Morning comes and I still don't want to get up until one of the maids knock on my door.
"Madam Lily your father want to see you" After she said that. I go straight to my bathroom to get ready and Change my clothes.
I knock before entering my father's office. Before saying what he has to say I already said the word 'No'.
They keep on pestering me about the wedding. Sometimes I even wonder if they also get tired of nonsense they say everyday.
"You know it's for your future right" Here we go again with the future shitty thing.
"You sure about that?"
"My future? or yours?" I keep a poker face. I didn't even bother myself to hear the words that he's going to say.
I help myself to stop the tears flowing on my cheeks. I go to our backyard to have some fresh air and clear my mind.
I ask one of the maid to bring me a cup of tea. I don't know if I can relax myself from all of this depressions. I wonder how would others handle in this kind of situation.
"Here you go, Madam" The maid said and place the tea on the table .
"Thank you" I smile at her, and turn my gaze on the view in front of me. I can't help but to think about my problems, what a lousy family I have.
I keep my eyes on the view not until a mysterious creature caught my attention. But it disappears out of nowhere. I look around and ask the Maid if someone was here about all they say is 'No one'.
But I know someone was there. After I finish my coffee. I visited where my Grandparents' were buried .
As always I have a guard by my side. I always bring a guard with me ever since I got lost at the woods. I learned my lesson now.
I brought a bouquet of flowers with me for them. I choose the Dahlia the yellow one. They both love the flowers, I always see Grandpa gave this flower to my grandmother.
They like the flowers because it symbolize wealth. They said that the flower are special.
When I arrived at the cemetery I place the flower beside it.
"I miss the both of you so Much"
"If you two are still alive, could you tell me what should I do?"
"Do I have to suffer?"
"I really wish I could marry someone I love"
"How are you?"
"Of course you guys are fine, you have each other"
"I wonder if I could get a relationship like the both of you had"
"I really wish I could"
I keep on talking gibberish even though they won't answer me. But at least it make me feel a Little better.
I need to stay strong the only person I have is me, myself. If I give up I know they feel disappointed.
Grandmother always said that 'Believe im yourself, you could always do something by believing at yourself '
And That's what I'm going to do. Just believe in myself. I take a deep breath and continue to say some stuff that happened to me recently.
By just Believing at myself will my situation could get better?. Yet we don't know what will happened For the past few days.
I got home and decided to play with my Bow. I couldn't focus at all and the arrow keep on avoiding the target.
I take a deep breath before letting my arrow go.
"Nice shot" An annoying and most disgusting voice I heard. It's Gabriel Logan. He tried to get close at me, but I point him my bow.
Showing that I hate his whole existence. He already have the opportunity on breathing the same air as I am.
Shot the arrow beside him to scare him a little bit. I put the arrow down and walk away. I head at my room and Calm myself.
Will that guy ever stop on showing his face everywhere. All he has is Money, He look like a shit. I close my eyes and Try to sleep.
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I woke up and a flower pot breaks again. This is the second time that happened to me. Still I don't know how this happened. Maybe it's the wind.
But The wind are not that strong to push my pot. Wonder how this happened. I call the maid to clean it up and get back to bed.
I ask the maid to just bring my dinner at my room. I don't feel like eating my Parents, they're just going to pursue me to marry that slutty man instead of eating a hot meal.
I continue to sleep until I heard something that hit my window. It's a bird good thing it's still alive but it has a paper tied up on her leg. It's the same thing that happened on the other bird.
I was going to pick it up until the Maid Come at my room. She saw my window and clean the blood that was made by the bird. I was going to stop her throwing the bird, It's too late.
"I know you're having a bad time madam so I ask the chef to cook your favorite food" She said while placing the food down.
"Thanks"
I look at the window and notice a piece of paper. I think it fall from the Bird's leg. I pick it up and I don't even understand a word it says. I think it's written in a different language.
I try to look it up but there's nothing. Only the person that write it are the only one who can understand it.