POV Max.
I'm stuck between the feelings of my past and my inability to trust myself, back then I was always wanting attention, she was the only person I had to support me, I thought I had her affection when I needed it most and when it turned into love, I knew that things were starting badly the moment I began to feel that without you I could die.
Every time I thought of a future without you, all those terrible endings popped into my head.
And so I have been preparing for a long time to finally end it all, to leave my past behind, all the suffering.
But somehow you find smaller cracks in my decisions and burst through them.
Every time I couldn't take it you ran back into my arms, even now you're ruining me little by little.
And if we had truly become lovers, that would have fixed everything in the past, but damn the moment you carved yourself so deep into my heart that I was terrified of your abandonment, you ruined everything for me.
