The soft glow from the candle light bounced of his face lingering over his well groomed face. You could tell he's put in effort to make himself look extra presentable,the fact that he'd put in the effort broke my heart. The Luvre was a five star restaurant we had wanted to visit since college, we'd pass by each Saturday night after group studies just to catch a glimpse of who was there, what car they drove and probably what they would be ordering. It was our little way of reminding ourselves about the goals we wanted to achieve but for me it wasn't just that. Even though it was fun writing the biography of total strangers I was more fixated on the fact that I'd be able to spend more time with him, smell his sweet woody fragrance when we got close, the unconscious but intentional bumping of shoulders when we walked down the sidewalk was what I craved. What motivated me to keep pushing inorder to succeed in life was the fact that I had dreamt of being able to dine at this wonderful establishment with the man right Infront of me and I'd be the happiest girl on this earth. Today I sit here the wife of the man I had longed for and all I could feel was this cold numbness spreading throughout my body
"Tiana..Tiana..." I heard my name
" ...uhuh?.."I barely whispered not sure if he could hear me ,I guess he could cause he responded.
" Are you okay? I've been trying to get your attention for a while now" he said stretching his hand over the table to grab mine.
" yea- yeah... I'm okay"
" Good , so what do you think about my proposal?" he inquired not even bothered bout the fact that I sat expressionless .
" I- I didn't quite g-get your question" I stuttered hoping I had heard wrong .
" For Christ sake T we both know you heard me clearly" he responded sounding irritated
" It's just a one night gig after that we'll forget about it and besides it would do both of us some good. I'm trying to help our bond grow stronger, ta-take is as a...a learning process that we have to go through inorder to face any obstacles that may come our way."
" I..do-don't know if it's a good idea to go ahead with this" I respond trying to be reasonable
" There you go again" he said angrily yanking his hand off mine as though he'd touched something disgusting.
" It's because of this very attitude of yours that has brought us to this point, look I'm trying to make this work became I love you but you just have to always make things much more difficult for me!" at this point his Voice was beginning to rise earning us a couple of stares from neighbouring tables. I didn't want him to have a full blown out tantrum in the middle of a five star restaurant . I was too emotionally drained at this point to put up with it so I did what I did best
" I-I'll think about it.." I said , giving in to the wishes of my husband. His face beamed brightly , smiling form ear to ear as though he'd won the lottery.
" I knew you'd understand" he said taking my hands once again into his.
" You're the best and trust me you'd see how this would make us unseperable" he said giving my hand a light squeeze.
" This calls for a celebration." he said waving the waiter over. Looking straight down at my plate I could feel my tears threatening to spill if I so much as dared blink. My mind buzzed with questions flood in from every direction
"How did I end up like this?"
" Was this all truly my fault?"
"In which area did I lack?"
" And above all how messed up could I be for my husband, the man I have loved devotedly for all these years ask me to have a foursome with him and another woman?"
The tears I had been trying to hold in slid quietly down my cheeks falling quietly, leaving watermarks on the lavish cream tablecloth of the ever so classy Luvre.