(Akira's Section)
After seeing her beautifully gaze out the window, lost in her reality, I've decided I love this blond…the way she turned and smiled at me made my heart beat out of my chest, but I bit it back. Can I love someone? Do I deserve it? Am I just forcing myself to love her because she's my mate…I can't keep my damn thoughts together anytime she looks at me, This girl is going to be the death of me either way.
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I woke up to Charlotte sleeping peacefully, every night we would cuddle in our sleep and every morning I'd push her away. This morning I was out of energy, I simply watched her chest fall and rise in the morning light.
Messy blond hair and beautifully smooth skin made her seem so perfect in the dawn light, her red lips pursed gently and dry.
I cupped her face gently, my heart beating out of my chest, we hadn't even really kissed yet…I got closer and closer, our lips were inches away, She stirred slightly and I pulled away. I'm not going to steal a kiss, no matter how cute she looks. I got up and went to the bathroom, I heard her get up behind me.
A quick shower cooled down my head enough to go about my day. "Hey.." Charlotte said, I looked at her face, she had a hand to her lips.
"Did you-" she started to say, I brushed it off with a shrug while turning my red face away.
"You're meeting the pack officially today. Get dressed." I said coolly, perhaps a little too sharply because she flinched "Oh…ok…" she seemed disappointed.
It's not my fault that every time I try to show affection my brain stops functioning.
"How's this?" Charlotte asked, I turned to see her in a pretty green dress, my favorite color.
"You look good," I said, her green eyes lit up from the praise. "You look good in your suit!" Charlotte said, I hid my blush by turning her away. "Thank you.." I said carefully, we headed outside to the car.
"So the pack doesn't all live together?" Charlotte asked, I looked at her curious face
"No, most of my Pack is Outliers and loners from other packs, the misfits, we don't all live together," I said, expecting her to be condescending. "That's interesting," she said, yep, condescending "My pack lives together closely," she said, I gripped the wheel, "My brother says it builds loyalty and strength—" she cut herself off when she saw me tightly gripping the wheel "I- I was just saying-"
"Saying what?" I bit my lip
"That…Maybe them being closer would be better…" she said hesitantly, I raised my hand and she flinched, now that pissed me off.
"What the fuck…"
"I-I-I'm sorry I shouldn't have said anything"
"I'm not gonna hit you"
"W-what?" She was surprised and still sitting far away, "Who used to hit you?" I asked, Charlotte looked at her feet like a child
"Well…my father didn't like my ideas…"
"Your Father?"
"I'll shut up"
"Don't"
Charlotte looked at me wide-eyed, I took a deep breath and my face went red
"I…love your opinions…and your voice…don't ever go silent on me ok?" I said, I gulped back my nervousness and focused on the road.
"You're my Queen, you're the only one who has my ear." I finished my statement and felt my face go red, suddenly I felt a kiss on my cheek. "You're not as scary as you seem," she said with a giggle, that was the first time I smiled all day.
"So be calm, they'll probably be a little excited," I said, coaching her, we'd arrived 15 minutes early and I wanted to give her some notes. "Hey! Alpha! Stop making out! The pack's waiting!" Emmett said, he opened the door and Charlotte went red.
"Hello, Robyn," I said, the red-haired male gave me a stunning smile, I saw the dark hickeys on his neck and smiled. Emmett always gushed about Robyn and about how he wanted to marry him. "Hello, Alpha." He said calmly, clearly resisting the urge to fling himself at me for a hug. "A hug?" I asked, soon I was enveloped by the fiery male.
The hall was filled with the members of my pack, the small stage in the center was just for visual aid, but it still felt powerful.
"Good Evening!" I said loudly, the pack immediately quieted down and I held their attention, such a power trip.
"You might have heard I have a mate. The rumors are true." I said murmurs went through the crowd. I leaned down to Charlotte and whispered in her ear "Come join me…"
After I made my speech and got off the stage I was surrounded by my pack, people asking questions and girls asking if I was still open.
My eyes weren't on those people, they should've been, my attention should have only been on my pack…
But I was looking for a familiar pair of beautiful green eyes, coupled with a sweet smile. When I finally laid eyes on her I couldn't help but smile, she always makes me smile…
"Charlotte…" I said breathlessly, she was standing by the window, glancing into the night sky and talking to Robyn.
I wished I could freeze time right there on her smile, so perfect and romantic.
The soft yellow light on her green dress and heels, her beautiful blond hair brushed and pulled into a braid. "Charlotte…"
She couldn't hear me…
But that was fine, she wouldn't hear the words I whispered over the noise.
"I love…you…"
"Oh! Hey Akira!" Robyn said, I walked closer and slung an arm around Charlotte
"So as I was saying, Blueberries are just Spicy berries-" Robyn continued his banter and I simply stared at Charlotte.
"Hey Charlotte?"
"Yeah"
"You look cute"
"You look good too"
Maybe I can have this?
This semblance of love…
Maybe I'll never tell her…
But if did…
Would she love me back?