A fool.
A big fool and nothing else.
that is exactly what I looked like. it's exactly what I think I look like him so because what excuse would ever come to cover this? this madness and insanity? this general ability? should have done better. I should have been better prepared. but how? how will they have been prepared the woman that was working in to my office today was none other than the same person who had broken my heart and let me like that.