Don't feel sorry for me Khai you left me broken once and there won't be a repeat.

Its been two full years but every now and again I'm dragged into that tragic memory. We were lying in bed watching anime and then he said it:

Khai: I'm moving out. I found a place close to work. Driving five hours daily isn't working out anymore.

Kali: What? When do you plan on moving out?

Khai: Wednesday.

Kali: Wednesday! Can we even afford another place right now with all the debt?

Khai: I'll pay the mortgage but you have to pay the other bills.

Kali: But you know my salary can't afford that.

Khai: I will also pay for the dog food but you will have to feed them or I can get rid of them.

Kali: I will feed the dogs don't give them away. But I can't afford the bills alone.

Khai: Well that is all I can do.

Kali: Ok, will you atleast come home on the weekends?

Khai: I am not making you any promises.

Kali: Seriously? Will you atleast let me know when you are coming home.

Khai: No, when I come I come.

Looking back I can't believe how pathetic I was. I sounded like an expired girlfriend and not his wife. Frankly, even a sidegal get better treatment than this. Disrespect pon Disrespect. All in the name of love. Ugh...

The saddest thing was that at this point we hadn't had sex in a year and big idiot me was surprised this man was moving out kmt... He rented and furnished the place too. I felt like I was inconveniently shelved until he was ready to use or discard me. Sadly I've been feeling like this for more than the sexless year.

But now he's back. He wants to dust me off the shelve and graciously tune up my batteries. Poor thing, I don't need him to feel sorry for me and I certainly don't want him back... Like shenseea said "mi nuh recycle garbage under mi frock" 😴.

But he is so fucking persistent and I miss his uncircumcised, thick, curved, black... 😫 No No No we are not doing it... We need to find a nice safe replacement... Fuck you Khai and your devish dick too.