forgive you ! But you- !"
While she is shouting at me, I feel like by head is going to explode. Just who do she thinks she is !?
And as if it wasn't enough, my knees are in so much pain that it's killing me.
And second, my head is filled with unknown memories and feelings. And they hurt too ! How can I be so unlucky ?
I didn't even have the time to register all the information in my head that the woman shouted at me once again.
"Why are you silent !? You dare to disobey me !? ME !? I'm telling you, either you apologize to your sister or you get out of this house !"
I stand up, understanding a little bit what is happening with the help of my new memories. 'So that why everything seems familiar to me' I thought. Then I do what I always wanted to do in the past.
I slap the woman. With all my strength.
She falls and doesn't make any noises for a while, like she couldn't realize what just happened. It's really a beautiful sight !
The other people in the room seem all shocked as well. But I don't want to let them take advantage of me while I'm weak again. So I just confront them directly.
"You are just a horrible old woman who doesn't deserve to be a mother."I say to the woman sitting on the floor.
"And you !" I add as I turn towards the middle-aged man with his two sons and daughter. "You are a horrible father. Hell you don't even deserve that title ! None of you deserve to be a parent ! None of you deserve my love ! You want to sever ties with me ? Okay ! Let's do it ! "
I walk towards the table, take a pen and sign the documents. You want to blackmail me ? In your dream !
I was a fool in the past, but now I won't repeat the same mistake. Even if this body isn't mine, I have to save this life !
I don't even bother to look at the people in the room anymore. I take my part, then using my new memories, I rushed toward "my" room, and pack all "my" own belongings.
After that I walk out of the house without looking back. Not even once.
•••
My feet hurt.
I don't how long I've been walking but I just want to be far away from these people. The Longcaster.
I stop and see something that make me happy !
A hotel ! Great, I'm tired !
"Everlight Hotel" It must really be expensive to book a room because it's a seven star hotel. But right now I don't care, I will care about my loss after a rest.
I very quickly book a room and settle down.
When I entered earlier, the receptionist looked at me like I was an alien but still, she was respectful and I'm really thankful for that because I'm really not in the mood to start arguing with her. I can't really blame her though because I really do look horrible, in my pyjamas, and without shoes. It really look like I was in a hurry to escape...
I lay down on the bed and take deep breaths.
Where am I ?
I don't really think this the after life. It's pretty obvious it isn't. And even if it really was, I wouldn't accept the reality.
But the memories I received are just too...
I don't even have the words to describe them. Coupled with what happened some hours ago, I'm one hundred percent confused.
This... World ? I don't even know how to describe where I am, am I in another dimension ? Or maybe a parallel world ? How can two people have the exact same life ?
The past me wasn't really interested in science fiction or fantastic world...If I know something for sure, it's that this is definitively not Earth.It's way more advanced than Earth.
People have genetically evolved. So now I'm a...hybrid ? Like half human and half animal ? I need to make my research.
So am I in the future ? Or rather in a more advanced planet ? I don't know...I don't think I received all of the memories of the original soul of this body.
By the way, I received a lot of memories but strangely enough, I don't remember having seen what I am or how I look like... Where's the logic !?
Or is it that the original soul hated mirrors ?
I stand up and go towards the private bathroom. I look at my reflect in the mirror and I gasp.