Chapter 3 - Me

Is it me or is it them...

Is it me or is it them...

Is it me or is it them...

Hi, I'm Daemon.

I'm not in the mood to tell you everything right now. But a lot of discrete events happened in my life and nothing interesting happened. It's complicated. I'll explain some of them when my mood improves.

I am engaged in making music, writing, playing the drums, writing poetry, and sometimes drawing surreal pictures.

I look like an interesting person, but I'm not.

I have self-confidence problems; I have traumas that prevent me from being completely myself in environments with lots of people. It's gotten to such a level that I don't even recognize myself anymore, (Boo, another generic quote!)

I get into an awkward standing position; I talk fast; I have no outstanding features other than my hobbies, and I have a lousy personality and a worldview.

From talking to my imaginary friends, I have depersonalization and derealization issues.

I have a dream to escape from reality, to live in the reality in my head. There are so many things that I can't write.

There are a lot of things I can't explain.

I want to do only one thing:

To explain

Getting people to care

provide their support

In short, to make people notice my work.

My music gets an average of 40 views. No one reads my books. I don't even think of publishing them since my poems are repetitive. No one answers the questions I ask about myself in Quora.

I am a selfish, self-centered person who hates people.

Here I am, unnoticed, maybe I even deserve it.