Sienna walked with Ziran thru the city still thinking. When they came to Tiger Castle, Ziran rather dropped Sienna in her room and let her rest. She made his head spin!
"Why does she think so differently?" he could not stop thinking about her words. "Why would she need her own money?" he bit his lips thinking."But if she goes shopping by herself, she would be really not able to buy anything, even if she is a queen."Ziran frowned."She is actually right. Tyrell should give her allowance at least. But on the other side, she is not allowed to go by herself anyway! She needs to be guarded. I'm her guard and Bran, and we always have money on us, so it should be alright. Or does it makes her feel bad, to ask others to buy her something? Hmm, she gave me a kiss when I get her a cone. Maybe she doesn't like to be dependent on others. But she can't survive a day on her own. She should calm down."He nodded his head.
Sienna was in her turqoise dreamy room. She stared at the pretty decorations and silky cushions. "Tyrell made all this for me! Everything I eat, wear and have is from them. From Tyrell, Sharchan, Marco or Sarcos!"Sienna said to herself. She felt a bit puzzled and insecure.
She stood straight and looked in the mirror. She looked like a young beautiful queen from fairy tales. "I wear beautiful dresses, have expensive make-up, have a nice room and live in the castle."She looked around." But is anything from here really mine? Or it is just borrowed. Did I get this life in exchange for my body?" she bit her lips a bit worriedly.
"I'm going to think how to make money myself."She said to herself hardly. "What do they miss at the market? What will be useful for the people and I know how to make it?" She sat down and draw designs for things, she could sell at the market.
Ziran came into her room with a small tray of food carefully. He brought her mushroom rice and a mint drink to lift her mood a bit. Sienna was sitting at her table drawing."Hi Ziran," she smiled gently as he came into her room.
"I got you late lunch or early dinner? You can choose!" he smiled gently.
"Did you see Tyrell?"Sienna asked him curiously.
"Tyrell is still working."He said a bit apologetically.
"I see you are busy drawing anyway," he noted and put the tray with food next to her drawings carefully.
"What do you think?"Sienna showed him sketches of her new designs for sale proudly.
"What is it?"Ziran looked at her suspiciously.
"The things I can make and sell on the market," she smiled.
"You can't. You will embarrass Tyrell." Ziran shook his head.
"What if I would employ someone else to sell them for me?" she furrowed her brows.
"Out of the question!"Ziran shook his head a bit shocked.
"So, how am I to make my own money?"Sienna looked at him.
"You don't. You are the queen. You have to ask your mates for money."Ziran bit his lips. It suddenly started to sound a bit wrong to him as well!
"But that is not fair!"Sienna looked a bit desperately at him.
"Don't they give you everything you want?" he asked her gently.
"What about my self-esteem?" Sienna frowned."I want to be independent a bit. I hate asking for money. I'm not a kid!"
"You can't be independent ever! They own you!"He pointed at her golden bracelet marks!
"What do you mean? Am I their slave then?" she looked at him a bit shocked.
"Not entirely. You have some level of freedom, no?"Ziran looked at her a bit brutishly." Also, you don't need to work or can't really. Is good you like drawing, designing and sewing because is still an ok hobby for a queen. If you like something like iron smelting, that will be questionable." he chuckled brutishly.
"What I just did to myself!"Sienna held her head in a quiet panic and sat on her bed. "I'm a slave!" She whispered and looked at Ziran desperately.
"You can't change it now." he shook his head."So try to enjoy it. You can still do all the things you like." he shook his shoulders.
"What if my mates abandon me one day? I will be on the street."Sienna opened her eyes wide.
"You will be never on the street and they will never abandon you. Don't you trust them?"Ziran asked curiously.
"I do. I'm just kind of scared now."Sienna looked at him worried." Can they like sell me if they wish?" she asked him in a bit panicky voice.
"Sure, but they all have to agree."Ziran nodded."The more mates you have, the harder it will be to sell you unless the strongest one will decide to do it and will kill all others. But I will buy you any time."He chuckled.
"Then I am similar to a slave," she nodded her head, "I was sold and bought two times already as well. Why I did not get it before!" she called disturbed.
"What's wrong Sienna? Why do you think like this?"Ziran asked her gently.
"It just kind of hit me on that market."Sienna teared up.
"You did go market before...by yourself, no? So why now?" he tried to find the reason for her strange behaviour.
"I had a purse of money... from Xander!" Sienna nodded."I'm done for!" she whispered."Ziran, if I'm not a queen will I be able to make my own money?"
"Only if your mates allow you to work independently."He nodded.
"Is that why Nefari don't want mates?" Sienna asked for herself.
"Sienna, you already have four kings as mates! You can't change that!"Ziran said firmly."Don't you love them?"
"I do, a lot."Sienna nodded."Will maybe Tyrell let me do it anyway?"Sienna looked at Ziran hopefully.
"Don't push him."Ziran shook his head." Even if he does, Sharchan will go berserk on him, Marco too and Sarcos will be beyond furious."
"But Sarcos has lots of business, no? "Sienna asked.
"He can do whatever he wants."Ziran nodded.
"But why not me?"Sienna frowned and stared at the marks.
"Because you are their queen. They all love you and protect you as the treasure you are!"Ziran petted her head.
"What am I supposed to do then?"Sienna sighed.
"Did not you read the book "Advice for a Gracious Queen"?"Ziran said a bit satirically.
"No?"Sienna shook her head."How would you know about such a silly-sounding book anyway? You are a man no?"
"I'm your bodyguard! I had to read it! It was very entertaining, but kind of sad, if I imagine you should behave like that! You are much cooler than any queen there." he nodded. "Than is why I did not bother to give it to you. But seeing you this clueless, I should show it to you. At least you can find out which rules you've broken already!" he chuckled."It is in the library. I will take you there tomorrow, ok?"Ziran nodded."If nothing else you can have a laugh at it." he said brutishly.
"I don't feel like laughing at all!"Sienna sat on the bed feeling a bit down. "I'm a slave to my own four kings! I'm still quite lucky I have them. If I had only Sharchan I will be living in the cage in his grotto and mated with a snake if I want or not!" she chuckled a bit nervously. "But if he did not save me, I will be already Ramse's mate in his first cruel form, stuck in his village and being beaten by a stick for my bad cooking and cleaning! That will be definitely even worse!"Sienna nodded."So I should be more grateful." she smiled bitterly."So, I should be a good slave to my mates then! I would never be able to take care of myself here anyway. I'm just a burden, a thing and a toy." she sobbed.
Ziran sat next to her on the bed and hugged her around her shoulders."Don't be sad. They got your all being, they can mate with you, and you will bear them children in time, so of course, they are responsible for your keep. But I kind of understand why you are upset, "he nodded.
" If I am your mate will you let me trade by myself ?"Sienna asked him thru her tears.
"No, "Ziran shook his head."But I will get your ideas made and give you a percentage from sales." he nodded his head."If I'm not a king," he added."If I am king, I just set you up businesses, but they had to make the profit for the kingdom as Sarcos's ones and you will get an allowance from me."
Sienna nodded her head."I understand. Thank you for your lecture."She bit her lips. "I'm nothing here anyway."
"Shush, if something happens to you, Sarcos will destroy all of us. Never say that again. We all love you and take care of you and protect you."Ziran touched her cheek.
" Ziran?" Sienna stood up and took her drawings, "Give it to craft people, if I can't sell it, let them make it for their sales if they want to." she nodded her head.
" I will! "Ziran nodded and took her drawings."But are you sure you like to share your ideas just like this?"
"I just want to see them come to life. I will be happy if someone will like them."Sienna nodded and sat down at the table to eat.
"Sure," Ziran nodded."Do you feel a bit better now?" he asked her worriedly.
"Yes, thank you. "Sienna nodded."I will eat and wait for my king." she sighed."As a good slave-queen should." she bit her lips."You might go now." she started to eat slowly.
"Please, just rest Sienna," Ziran said worriedly and went out. He sent his men to guard Sienna's door."The queen is in a weird mood. If you hear anything suspicious, just go inside and check on her."Ziran ordered them and went to see Tyrell.
The burly Tiger King was still working in his office buried in paperwork. Ziran leaned into an open door nonchalantly and watched him for a bit.
"Yes, Lord Ziran?"Tyrell lifted his eyes to him.
"Go to your queen and make her happy! She seems down today, "Ziran said worriedly.
"What? She is always happy."Tyrell was worried. "I will finish this and go."
"Hurry up, till she does something out of order."Ziran bit his lips.
"What is wrong with her?"Tyrell asked.
"Rather go find yourself." Ziran nodded and left.
Meanwhile, Sienna finished her food and went to the bathroom. She dropped her velvet robe on the floor and stared at her naked pale body in the mirror.
"Well, if I'm almost like Tyrell's slave, I should make him happy then!" she thought a bit revengefully."