It was around 6:00 o'clock in the morning when my mom woke me up. My parents planned to leave early in the morning itself as they wanted to go to visit Mysore before they would go back home. Of course mom told me yesterday itself that they will be leaving . So I woke up immediately and helped her with her packings.
She got dressed while I packed her stuffs. After sometime, jiju called to say that they were waiting for me and mom outside the hostel gate as males weren't allowed to enter. Yesterday was an exception as we couldn't carry such heavy stuffs by ourselves.
After mom got ready we reached the gate where jiju and dad were waiting for us. My mom couldn't even speak buy still she managed to say , " Assalamualaikum ....take care of yourself and don't do something that would degrade yourself... Now you will be all alone in an entire different environment . So just take care and focus on yourself and your studies..." By the time she finished talking....water already formed under her eyes threatening to fall.
By then we reached dad and jiju. I handed the trolly to dad. Even his eyes were filled with tears threatening to fall anytime. He told me , " A girl is the prestige of a family ...so take care of our family. Its in your hand. Don't do the mistakes you did earlier. I forgave you once ....probably I wont be there to do it second time...." Then he took a long breath and kissed my forhead and told , " Leaving everything aside....take care of yourself and most importantly study well ..... Remember I am leaving a piece of my heart and going.... " Before he could complete his words tears rolled down his eyes and along with him mom's last piece of control she was having upon her tears rolled down her eyes.
So lighten the situation I assured them , " I would take care of myself as well as your prestige and also study well. Now stop crying ....its not like its my first time I am away from home. "
" Yes of course we know that....." , mom told.
I signalled jiju to lighten the situation ....so he spoke up , " Okay.....Dear.... We are leaving. Take care of yourself..... Their isn't much time left for the train to arrive so we must leave now. I will call you and have some chat. Assalamualaikum..... "
" Walaikum assalam..... " , I could sense some seriousness in his words ....so I already had a guess what it could be....
That's when my parents left and I couldn't hold back my tears anymore seeing them leave . The pain of staying far from home with my parents around me will remain same forever.... no matter how long I had been staying without them . But I couldn't tell them about it because even they were in pain without me around them.
The feeling were mutual its just that I never expressed while they did. I hid it so well that my parents started believing that I love to stay in hostel then at home and I would like to keep it that way. Then I rubbed my tears before entering the room as my roommate was awake. I don't knw why but I don't like to let people see me broken or when I am in tears. Very few people of my life saw me crying. They are the one in front of whom I let my guard down.
Once I was in room , my roommate was already asleep again. And we had to go to college by 9:00 o'clock I planned on sleeping a bit more but I wasn't feeling sleepy. Then I took my phone and saw that my boyfriend was still online .....so we chatted untill 7;30AM. Then I had to take bath so I asked him to sleep and went to take bath. Once I was done I woke my roommate up . Then we both got ready by 8:30 and went to college for the programs.