(Author POV)
[The incident in the dream continues to the state when Arabella and Muticus already love each other]
On a very lonely and silent night, the Moon was so bright, creating such a beautiful atmosphere. Although its beauty is still far less than the stars in the sky.
Muticus had returned to the palace again, he chose to sit on a park bench and stared at the apples that were on it. The weather was very cold and humid. He didn't know whether the weather at that time was a good or bad sign.
he once sighed tiredly, he closed his eyes slowly and enjoyed the morning weather. the feelings in his heart were so messy, he was so afraid of losing Arabella. But Fate has said otherwise, that this world will fall apart and everything will end in bloodshed.
"You came back from outside?" Arabella's voice made Muticus open his eyes and look to the source of the sound, then he started to smile when he saw Arabella who was already sitting beside him and looking up at the sky again. "The world feels very beautiful, yes, even its beauty sometimes makes us trapped in an increasingly artificial state. I really want to see a better world than this, is it possible?" Arabella's question left Muticus speechless, he didn't know what to say to Ara.
About the bloodshed that will happen, about a new civilization that will bring a lot of pain. Will the world really change? Would the world be just as beautiful? No one knows, because the world is full of puzzles. This world is full of hate and lies only. Muticus does not understand why the world was created, if in the end it must end in deep sadness.
Muticus also doesn't know if after this all life will be the same? Will the love he feels will continue to grow and bloom like a flower in summer?
"I hope that the world that has passed will bring many meaningful changes, although I don't know if those changes are very good for us. Arabella, do you have any hope for our future?" Muticus asked in a very low voice, Ara who heard the question immediately smiled so gently.
"Of course I have, I want to have cute and adorable children, then we can take care of our children and grandchildren together. I want this palace to be filled with joy and also a lot of love. all of that's right?" Arabella Smiling happily when she said what was in her mouth, Muticus who heard all that didn't know whether to be happy or sad.
He wanted to imagine, too, all those wonderfully beautiful futures. The abandonment of the future fits the gaze of intense passionate romance. This intensity requires immediate action that will 'fan' the fire of romance.
Retaining taste in the long term is not part of this scenario. This attitude is made on the assumption that situations are important because of their short and temporary nature.
Love becomes unimportant, because passion is more passionate. Yes, the future has many meanings and serious circumstances. Muticus knows very well that everything that happens takes time.
"Then what about you? Do you dream of a better future? What if that future is a death? Are you going to do everything you can to live a better life today? Like eating all the things you never eat, drinking all that you never drink. Doing all the things you've never done, are you really going to do all these things?" Arabella asked back.
"Excessive attitudes such as eating, drinking, and having fun, because tomorrow we die, may satisfy sexual arousal or desire from time to time, but will not lead to true happiness. People who live by the principle that life is focused on activities, fun activities that are contemporary.
If life is really very short, they believe that it is better to enjoy it to the fullest with various fun activities from time to time. I want to tell you a few things Ara, about my life and about all the things I want to do with all the love I feel. Do you want to hear?" Muticus asked Ara, Ara who heard this could only be silent.
She looked at Muticus's face and wondered about all the words that the man had said which confused her so much. It wasn't Ara who didn't understand, but the words Yang Muticus spoke like a farewell that was difficult to understand.
"Okay, just say it." Ara said at last.
"I love you so much, even though I know you might marry someone else one day and have your own happiness. I know it's wrong, because whatever I do is a very fatal thing. Like Limiting yourself to love from time to time, and ignoring the future, of course, is impossible. We do not live only with love that is momentary, but, we live in a world full of possibilities, of romantic love that lives for hundreds of years.
It seemed impossible to act without considering the endless possibilities. The capacity of our lives today is not only about living in the present, but also about past and future conditions, what is possible and is happening.
Of course, people tend to think about the future, when the present or past life is very heavy and so bad, surely things are potentially more fun to imagine.
It's all built that way, with so many other interesting possibilities, love in the present becomes more conceptually fluid and accordingly, romantic relationships tend to be more fragile in the past, making us hesitant to have a more long-term love relationship. confusing.
like how I feel right now, this feeling is so beautiful for me to feel every time. Sometimes I want to go back in time, so I can have you completely, in the past you were the only woman I dreamed of. no man loves you or wishes to have you.
However, the biggest problem right now is not focusing on myself, because I'm only thinking about the current situation, which is quite the opposite. when I have to become a slave to love in the future, which will tarnish the romantic love full of meaning in the present.
Because of the possibility of romantic love in the future that makes our hearts stressed. we can not appreciate the true meaning of love at this time. We tend to fall into fake love and fluctuating feelings, ignoring the more stable aspects and approaching true love itself. We compromise on the possibility of connected love and long-term relationships being able to enjoy the turbulent trap of love even if only occasionally.
Do you feel that feeling? about how you feel now, about what you felt in the past. and how you feel in the future. did you feel all those things?" Muticus's question made Ara's throat feel dry.