Jane's Point Of View
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My heart is literally about to jump out of my chest. First, he served me breakfast in bed. Second, he brought his face close to mine. I couldn't help but wonder what he was about to do. Is he about to kiss me? I don't need to look in a mirror to know how I look right now, because I know I'm already red from blushing. As his face neared mine, I closed my eyes expecting his lips to close on mine and I was ready to welcome him. But his mouth simply brushed the corner of my lips and I opened my eyes, surprised and embarrassed at the same time. I looked at him and that's when I realized that he had simply wanted to help me remove the food from my face and he did so with his mouth and also chewed the food he had removed. I couldn't help but feel more embarrassed because I had thought he wanted to kiss me and I was willing to let him.
He looked and smiled at me with those golden eyes of his and I could see the lust inside his eyes and I felt butterflies jump and dancing inside of me. I put the tray aside and moved closer to him as I ran my hand all over his face because I wanted to feel him. My eyes landed on his lips and I was tempted to kiss him. I moved my face closer to his and paused as our lips were just an inch apart, but he backed away from me.
"Why don't you finish your meal, then you can go freshen up. I got you more clothes so you can change into any of them". He said without looking at me and I knew he was trying to distract me from what I was about to do. But I wasn't ready to back down this time.
"Why aren't you looking at me?". I asked, trying to get his attention as he was still looking at the floor.
"Nothing". He said, and looked up at me.
I know he's trying to protect me by not touching me, but I really want him to, I want to feel his hands all over me. I know we just met but, I don't mind and, moreover, he's my mate and I know he won't knowingly harm or hurt me. So I moved closer to him once again and this time he didn't back away, he just simply looked at me with so many emotions in his eyes. I placed my hand at the back of his head and drew his head closer to mine. I kissed him before he could stop me. I kissed his lips but he didn't grant me access to his mouth. Then I decided to make him grant me access by biting his lower lips, which made him gasp.
I took that as an opportunity to slip my tongue into his mouth and I heard him moaning loudly. I dominated the kiss and when he couldn't resist it anymore, he responded to my kiss and wrapped his hands on my waist as he laid me on the bed and took over the domination of the kiss. He slipped his tongue in my mouth as he sucked on my lips and ran one of his hands under my clothing while the other hand pulled my head closer to him so as to deepen the kiss.
He sucked on my lips and I could feel myself burn with so much desire, that it felt like if I didn't let it out i might truly burn. I put my hands inside his clothes and traced them all over his body. I could feel his hard erection against mine. I placed my hand on his erection and rubbed it, he moaned as he deepened his kiss. His mouth left mine and landed on my neck as he nipped on it. I moaned loudly as I couldn't suppress it any longer.
His hand began to nipple under my cloth, while my hand still rubs his hard cock. I couldn't bear the clothing still in between us. I pulled his shirt over his head and was about to do the same with shorts when he abruptly jumped off me, which surprised me.
"What is it?". I asked in a surprised tone.
"I'm sorry, but I don't want us to do this now". He said with guilt written all over his face.
I moved closer to him but he stood up from the bed to give distance between us. I felt a pain in my chest due to his action and, without knowing, tears started to run down my face.
"You don't want me". I said, with a sob.
"It's not that I don't want you, my love, I want you more than you could ever imagine". He said as he sat back down on the bed and wiped the tears on my face.
"If you truly want me, then why have you been backing away from me whenever we're about to get intimate?". I asked as more tears ran down my face. I began to think maybe he had someone else and he couldn't afford to get intimate with me.
"Baby, it's just that I don't want you to think I only got intimate with you because of your heat. I want it to be done when you're sure that my feelings for you are real and you're sure about me". He said
"Do you have someone? Is that why? Will you reject me as your mate?". I asked sobbing. Even though I might not like his answers, I want to know.
"No baby. There's nobody and I'm not going to reject you. Please don't ever think that I don't want you. Of course, I want you. I have waited all my life for you and I have never had anyone because I was waiting for you, My Mate. I never wanted to be intimate with anyone except you. Look at me love, you're the first person I'd ever kiss or do any other thing with. I love you and I want you so much, but I'm afraid you won't want me anymore and you'll reject me". He said and pulled me closer to him.
"I won't ever reject you, neither will I not want you. You're also my first and I love you already and can't imagine myself without you. I'm just scared that you don't want me as your mate". I said as I held him tighter.
"You're everything I have ever wanted as a mate and I won't ever leave you, be rest assured". He said reassurily and smiled at me.
"Okay". I said as I returned his smile. But then I realised that I had to tell him the truth behind why I had to leave Kansas and move down here. That thought made me shiver with fear.
"Babe, are you okay? You suddenly looked pale". He asked with worry in his voice.
"I'm okay, but there's something I have to tell you regarding why I had to leave my parents and pack and move down here". I said with fear running through me because I didn't know what his reaction would be. He might not even want me after hearing my story.
"What is it? You can tell me whatever it is, don't be scared". He said and pat my back so as to reassure me that it was okay.
"When I turned 18 I realised that I had a gift but it could only be activated when my mate knots me. My parents said we had to keep it a secret until I find my mate or he/she finds me, because my life could be in danger if others were to find out about my gift. We were able to keep it a secret until I turned 20 in February. Somehow, our pack Alpha learnt that I have a gift and he decided that I should mate with his son, our next alpha, but I knew he wasn't my mate and my parents knew that also. We tried to lie that I didn't have any gifts, but The Alpha was adamant that I must mate with his son. We knew he just wanted to take advantage of my gift and he was scared that once I found my mate he might not be our pack member and he didn't want me to leave the pack. So, my parents arranged for me to come to school here hoping that I'll find my mate somehow and that he'll accept me and knot me before our alpha finds me and forcefully mates me with his son". I explained to him as he calmly and quietly listened awaited for me to finish".
"What's your gift?'. He asked, trying to stay calm.
"I have the gift of a Healer and a Seer. But the alpha doesn't know exactly what my gifts are, but he'll know if I eventually mate with his son. We don''t have anyone with a gift from the goddess in our pack, so he wants to keep me within the pack". I said to him while trying to read his expressions. He stood up and started pacing around the room.
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