The first thing I notice after leaving work is the freezing cold rain that sprinkles like a mist that first appears in spring, Only it's winter now causing the roads to be slick with ice. The cold making me think about my girlfriend and how distant we've become. As if all romance has been stomped and crushed to death. It isn't like I haven't tried to fix it there's just hasn't been an easy opportunity to. Besides working 18 hour shifts for such meager pay of $1200 a month in a city that cost just $800 a month for renting a shitty 1bedroom apartment it becomes extremely hard to find the time to be happy unless both you and your partner are working.
Continuing to walk home along the old worn out road I pause as I can feel my phone vibrate. I had to turn the ringtone off because the boss finds it inefficient to effective work ethic if we get distracted by a call. I remember my co-worker killing himself because he missed a call from the hospital telling him that his wife and kids had been in an accident and have since passed away. Tearing myself away from these deprecating thoughts I answer the phone. The first thing I'm greeted with is "I'm breaking up with you." What?! I stood shocked still my already red hands from the cold go stark white as you can see the bones from clenching my hands so hard.
"Is it something I've done? Can't we work through it?" I reply. "No, and its not you it's just that I found someone who can give me what I deserve. Someone that actually makes me feel like a woman. I hope you can understand Alex but with the way life is right now I don't think I could ever be happy with you." Suddenly I'm overcome with rage. All I want to do is RIP and TEAR. I want to show the world what happens when you push a man too far. 'No' I think forcibly calming myself. I would've done the same thing if it meant I could find just a little bit more joy in life.
"I understand Beck I've gotta go I'll catch you around sometime." I reply. "Wait Alex-" I cut her off by ending the call. Rubbing a hand through my soft dirty blond hair I sigh whilst crossing the road. Not looking where I was going I end up slipping on some ice falling in the middle of the incoming traffic that I was to busy to notice through the thick haze of emotions going through my head. Before I know it I'm struck by a vehicle, left to bleed out on the slick cold ground. My blood pooling around me quickly becoming ice as I slowly close my eyes for the last time in this life.
Slowly coming to, I quickly realize that I'm not on Aleph anymore. Which is pretty obvious looking at the never ending black marble floor showing me Aleph beneath me. The planet frozen still as if captured in a picture or painting. It is at this moment I start freaking out as I've come to the realization that I have died. Whilst in the middle of my panic attack I'm shocked still as I suddenly hear a voice. "Greetings my child, Welcome to the after life. Now I know you have many questions. Sadly they are questions I don't have the time to answer. First off yes, I am god. Second, you have died. And finally third, You will not enter heaven." God calmly states. "A-AA-Am I going to hell." I squeak. "I haven't even done anything wrong. Sure holding hands before marriage is sinful but we live in a society where that's natural now. You can't punish me for the changing of societal beliefs. That's Tyranny!" I protest. " Haha, no my child. I will be sending you to a new world one where you can live how you want. As for the why... well I'll leave that up to your imagination."