I had been walking for a while I don't know why I just woke up and I had already been walking. It was dark like couldn't see my hands in front of me dark but I kept walking it felt like my body had been on autopilot. So I kept walking hoping something would stop me.
And then it happened a ginormous fist came hurdling at me and you may be wondering how I was able to see it well that's because it was bright sort of like the sun. It hurt too the punch sent me flying and as soon as I touched the ground my body started to skip like a rock. And after five full minutes of skipping skidding on this surprisingly soft ground I stopped.I sorta just laid there on the ground just staring up at the abyss.I didn't move my head to look for the person who hit me already having a pretty good idea of who it was.
So there I waited and waited and I started to think maybe they didn't want to talk to me.So I shouted my demands hoping that they were who I thought they were.
"I WANT TO LIVE" I shouted at the top of my seemingly hoarse voice "BUT I Don't want to go back there to that place" "I want to beat people up and have fun" not getting any response I started to think of a world and physical abilities and aptitudes that I would want and two worlds came to mind 'Lookism and weak hero' I had been a fan of a lot of manwha's and Korean comics but delinquent manwha's were my bread and butter and these were two of the best. Lookism had a lot of strong people and I mean a lot. And it played no games when it came to delinquents losing there lives I mean there fighting with knives and bats someone is bound to get killed at some point but that's what I loved about it.
I don't want to be a god I genuinely don't. I have no desire for that I just want an unshakable position in wherever I end up.
Weak hero was one of my favorites because of two people the MC and Donald Na. The MC was weak super weak but he used his brutal way of taking advantage of his surroundings to destroy his enemies without mercy. And Donald Na was just magnificent.I idolized him,He was strong,smart and overall a badass I can barely remember most of what happened in that manwha but that part was clear.
On a side note my past life compared to the life I plan on having is completely irrelevant but if you must know it was sad.It was so sad and depressing that everyday that I woke up I would curse god.
I was a corporate slave working overtime all the time. I wasn't good looking I'd say that I was an average joe in the eyes of most I knew how to fight but it was mainly on instinct so it wasn't like it I was bullied but I hated it,the job I mean and there was nothing worse than doing a job you absolutely despised.
My co workers weren't any help they were snobs,my manager sucked and my sex life non existent. And you may say "well that's not really a reason to hate life" But all of this was a means to an end I knew there wasn't an out for me I knew that all this was pointless getting all of this money just for it to lose value when u turn you enter your 50s.But I had to do this or I wouldn't be able to live I had no family,no friends and no girlfriend.So I developed an antisocial personality to cope with my depression. However it wasn't like I couldn't talk to anyone or I was awkward when I did talk to someone.
I just never developed any relationship past an acquaintance and it didn't help that I preferred my alone time more than I did with socializing with people.
So I went to the only place I could think of.The Internet. Not on social media.Just browsing and I stumbled upon manwha it was new something that I hadn't considered before. I had just been watching anime I didn't even know that something like manwha existed.
So I read all types reincarnation,transmigration,regression and lastly fighting delinquent manwha's they were all good to me but the ones I resonated most with were the delinquent and reincarnation manwha's delinquent because the thought of ruling over all those different types of fighters had made me quiver with and excitement and reincarnation because it seemed like it had endless possibilities.
But the long updates and the waiting for new chapters got boring so I went to the novels the script for the manwha's I read and that's where I discovered fanfiction it was great it had brought the same shine that manwha's had when I had discovered it. People out there putting their own twist on certain anime changing the story or adding characters that were never apart of the anime to begin with it was fresh clean and downright awesome.But that also got boring with the amount of fan fictions cliches being reused over and over and over again with barely some being original it got boring.
So there I delved swiping away looking for something to bring some type of light to my life but it didn't.
I was able to find some that were really good and some that even excited me a little but they too ended and I was back at square one swiping away at a screen that had taken me captive for so many years looking for something hoping that I would be Able to find something but I didn't.
And I inevitably died of exhaustion from overwork and lack of sleep having been a depressed virgin.
And I really didn't want to die like that but I held out the hope that maybe in heaven or where ever I ended up I could do something anything that could give me purpose or a sense of fulfillment. And then I thought back to the various MC's of my favorite delinquent manwha's that fought to not get picked on or fought just for the hell of it. And I decided that I would rule as many delinquents as I could and create a foothold so strong that I could kill in broad daylight and get away with it.Not that I would want to kill of course.
And there I was walking endlessly in an abyss waiting for something or someone to give me a way out.
God this is getting long I don't know what to say anymore.
Right back to the wishes I've decided I want to go to the world of.