"You... You're too good for me Lea. Stop being so nice to me Lea. Because I can't repay your kindness in kind. You're free to like me, you're free to love me, you're free to chase me as much as you want, but you promise me that you won't get hurt because of my character, okay?" Saturnus said asking Lea to promise him. At least that's proof that Saturnus doesn't want to promise to return Lea's feelings. Lea has been filling her days for more than a year, but still can't melt it.
"Lea promised not to get hurt because of Saturnus's nature. As long as Lea can still like Saturnus, still love Saturnus, she's still allowed to chase Saturnus. Don't feel disturbed by Saturnus, Lea will not disturb Saturnus's life. Lea just wants to fight for Lea's love. Lea wants to love until Lea is numb." Lea replied hiding her sadness, she was good at doing it, the proof was that her voice sounded happy. Let Saturnus never know if she is indeed hurt. At least being a close friend to Saturnus isn't so bad.
"You can't lose Lea's feelings. I'm sure, someday there will be someone who can love you as much as you love me. You are beautiful, you are smart, your heart is too sincere, too honest, you are multi-talented. I know you're almost perfect, but I... I can't measure it. You... I'm sorry, you're not my type..." Saturnus said in a deep voice. The more Lea is like this, the more she feels guilty, the more she realizes that she is very mean to a woman as good as Lea. But there was nothing he could do other than this. Saturnus is stupid, really stupid.
"But Lea doesn't want to be with another Saturnus! Lea doesn't care if someone likes Lea like Lea likes Saturnus. Lea just wants Saturnus. Then what type of woman does Saturnus like?" asked Lea not giving up. All that Saturnus likes she must know, must! Just let everyone call her stupid to chase Saturnus who has a frozen heart, it's okay, Lea doesn't care. People say love must be fought for, right? This is Lea struggling. Struggling to melt the heart of the prince who has a frozen heart like an Ice Cube.
"Arghhh! You're so stubborn Lea. I don't know what else to say to you, it's all up to you Lea. The type of girl I like?" Saturnus asked back, smiling his cynical smile and chuckling softly.
"Yes, Saturnus. What type of women does Saturnus like, how rich are they? Tell Lea! Lea will try to change herself so that Saturnus can like Lea." Lea said with shameless. Lea just didn't want to give up.
"Don't change for the sake of others Lea, change for yourself. Do not change just because of love. True love accepts what you have, your strengths and weaknesses. If the situation is like this, that means I'm not your true love." said Saturnus at his wits end. Lea didn't want to listen to him at all. Had Lea liked him that much? Until she thought that she would change for his sake. He should be happy to be loved like this, but he wasn't. Saturnus is amused by Lea's craziness.
"Saturnus, how do you know that Saturnus is not Lea's true love? Nobody knows Saturnus, Only God knows. Only God can decide. But Lea is sure that Saturn really exists for Lea. Even if Saturnus keeps rejecting Lea now, one day Saturn will accept Lea." Lea said convincing herself, even though she wasn't sure at all. She knew everything would be impossible. Saturnus's heart is hard like a rock, not easily eroded by the waves.
"That's up to you Lea. I'm tired of talking to stubborn people. I already said I can't make any promises. I'm still confused about my feelings, Lea." Saturnus said he didn't care. Lea really confused him, he was confused with his own feelings.
"Confused why Saturnus? Let's talk to Lea. Lea is always ready to be Saturnus's confidant, whenever Saturnus needs a friend to share with, Lea is always ready to listen to Saturnus's complaints." Lea said a little softer. Perhaps this stubbornness is giving Saturnus a headache. She didn't want to make Saturnus confused and dizzy, her purpose in calling Saturnus early in the morning like this was to cheer Saturnus up, not make Saturnus's mood worse.
"I'm confused by your attitude Lea, it changes. I don't know your character. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say. I just don't want to hurt you. I don't want to make you hurt. I don't want to feel guilty for you, Lea. Please don't make me feel bad." said Saturnus with a feeling of guilt over and over again. His heart is like being stabbed by thousands of needles, not hurt but guilt that dominates.
"Forgive Lea, Saturnus? Lea has confused Saturnus and ruined Saturnus's mood. Lea will not make Saturnus even more confused with Lea's character. Lea really loves Saturn, don't be angry, Lea's Saturnus." Lea begged in a pitiful voice. She didn't want Saturnus to get mad at him. She just wanted to comfort Saturnus, she didn't want to see Saturnus sad, Saturnus's sadness was also her sadness.
"Hmm... I can't be angry with you Lea, whatever you do, I can't bear to be angry with you. You're too kind, I can't get mad at a girl as nice as you, and uhm... as sweet as you are." Saturnus replied in a small tone at the end of his sentence. Was it just him? Since when was he so good at throwing jokes like this? Really he really changed in front of Lea. Only Lea could make him this stupid and this weak. Even though Lea was nobody to him. But he felt that he had to protect Lea's feelings.
DEG!
Had she heard wrong just now? Saturnus calls it sweet? No! Looks like she has a problem with her ears. Maybe he should go to the ENT as soon as possible. Lea doesn't want to have a problem ear.
"Ah? Saturnus said what was that? Sorry Saturnus, Lea can't hear, it seems like Lea's ears are a little problematic. Try repeating Saturnus?" Lea asked hoping that Saturnus would repeat what she said and she didn't hear it wrong. She just wanted to make sure. Hopefully she didn't hear wrong. She really felt pleased and happy. She felt like she wanted to fly because she was happy. Ah! Saturnus is always able to make it flowery. The feeling of being praised by a man we like is indeed a different sensation.
"Hehehe... There's nothing to say Lea, forget it. Maybe you did hear wrong. So your happiness is as simple as that, Lea?" asked Saturnus to confirm it once again. If Lea's happiness is that simple, he will try to call Lea in his spare time just for the sake of making Lea happy and not leaving Lea anymore. He realizes that Lea also needs to be happy, even if he doesn't accept Lea as his girlfriend. He can make Lea happy to be a part of his life, his close friend. Because that's what Lea wants, right? Saturnus only wants to be good for Lea, because Lea is always good to him. Lea always made he laugh and smile to himself with just the simplicity she did.