He made me trust guys again. He made me trust guys with golden brown hair-which he has streaks of- or any hair color.
He made my relationship with my dad get stronger again, too sad it didn't last long because my dad died, before I could even feel guilty of pushing him away.
Bryne cleans my cheek with his thumb and I notice I am crying. He plays with my hair and strokes my cheek with his other hand.
I draw in a breath and inhale his scent and it immediately soothes me. I won't lie that I don't miss all this care and intimacy with him, I do, a lot infact I crave it everytime, the warmth our bodies get from physical contact, the sensation I get when he takes care of me.
Damn! I still love him, and as many heart beats my heart missed when I said that I still want to stand on my word of not dating him again. But most importantly I want answers and that I will get now.
"Bryne" Red caution Bailey, this may not end well, proceed at hearts' risk.
"Hmm" he mumbles half-heartedly
"I want to-"
"Ssshh" he places his index finger over my mouth to make me silent.
As if this is not enough body contact for one night, I stick out my tongue and lick his finger. I can feel him smile and he moans throatily, a very sexy sound of course!
Focus baby, focus. I remove his finger from my mouth "Bryne, why did you kiss Bella" I think all this emotional shit is affecting me because my voice sounds so soft, softer than usual, almost like a whisper.
His body tenses up under me and he takes a deep breath. "Seeing you with Cole, and even hugging him that day made me mad. I came there to meet you, to apologize about breaking up with you and I saw that. It clouded my whole sense and I kissed her, just to make you feel the same way I felt".
"Oh" noted, he's a very jealous person. He wanted to apologize, then why didn't he do that after that day, why did he just let me face all that heartbreak
"Then why did you not tell me that you wanted me back, why did you let me go through all of that" With the pace I'm going I would get so emotional, I can see the near future already.
"I'm sorry, I felt so bad I couldn't face you"
"Oh really" I I sit up immediately and look at him, I want to see his facial expression in all this. "You could've called, a text would've helped. You're just so funny. Why now? What suddenly made you have the balls to face me now. I called you Bryne, I called you days after that, I suppressed all the hurt, all the anger, all the humiliation I felt that day and I still called you, I called you everyday for a week, I thought maybe you still wanted me, I looked like a pathetic love sick fella just because I wanted you" I wipe the tear that fall from my eyes. I'm really a big bundle of emotional cheesecake.
"Why did you leave me, you just left, no calls, no sign of you, you left me and everyday I hoped you'd come back, I went to your house regularly just to see if you were there but you came here, you came to Charleston, you didn't even tell me, do you know how much that hurt. You told me you didn't want a girl that does not listen to every damn thing you say right? You didn't want me to be an actress and I was ready to change that for you, I stopped all my dreams of acting with the hope you'd come back, how stupid of me!"
His hand reaches for mine "Don't touch me, let me finish" I shake his hands off me. "I waited, cried, hurting on the inside but you came here, you enjoyed your life here, you didn't look back, like I never mattered to you and now you're keeping me here. Infact you have nerves" I angrily wipe the tears off my cheek. Good! Strong Bailey I back.
"Yes you have nerves. How dare you even take me from Cole's house, how dare you drug me, how dare you bring me here. I should've told the cops about this, why are you doing all this now? Why are you doing all this make believe I-love-you story now? Five months ago you didn't love me, why now" I leave the bed. I'm not going near him.
"And now because I hurt your ego by going to Cole you decide to this, do you think I love you?" I raise my hands in the air "Do you even think I'm a fool to believe you love me, I know you Bryne, you never do something that will not bring gain to you, I'm sure this is some sort of dare, stop acting like you care, I don't need it. Keep your goddamn care to yourself, I can take care of myself, I know you feel I can't, but I can, I've been taking care of myself before you came along, I took care of myself after you left so don't come to me and try to pierce the old wounds okay? I've managed to get my heart to this point where it has gotten so much healing so don't contaminate the scar okay" You see most times I like myself when I'm angry because I say things without thinking.
"So I had one stupid nightmare and you're behaving like you care so what happened to all the times I had nightmares when you were not with me, did I die? So don't give me all this bullshit now".
Bryne crosses over to where I am and pins me to the wall. I struggle with him but it's of no use. He holds my hands down to the wall and crashes his lips into mine.
No! No! No!
I resist the kiss with every cell of anti-Bryne I have in my body till the other cells overpower it and I give in to the kiss. I slightly part my lips, giving his tongue access into my mouth.
His lips roughly suck my lips and he eases his grip on me and wraps his hand around my waist, closing any inch of space between us. My knees get weak from all this and I keep my hands on his back, bending into him fully. His hands go to my arse and he kneads hardly.